Why can’t I release my emotions while other people can? Why is it that other people can curse at me, calling me b---, f----, and s---, and get away with it? But when I call them “wt” or “tt”, I get retaliated against? It’s not fair because this is supposed to be a free country where people have freedom of speech. If other people get to curse, then I get to curse too. If other people get to name-call, I get to do that too, especially in retaliation to those people who labeled me. I am sick of the double standards that exist.
Now, I’m not even sure how to release my emotions without retaliation. If I tell somebody, they might think I’m really prejudiced as a person. This forum’s one of the only places where I can freely express my thoughts without judgment. I hate to bottle up emotions - I do that in the past and it kills me slowly inside. I end up a real emotional wreck later down the road.
I still want to vent. Just as those people still think I’m a b----, I still think they are wt and won’t back down. People can’t tell me what to think, and thinking doesn’t hurt anybody. People tell me that i should be more assertive, and this is what I'm doing.
Edit: I can't be an "angel" all the time. Sometimes I'm a "devil" but most of the time, I'm somewhere in between. I'm not perfect, people shouldn't expect me to act like a lady at all times.
