That does sound like a pretty horrible situation all round. You like to work on your own, and then all of a sudden you're thrust into this situation where you have to socialise with people you don't know. I would hate that, too.Horrible. So there's this big empty study center in the basement of the library that I hang out in a lot either in between classes or waiting for my friend to get out of class. No one ever hardly comes in here, I don't know why, but I like it that way. I like keeping to myself and working alone. Well, a whole group of students just came in here, totally caught me by surprise, and then had all these puzzled looks on their faces because I'm just sitting in here alone. I was about to leave, because I thought it was a class or something about to use the room when I see my lab instructor from last semester's Biochemistry class and says "No you're okay." (this was the Chem lab library tour -- had it last year) And then all of a sudden she starts introducing me to this group of people and asking me questions about last year's class, but I didn't even know how to respond. I just stuttered a lot and gave weird short answers. Obviously they were weird since she responded to one as, "Well that wasn't exactly what I was looking for." It was all over within a few mins., but I felt like she just rushed them out because of me. I apologized but she's just like, "No it's okay. See you around." as she was walking out the door.
I feel like bursting into tears right now. :crying: I'm tired, but I was finally feeling okay since all my anxiety diminished from earlier in the day and I managed to get some homework done. All it takes is a situation like that to get my heart pumping like crazy, blood rushing, my head hurting, and feeling like I'm slowly being suffocated while also feeling like I want to throw up all over again. :sad: It really just makes me hate myself even more.
Yikes, I'm sorry about your grandmother. 93 is a pretty good innings, though. I'll be surprised if I reach anywhere near that, so you got many years with her.Pretty darn bad. My 93 year old grandmother passed away this morning, the only men I can find that want to go out with me are the ones who only want FWB and the EX who said "never contact me again" actually spoke to me today.
Awesome! What are you doing that you love?happy. i am doing what i love. it feels so good.
Horrible. So there's this big empty study center in the basement of the library that I hang out in a lot either in between classes or waiting for my friend to get out of class. No one ever hardly comes in here, I don't know why, but I like it that way. I like keeping to myself and working alone. Well, a whole group of students just came in here, totally caught me by surprise, and then had all these puzzled looks on their faces because I'm just sitting in here alone. I was about to leave, because I thought it was a class or something about to use the room when I see my lab instructor from last semester's Biochemistry class and says "No you're okay." (this was the Chem lab library tour -- had it last year) And then all of a sudden she starts introducing me to this group of people and asking me questions about last year's class, but I didn't even know how to respond. I just stuttered a lot and gave weird short answers. Obviously they were weird since she responded to one as, "Well that wasn't exactly what I was looking for." It was all over within a few mins., but I felt like she just rushed them out because of me. I apologized but she's just like, "No it's okay. See you around." as she was walking out the door.
I feel like bursting into tears right now. I'm tired, but I was finally feeling okay since all my anxiety diminished from earlier in the day and I managed to get some homework done. All it takes is a situation like that to get my heart pumping like crazy, blood rushing, my head hurting, and feeling like I'm slowly being suffocated while also feeling like I want to throw up all over again. :sad: It really just makes me hate myself even more.
Pretty darn bad. My 93 year old grandmother passed away this morning
I was having a bad time earlier, since I had to make a phone call. It took one hour to psych myself up for it, and the phone call lasted less than one minute, all the while the lady at the other end was polite and friendly. To that end I feel proud of myself, despite the amount of time it took to prepare for the call.
It has been a setback - yesterday and today - but now I'm more vigilant!
I also watched American Dad earlier and had a laugh, so I feel pretty good now.
That's great that it gets easier for you each time you do it.I do that all the time. I'll spend half a day worrying about a phone call and end up spending three minutes on the phone with a perfectly polite person. But each time I do it, it becomes a bit easier to make that call.
Also, American Dad is a good way to go. It always cheers me up!![]()
Sounds like a wonderful day for you. :thumbup:I had a strange, but ultimately good day. My therapist and I talked about some meaningful stuff (not that we usually don't) and I wandered around Barnes & Noble for an hour and didn't spend more than $20. :applause:
I feel a little bit crushed.
