How are you feeling?

Like I dont have anything to offer,dont have friends,dont have a hobby,dont know many places around here,dont really have much experience with anything.

Olhos Abertos said: ↑

Like I dont have anything to offer,dont have friends,dont have a hobby,dont know many places around here,dont really have much experience with anything.

I feel the same way.

Aside from that, I'm depressed as usual - my auntie's funeral is tomorrow. :🙁:

MikeyC said: ↑

A friend of mine sent me a text saying he was going to kill himself. He hasn't done so and he's at work now, but it has put me on edge and saturated with worry. He keeps saying he plans to suicide but this message was more final than the other ones. I try to be of help to him but nothing I say is helping. I don't know what to do anymore.

^ Sorry to hear that Mikey. Is he getting any professional help at all? Any convincing him to get help if he isn't getting any? Also, I'd definitely do what hidwell suggests and call the LifeLine, see what else you could do. Hope your friend will be okay soon.

DeadmanWalking said: ↑

Well, I'm sorry about your loss Lady. But, if anything is bothering you, please don't hesitate to talk to me about it. I may not be able to help, but maybe I can point you in the right direction.

Thank you, I appreciate that a lot.

Srijita52 said: ↑

I know the feeling. I hope your day goes well though.

Thanks 🙂

I'm sure it'll be fine. It's just the thought of spending a day travelling all over London for interviews I don't really want to go to that's freaking me out.

Ho-hum, I 'spose it's something I've got to do though 🙄

Olhos Abertos said: ↑

Like I dont have anything to offer,dont have friends,dont have a hobby,dont know many places around here,dont really have much experience with anything.

I'm sorry, maybe you can try joining a club and get to know some people, maybe take a bit time to find out which ones you'd like.

Graeme1988 said: ↑

I feel the same way.

Aside from that, I'm depressed as usual - my auntie's funeral is tomorrow. :🙁:

I'm sorry Graeme, I understand it must be a tough day. Hang in there.

market.garden said: ↑

Thanks 🙂

I'm sure it'll be fine. It's just the thought of spending a day travelling all over London for interviews I don't really want to go to that's freaking me out.

Ho-hum, I 'spose it's something I've got to do though 🙄

It does seem pretty tiring, good luck.

Srijita52 said: ↑

I'm sorry Graeme, I understand it must be a tough day. Hang in there.

Thanks, I'm hanging in there. Feeling like crying, but can't. Yeah, tomorrow isn't gonnae be easy. Me in a white shirt and black tie - ridicularse!

Graeme1988 said: ↑

Thanks, I'm hanging in there. Feeling like crying, but can't. Yeah, tomorrow isn't gonnae be easy. Me in a white shirt and black tie - ridicularse!

If there's anything you need to talk about my inbox will always be open.

Not really sure how to feel atm...

I'm pretty certain a family member has invaded my privacy by going through my history and learning my username (possibly password) on here, and definitely on another site, and thus monitoring my posts. Should i just close my account and start a new one, or just stop posting?

this person is not stupid enough to post on my behalf as that would be quite glaringly obvious, but still i feel kinda exposed.

planemo said: ↑

Not really sure how to feel atm...

I'm pretty certain a family member has invaded my privacy by going through my history and learning my username (possibly password) on here, and definitely on another site, and thus monitoring my posts. Should i just close my account and start a new one, or just stop posting?

this person is not stupid enough to post on my behalf as that would be quite glaringly obvious, but still i feel kinda exposed.

There's a way you can check the time that your system was logged on to. I thought something similar had happened a while ago when I was away for a few days, but after checking, saw that no one had logged on to my computer during the time I wasn't around.

planemo said: ↑

Not really sure how to feel atm...

I'm pretty certain a family member has invaded my privacy by going through my history and learning my username (possibly password) on here, and definitely on another site, and thus monitoring my posts. Should i just close my account and start a new one, or just stop posting?

this person is not stupid enough to post on my behalf as that would be quite glaringly obvious, but still i feel kinda exposed.

