How are you feeling?

[MikeyC]

i feel rather alright. my friend passed out beside me and its the first time i've seen him for weeks, and im listening to tracy chapman, my father's old favorite singer, and eating rosemary gluten free crackers with humous, trying to sober up a bit. Officially sober. Somehow, a good night. At least right now, little things rule my life, and It's awesome..

well, that's how i felt a few minutes ago, anyways.. damn mood swings

Sounds like an overall good night was had.

Lonely, lonely & more lonely. Also so much frustration & unhappiness. My mind and body are so tired but can't get to sleep. Must be all that noise outside.

I'm sorry, Fighter. Under the circumstances I would think you could sleep like a log. What noise is going on outside?

 

[Falkor]

@Fighter26:

I'm really sorry to hear that you are going through these feelings of despair. If you are lonely you should find people to join and to talk to. I really hope youll feel less lonely then. And about frustrations, write them down, share them, try to do something about it. Action is worth the effort, because it will get you happy at the end. Don't doubt it, it's what you wish. So go for it


@Dottie:

A breaking up is one of the most painful things happening. You might like to check out ''How to get over a person'' blogs. I always did that in the past when it happened to me and when I was afraid of a break up. One thing that does make me think positive of the fact of a break up, is that it makes you stronger and you will learn to depend on yourself, you alone. Because that's the suffering of all our hearts being in love with another person. It learns to rely on the most important person which is you! Still, I can totally understand it is a vulnerable thing at this point, you can't forget about that special person, but just try to give it time, and try to think through what went wrong and how you can see that it makes sense for you and her. Try to accept the fact, not change yourself, because another person will like it, and try to eat a lot of icecream with friends or hug with animals.


~ I'm feeling inspired, I am not looking forward to travel by train though, i have to go back to home because i have to go to school tomorrow. I don't like trains, because i'm claustophobiac of people (Social phobia in trains ugh!) but I try to endure it. I have to in fact. But I will listen to nice songs and I will relax when I am home. I am good at the moment though, I love checking out SPW and I am thinking of writing a book or a blog. And I have some doubts in my life going through my mind, but I will see what I can do about it. ~

 

[Graeme1988]

Haven't really been doing so well, lately. 2 weeks ago, I overheard a phone conversation between my mum and one of my uncles. His cancer has come back and there's nothin' another treatment can do at this point. He also doesn't know how long he's got to live as the doctor's unsure - my mum recently told me this. I don't really know how to cope, because it just brought me in mind of my dad whom I also lost to cancer, earlier this year. :sad:Though, that said, my dad kept me in the dark about his cancer - I might have be the last one to be informed about it? Since he was closer to his other kids (my step-siblings) than me. Just an outta the blue phone call to me during the summer of 2011 sayin' he was in hospital and had cancer.

Anyways, I'm digressing. I'm feelin' extremely anxious at the moment, not just because of what I've just said, but my cousin and another of my uncles is coming up from London to stay tomorrow for a few days. Both of whom I've not seen or heard from much since last year, but they always ask my mum how am keepin' and all that. They're both going to visit my uncle Jock, see how he's dealing with the recent news about his cancer and talk since they've not seen each other for awhile... and it could be the last time they see him. :crying: (A depressing thought. I certainly hope not because they're has been enough deaths in ma family this year). After that, I think my cousin's going to meet a friend in Glasgow, and my uncle goes back to London.

That's about it, really. :idontknow: Just got tae get on with things, I guess...

 

[dottie]

@falkor thanks. yeah, it's taking a lot of time.

@graeme so sorry to hear this. it sounds like you've had a very rough past year. *hugs*

 

[truffleshuffle]

@graeme Sorry to hear man. It has to be a rough one thats for sure.

 

[truffleshuffle]

Major headache and a bit hungery

 

[Graeme1988]

@graeme so sorry to hear this. it sounds like you've had a very rough past year. *hugs*

@graeme Sorry to hear man. It has to be a rough one thats for sure.

Yeah, it's been rough as f**k! All went downhill after May 2012. Anyway, thanks for the support, dottie and truffleshuffle everyone else on here for that matter - who has listened to my usually complaints, rants, and general ups and downs. Much appreciated. :thumbup:

 

[Lea]

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[Graeme1988]

Didn't get much sleep last night. Stuck in a depressive mood. My self-loathing inner critic has been, metaphorically, kickin' f**k outta me mentally, as o' late. Nae confidence in maself as a result. :sad:

And social anxiety has been really for me at moment, too. My uncle and cousin have arrived to stay for a few day, haven't seen my uncle in a year, and haven't been keepin' in touch with my cousin much lately, either. I hate that I feel so awkward around them. mg::shyness:

 

[MikeyC]

Feel like crap! :thumbup:

Couldn't sleep last night so now I'm going to pay for it today. Haven't been in the best mood, either. I can't wait until Friday, when I get to drive to Melbourne. I hope that will be good for me.

 

[Gaucho]

i don't even wish my worst enemie bdd.

 

[Graeme1988]

Deeply depressed and indiffent. I just don't care anymore. Or am runnin' outta reason to do so...

