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MikeyC

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Horrible. So there's this big empty study center in the basement of the library that I hang out in a lot either in between classes or waiting for my friend to get out of class. No one ever hardly comes in here, I don't know why, but I like it that way. I like keeping to myself and working alone. Well, a whole group of students just came in here, totally caught me by surprise, and then had all these puzzled looks on their faces because I'm just sitting in here alone. I was about to leave, because I thought it was a class or something about to use the room when I see my lab instructor from last semester's Biochemistry class and says "No you're okay." (this was the Chem lab library tour -- had it last year) And then all of a sudden she starts introducing me to this group of people and asking me questions about last year's class, but I didn't even know how to respond. I just stuttered a lot and gave weird short answers. Obviously they were weird since she responded to one as, "Well that wasn't exactly what I was looking for." It was all over within a few mins., but I felt like she just rushed them out because of me. I apologized but she's just like, "No it's okay. See you around." as she was walking out the door.

I feel like bursting into tears right now. :crying: I'm tired, but I was finally feeling okay since all my anxiety diminished from earlier in the day and I managed to get some homework done. All it takes is a situation like that to get my heart pumping like crazy, blood rushing, my head hurting, and feeling like I'm slowly being suffocated while also feeling like I want to throw up all over again. :sad: It really just makes me hate myself even more.
That does sound like a pretty horrible situation all round. You like to work on your own, and then all of a sudden you're thrust into this situation where you have to socialise with people you don't know. I would hate that, too.

Don't hate yourself for it, because a lot of people would be a little shocked. Settle yourself and you'll be okay before you know it.

Pretty darn bad. My 93 year old grandmother passed away this morning, the only men I can find that want to go out with me are the ones who only want FWB and the EX who said "never contact me again" actually spoke to me today.
Yikes, I'm sorry about your grandmother. 93 is a pretty good innings, though. I'll be surprised if I reach anywhere near that, so you got many years with her. :)

As for the men: if they're not the type you want to hang out with, don't. You're under no obligation.

happy. i am doing what i love. it feels so good.
Awesome! What are you doing that you love?
 

MikeyC

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I was having a bad time earlier, since I had to make a phone call. It took one hour to psych myself up for it, and the phone call lasted less than one minute, all the while the lady at the other end was polite and friendly. To that end I feel proud of myself, despite the amount of time it took to prepare for the call.

It has been a setback - yesterday and today - but now I'm more vigilant!

I also watched American Dad earlier and had a laugh, so I feel pretty good now. :)
 
Horrible. So there's this big empty study center in the basement of the library that I hang out in a lot either in between classes or waiting for my friend to get out of class. No one ever hardly comes in here, I don't know why, but I like it that way. I like keeping to myself and working alone. Well, a whole group of students just came in here, totally caught me by surprise, and then had all these puzzled looks on their faces because I'm just sitting in here alone. I was about to leave, because I thought it was a class or something about to use the room when I see my lab instructor from last semester's Biochemistry class and says "No you're okay." (this was the Chem lab library tour -- had it last year) And then all of a sudden she starts introducing me to this group of people and asking me questions about last year's class, but I didn't even know how to respond. I just stuttered a lot and gave weird short answers. Obviously they were weird since she responded to one as, "Well that wasn't exactly what I was looking for." It was all over within a few mins., but I felt like she just rushed them out because of me. I apologized but she's just like, "No it's okay. See you around." as she was walking out the door.

I feel like bursting into tears right now. I'm tired, but I was finally feeling okay since all my anxiety diminished from earlier in the day and I managed to get some homework done. All it takes is a situation like that to get my heart pumping like crazy, blood rushing, my head hurting, and feeling like I'm slowly being suffocated while also feeling like I want to throw up all over again. :sad: It really just makes me hate myself even more.

I'm sorry. She kind of sounds like an ass to me. How did she think someone would respond to a barrage of questions that they didn't know was coming?

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True. But without pain, there would be no pleasure.

Is something troubling you, Arthur?

Pretty darn bad. My 93 year old grandmother passed away this morning

I'm sorry about your grandmother.