Wow that's quite awful. I'm really sorry planemo.

Want to say Happy Canada day to all my fellow Canadians, im not impressed being woken up by the damn parade but still haha

Sunny Sunday alone.

Only getting one item for groceries was my only reason to leave the house.

First encounter with a mega-social friend, who has work in a sound studio in eyes' distance from my window, which I watched them rebuild an old property from inside-out with breeze blocks to soundproof it. We regularly meet in the street, but have so little to say. He invites me to music events via facebook, in a town bar, or to a lake out in the trees. I did ALL this, up & down this country, and I've been abroad for it. He visited me in hospital!

Awkward bump-intos - I have nothing to say. That's it, but I respect him for his for DJ skills I yearn for, an his friendlist and organisation. I should be that. My social cords have been cut.

Around a busy shopping mall; full of families, pairs, etc, but loners do exist. I see them and keep my eyes on them, which I'd never notice before socialPhobiaWorld. I now have my modest chin in the air now, with more smiles for others; not the groundfacingnose person I used to be.

In the busy tiny supermart, I bumped into the Senior ward sister who looked after me during 4 months rehab, remembering her face from the previous episode 3.5 years ago. We giggled. I asked if she had someone to go home to. She said "yes, but only a dog"

So we're not alone? 🙄 I am :😮:

Feeling pretty crappy (as usual). My son talked to my ex's mom about our fights recently, where I said some hurtful things to him, and she voiced her concerns to me today. I know she was only trying to help, but it makes me feel like a failure as a parent.
Also, I still need to call my landlord (ex's mom's dad). While she was talking to me about my son, she also mentioned that her parents would like for me to start paying rent (I haven't had to for the past 2 years). I wish I could, but it's not very realistic right now. I'm waiting till the urget o cry subsides before calling.
I'm sure I'll be fine eventually, but right now I'm emotionally drained and just want to curl up in bed.

lilmutegirl said: ↑

Feeling pretty crappy (as usual). My son talked to my ex's mom about our fights recently, where I said some hurtful things to him, and she voiced her concerns to me today. I know she was only trying to help, but it makes me feel like a failure as a parent.
Also, I still need to call my landlord (ex's mom's dad). While she was talking to me about my son, she also mentioned that her parents would like for me to start paying rent (I haven't had to for the past 2 years). I wish I could, but it's not very realistic right now. I'm waiting till the urget o cry subsides before calling.
I'm sure I'll be fine eventually, but right now I'm emotionally drained and just want to curl up in bed.

I'm sorry, but you're not a failure as a parent. I'm sure you care about your son very much maybe you were just too frustrated. I hope the other issue gets sorted as well.

And when I told my bf about my ex's mom and grandpa, he basically acted like they were being unreasonable. I have a feeling he will back me up no matter what the issue is. He seems to act like everyone else is ridiculous if they don't bend over backwards for me.
He also offered to help me with a budget, which pretty much makes me want to tell people to stop helping me. You hear about people hitting "rock bottom." I never did that, because I've always had somebody standing below me with a safety net, which I think has hindered my progress some.

my heart is dehydrated jerky.

Gotta be honest today I trully feel like crap. I keep reaching new lows on how my loneliness is killing me. I can't remember the last time I cried, i was a small kid most likely, today though I feel like crying. I feel like my tough guy shell keep breaking and everytime I repair it, it keep getting weaker and weaker. How long can I keep pretending to be happy or to not care about things when I trully just feel miserable. I have been doing that for like 13 years.

I simply cannot stop being jealous of everyone else. They keep meeting people they relate to while I don't relate to anyone. I feel like deleting my facebook, all I see is people happy life, while all I post is pure nothingness ( i don't post anything since I got nothing to post). I want friends that I can relate to...

dottie said: ↑

my heart is dehydrated jerky.

mmm, chewy, salty goodness