Maybe I don't deserve to be happy? :sad: I mean, I'm constantly guilt-tripped and manipulated by my family into doing stuff I don't want to. But when I do something for me - "Oh, ye can't do that. That's no nice, that's selfish!" Anytime I say something, I'm in the wrong. So I don't the "sensable" thing and shut the hell up! Then that what ye get when you're raised by a man-hating feminist of a single parent mother. I love my mum, don't get me wrong. It's just difficult to talk openly about stuff - any mention of depression or the possiblity of me being a long-term relationship are constantly putdown and ignore.

Then there's my oldest sister, who recently said she ain't talkin' to me anymore because I rarely reply to her texts and emails. Aye, real mature for an adult, eh? Well excuse me for being a private, introverted person, by the way! I know that doesnae sit well with today's social norm of living yer life online. Every little detail available for the world to see...

But then, my oldest sister is someone who needs to know everything. I mean, she has a hissy fit if I don't tell what I recently bought online - privacy much? "Naebody tells me anything! Wah, wah, wah... :crying:". Oh, boo-f**kin'-hoo, is it yer time of the month again?! That's right, all my material purchase must shown to my oldest sister, as if it's any of her f**kin' business. :kickingmyself:

Sorry! Just needed tae rant!

 

[superfluouslyme]

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What's wrong?

 

[Srijita52]

Really really depressed and unmotivated..and I don't have a single clue why.

 

[Srijita52]

Deeply depressed and indiffent. I just don't care anymore. Or am runnin' outta reason to do so...

Maybe I don't deserve to be happy? :sad: I mean, I'm constantly guilt-tripped and manipulated by my family into doing stuff I don't want to. But when I do something for me - "Oh, ye can't do that. That's no nice, that's selfish!" Anytime I say something, I'm in the wrong. So I don't the "sensable" thing and shut the hell up! Then that what ye get when you're raised by a man-hating feminist of a single parent mother. I love my mum, don't get me wrong. It's just difficult to talk openly about stuff - any mention of depression or the possiblity of me being a long-term relationship are constantly putdown and ignore.

Then there's my oldest sister, who recently said she ain't talkin' to me anymore because I rarely reply to her texts and emails. Aye, real mature for an adult, eh? Well excuse me for being a private, introverted person, by the way! I know that doesnae sit well with today's social norm of living yer life online. Every little detail available for the world to see...

But then, my oldest sister is someone who needs to know everything. I mean, she has a hissy fit if I don't tell what I recently bought online - privacy much? "Naebody tells me anything! Wah, wah, wah... :crying:". Oh, boo-f**kin'-hoo, is it yer time of the month again?! That's right, all my material purchase must shown to my oldest sister, as if it's any of her f**kin' business. :kickingmyself:

Sorry! Just needed tae rant!

Stay strong Graeme. I don't even know what else to say. *hugs*

Feel like crap! :thumbup:

Couldn't sleep last night so now I'm going to pay for it today. Haven't been in the best mood, either. I can't wait until Friday, when I get to drive to Melbourne. I hope that will be good for me.

What's wrong Mikey? I hope you feel better soon.

 

[Graeme1988]

Really really depressed and unmotivated..and I don't have a single clue why.

Sorry to hear, Srijita. I'm kind of feelin' the same way. :sad:

Stay strong Graeme. I don't even know what else to say. *hugs*

Tryin' my best. But can't help feelin' like I'm a burden to my family. :sad: Sorry, that doesn't help, does it? Hugs to you as well, darlin'

 

[Srijita52]

Sorry to hear, Srijita. I'm kind of feelin' the same way. :sad:



Tryin' my best. But can't help feelin' like I'm a burden to my family. :sad: Sorry, that doesn't help, does it? Hugs to you as well, darlin'

I'm really sorry Graeme, I know you're trying your best. Thank you. I hope both of us feel better.

 

[Graeme1988]

I'm really sorry Graeme, I know you're trying your best. Thank you. I hope both of us feel better.

Yeah, let hope so. :thumbup: It's no' the best feelin' when you're depressed. Perhaps we should try to distract our minds for a moment? Watch a comedy, or listen to music... Just do somethin' to take our mind off the fact we're both depressed and unmotivated.

Anyway, feel better soon, darlin'. Right, am off to watch this DVD I got today:

Hilariously funny, politically satirical, British comedy. Ideal, because I really need a good laugh.

 

[Srijita52]

Yeah, let hope so. :thumbup: It's no' the best feelin' when you're depressed. Perhaps we should try to distract our minds for a moment? Watch a comedy, or listen to music... Just do somethin' to take our mind off the fact we're both depressed and unmotivated.

Anyway, feel better soon, darlin'. Right, am off to watch this DVD I got today:

Hilariously funny, politically satirical, British comedy. Ideal, because I really need a good laugh.

Yep, you're definitely right. I'm going to listen to some music and maybe read a book.
Oh seems great. I hope it helps to make you feel better.

 

[GanglyCritter]

Tired, groggy, sad. Might not have the job I applied for and went to the interview for. Looking forward to living with my mother who does nothing but whine and moan about me not having a job because I'm lazy, when I've applied to every place around town (and out of town!), and I'm a seller on eBay for chrissakes (for a while, she was asking me to sell my possessions just to give her the money because 'boohoo, i dont have money for anything... i want nice things!'. Stop buying 2 massive cartons of smokes every two weeks if it's such a problem.)

... yeah, not feelin too great.