I was having a bad time earlier, since I had to make a phone call. It took one hour to psych myself up for it, and the phone call lasted less than one minute, all the while the lady at the other end was polite and friendly. To that end I feel proud of myself, despite the amount of time it took to prepare for the call.

It has been a setback - yesterday and today - but now I'm more vigilant!

I also watched American Dad earlier and had a laugh, so I feel pretty good now.

I do that all the time. I'll spend half a day worrying about a phone call and end up spending three minutes on the phone with a perfectly polite person. But each time I do it, it becomes a bit easier to make that call.

Also, American Dad is a good way to go. It always cheers me up! :D

I had a strange, but ultimately good day. My therapist and I talked about some meaningful stuff (not that we usually don't) and I wandered around Barnes & Noble for an hour and didn't spend more than $20. :applause:
 
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MikeyC

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I do that all the time. I'll spend half a day worrying about a phone call and end up spending three minutes on the phone with a perfectly polite person. But each time I do it, it becomes a bit easier to make that call.

Also, American Dad is a good way to go. It always cheers me up! :D
That's great that it gets easier for you each time you do it. :) Hopefully the end result is that making and receiving phone calls are easy as pie with no anxiety whatsoever.

I'm watching season 7 of American Dad and I have to say that it's the funniest season since number 2. I'm really enjoying it and Seth MacFarlane is finally realising his potential!

I had a strange, but ultimately good day. My therapist and I talked about some meaningful stuff (not that we usually don't) and I wandered around Barnes & Noble for an hour and didn't spend more than $20. :applause:
Sounds like a wonderful day for you. :thumbup:
 
I feel a little bit crushed.

I thought a certain state college was only $8k a year including room and board. Seemed too good to be true, but the way the fees were listed on the page was deceptive. For a good three or four hours I was planning out a way to pay for it, and I was really excited. Then I found something saying the total cost per year about about $17k, and when I looked around on the site more I found that to be true :sad:

I wish so much that I had just stayed at the last school I was at and gotten a Bachelors in something... anything at this point. Maybe things will work out for me, but I don't have high hopes. For now I just need to talk to a counselor I guess, I don't know what else to do. I feel horrible.
 
I feel a little bit crushed.

I thought a certain state college was only $8k a year including room and board. Seemed too good to be true, but the way the fees were listed on the page was deceptive. For a good three or four hours I was planning out a way to pay for it, and I was really excited. Then I found something saying the total cost per year about about $17k, and when I looked around on the site more I found that to be true :sad:

I wish so much that I had just stayed at the last school I was at and gotten a Bachelors in something... anything at this point. Maybe things will work out for me, but I don't have high hopes. For now I just need to talk to a counselor I guess, I don't know what else to do. I feel horrible.


Thats crap. Im sorry Beat:sad:
 

dottie

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Then go ahead and make stuff. :D You certainly sound happier now than when you were working.

it's been a huge relief mentally. i still need to work to support myself but hopefully it will be something less stressful. :thumbup: looking.
 

MikeyC

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it's been a huge relief mentally. i still need to work to support myself but hopefully it will be something less stressful. :thumbup: looking.
That will come. For now, enjoy the serenity of not having a totalitarian boss! :bigsmile:
 

Lea

Banned
I've been over a week in England, finished training on monday (should have been on friday but it felt out because of the snow) and now I have days off until I can begin to work. I am quite stressed, as I lack excercise, especially miss my bike and would like to have a single room as well. Hope where I am going I will get a single room, but that's not for sure because I am apparently going there with my current roommate. I really could use future prediction sometimes, this is all waiting waiting and going through the moves with no idea what happens next.
 

laure15

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Earlier I spoke with a woman on the phone. Her accent was so thick that I could not understand her 45-40% of the time. At first I thought it was the headphone's problem but later I realize that's not it. Maybe at the beginning, but it was fixed already. Anyways, even though I couldn't really understand her, I tried to be polite as possible and just answer what I thought she asked me. I don't want to keep asking her, "I cannot understand you, can you please repeat?" because that will be embarassing. Towards the end, I could understand her much better. She suggested communicating with me over email which is a very good option. Overall, the call went ok, not as scary as I thought it would be. I was also surprised that I didn't sound as phlegmy as I thought I would. I thought about turning on the webcam for the chat, but didn't bother to (to save bandwidth and because I'll feel more nervous with webcam on). I have another call coming up this week, but I think I'll get used to it.
 