I thought a certain state college was only $8k a year including room and board. Seemed too good to be true, but the way the fees were listed on the page was deceptive. For a good three or four hours I was planning out a way to pay for it, and I was really excited. Then I found something saying the total cost per year about about $17k, and when I looked around on the site more I found that to be true :sad:
I wish so much that I had just stayed at the last school I was at and gotten a Bachelors in something... anything at this point. Maybe things will work out for me, but I don't have high hopes. For now I just need to talk to a counselor I guess, I don't know what else to do. I feel horrible.
Then go ahead and make stuff.making stuff.![]()
Then go ahead and make stuff.You certainly sound happier now than when you were working.
That will come. For now, enjoy the serenity of not having a totalitarian boss! :bigsmile:it's been a huge relief mentally. i still need to work to support myself but hopefully it will be something less stressful. :thumbup: looking.
^ I was surprised by her reactions yesterday too, since I loved having her as an instructor last semester. She was actually a really neat, quirky person and good teacher, never really called anyone out or anything. She's a student intern, only three years older than me. I don't really want to hold it against her, it didn't seem like her. Maybe she was just in a bad mood and overall having a bad day. I know, that's not exactly an excuse to do what she did, but not really sure how to feel or think. I'd rather just forget the whole thing happened, to be honest.I'm sorry. She kind of sounds like an ass to me. How did she think someone would respond to a barrage of questions that they didn't know was coming?
^ Sounds great!I had a strange, but ultimately good day. My therapist and I talked about some meaningful stuff (not that we usually don't) and I wandered around Barnes & Noble for an hour and didn't spend more than $20. :applause:
^ I'm feeling a lot better about it today. I'm just going to forget about it. I mean I know I'm much more awkward than most people, but I think even the most normal person would've had a hard time with that too.That does sound like a pretty horrible situation all round. You like to work on your own, and then all of a sudden you're thrust into this situation where you have to socialise with people you don't know. I would hate that, too.
Don't hate yourself for it, because a lot of people would be a little shocked. Settle yourself and you'll be okay before you know it.
^ I'm sorry, Opa. College pricing sucks, even more so when you can barely afford it. Would you be enrolling as a freshman though? Or do you have college credits and would be transferring? Most colleges offer a lot of scholarship opportunities you could receive if you're a freshman, and might just carry out over the semesters. And of course you have loans and financial aid, which both are not fun and can be tricky, but just about everyone has to fill those out too while they're going to school. I wish there was another easier way to pay for college, but sadly there isn't. The best you can do is when it comes to supplies and stuff, to try and find discounts and whatnot any way you can so you're not shelling out more money than you need to.I feel a little bit crushed.
I thought a certain state college was only $8k a year including room and board. Seemed too good to be true, but the way the fees were listed on the page was deceptive. For a good three or four hours I was planning out a way to pay for it, and I was really excited. Then I found something saying the total cost per year about about $17k, and when I looked around on the site more I found that to be true :sad:
I wish so much that I had just stayed at the last school I was at and gotten a Bachelors in something... anything at this point. Maybe things will work out for me, but I don't have high hopes. For now I just need to talk to a counselor I guess, I don't know what else to do. I feel horrible.
Hope everything works out and you're able to get a single room - that will make a big difference! Maybe you can get out for a walk if it's not too cold and take some pics for us to see.I've been over a week in England, finished training on monday (should have been on friday but it felt out because of the snow) and now I have days off until I can begin to work. I am quite stressed, as I lack excercise, especially miss my bike and would like to have a single room as well. Hope where I am going I will get a single room, but that's not for sure because I am apparently going there with my current roommate. I really could use future prediction sometimes, this is all waiting waiting and going through the moves with no idea what happens next.
Ouch! I looked like a total chipmunk face when I had mine taken out.In pain; got a wisdom tooth pulled and stitches. *holds shark shaped ice compress to face*
I'm the same way but glad you hung in there man.I was having a bad time earlier, since I had to make a phone call. It took one hour to psych myself up for it, and the phone call lasted less than one minute, all the while the lady at the other end was polite and friendly. To that end I feel proud of myself, despite the amount of time it took to prepare for the call.
It has been a setback - yesterday and today - but now I'm more vigilant!
I also watched American Dad earlier and had a laugh, so I feel pretty good now.![]()
^ *winces* You have my sympathies. I hated when I got mine done, but I gotta say it feels so much better without them.In pain; got a wisdom tooth pulled and stitches. *holds shark shaped ice compress to face*
^ I did too. For a few months at that!Ouch! I looked like a total chipmunk face when I had mine taken out.