Phoenixx

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I'm sorry. She kind of sounds like an ass to me. How did she think someone would respond to a barrage of questions that they didn't know was coming?
^ I was surprised by her reactions yesterday too, since I loved having her as an instructor last semester. She was actually a really neat, quirky person and good teacher, never really called anyone out or anything. She's a student intern, only three years older than me. I don't really want to hold it against her, it didn't seem like her. Maybe she was just in a bad mood and overall having a bad day. I know, that's not exactly an excuse to do what she did, but not really sure how to feel or think. I'd rather just forget the whole thing happened, to be honest.

I had a strange, but ultimately good day. My therapist and I talked about some meaningful stuff (not that we usually don't) and I wandered around Barnes & Noble for an hour and didn't spend more than $20. :applause:
^ Sounds great! :perfect: So what book(s) did you buy this time around?


That does sound like a pretty horrible situation all round. You like to work on your own, and then all of a sudden you're thrust into this situation where you have to socialise with people you don't know. I would hate that, too.

Don't hate yourself for it, because a lot of people would be a little shocked. Settle yourself and you'll be okay before you know it.
^ I'm feeling a lot better about it today. I'm just going to forget about it. I mean I know I'm much more awkward than most people, but I think even the most normal person would've had a hard time with that too.

I feel a little bit crushed.

I thought a certain state college was only $8k a year including room and board. Seemed too good to be true, but the way the fees were listed on the page was deceptive. For a good three or four hours I was planning out a way to pay for it, and I was really excited. Then I found something saying the total cost per year about about $17k, and when I looked around on the site more I found that to be true :sad:

I wish so much that I had just stayed at the last school I was at and gotten a Bachelors in something... anything at this point. Maybe things will work out for me, but I don't have high hopes. For now I just need to talk to a counselor I guess, I don't know what else to do. I feel horrible.
^ I'm sorry, Opa. College pricing sucks, even more so when you can barely afford it. Would you be enrolling as a freshman though? Or do you have college credits and would be transferring? Most colleges offer a lot of scholarship opportunities you could receive if you're a freshman, and might just carry out over the semesters. And of course you have loans and financial aid, which both are not fun and can be tricky, but just about everyone has to fill those out too while they're going to school. I wish there was another easier way to pay for college, but sadly there isn't. The best you can do is when it comes to supplies and stuff, to try and find discounts and whatnot any way you can so you're not shelling out more money than you need to.

Talking to a counselor will probably help too. Good luck!
 

Lamb

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In pain; got a wisdom tooth pulled and stitches. *holds shark shaped ice compress to face*
 
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1BlackSheep

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I've been over a week in England, finished training on monday (should have been on friday but it felt out because of the snow) and now I have days off until I can begin to work. I am quite stressed, as I lack excercise, especially miss my bike and would like to have a single room as well. Hope where I am going I will get a single room, but that's not for sure because I am apparently going there with my current roommate. I really could use future prediction sometimes, this is all waiting waiting and going through the moves with no idea what happens next.
Hope everything works out and you're able to get a single room - that will make a big difference! Maybe you can get out for a walk if it's not too cold and take some pics for us to see. :) Fingers crossed that this will turn out to be a good gig! At least you'll get a break from your dad for a while.

In pain; got a wisdom tooth pulled and stitches. *holds shark shaped ice compress to face*
Ouch! I looked like a total chipmunk face when I had mine taken out.
 

JuiceB

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I was having a bad time earlier, since I had to make a phone call. It took one hour to psych myself up for it, and the phone call lasted less than one minute, all the while the lady at the other end was polite and friendly. To that end I feel proud of myself, despite the amount of time it took to prepare for the call.

It has been a setback - yesterday and today - but now I'm more vigilant!

I also watched American Dad earlier and had a laugh, so I feel pretty good now. :)
I'm the same way but glad you hung in there man.
 
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