1. It wouldn't bore me 2. You're not the problem 3. Maybe I'm wrong but I don't agree with someone masking their feelings, the human emotions are like fragile and mess builds up. Reading a book, cooking, etc whatever you do they're all powerful things to help fight depression and I don't ever want you to stop you method!!!!! But............................That's not dealing with what's inside of you head on.
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1. It wouldn't bore me 2. You're not the problem 3. Maybe I'm wrong but I don't agree with someone masking their feelings, the human emotions are like fragile and mess builds up. Reading a book, cooking, etc whatever you do they're all powerful things to help fight depression and I don't ever want you to stop you method!!!!! But............................That's not dealing with what's inside of you head on.
MikeyC
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You're right. It's all distractions, but it's not dealing with what's in my mind. No matter what I do I will always have my thoughts, and I can't stand them.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm depressed, I'm lonely, I'm fed-up, I'm a walking loser.
DeadmanWalking
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Maybe you just need a change in scenery. Remove yourself from any and all negative influences and surround yourself with positive influences
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MikeyC
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Don't even know how to do that. You're advice is appreciated, though.Maybe you just need a change in scenery. Remove yourself from any and all negative influences and surround yourself with positive influences
Srijita52
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I'm sorry to hear that Mikey. I know you're trying your best but there're days when nothing seems to work. But just remember that you're in a long journey and the fact that you're taking steps to solve your problems means a lot. It can get better with time. I hope you feel better and if you want to talk I'm here.
MikeyC
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Thanks, Srijita. This whole thing has spiraled out of control out of somebody giving me the cold shoulder recently. Since that I can't get a grip on anything. I'm trying to improve but apathetically I question why.
Thank you for your kind words, though.
Srijita52
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That really sucks. Is there anything you can do to distract yourself at the moment? Maybe something you like to do?
MikeyC
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I've already gone for a walk, cooked, and read a book. I'm now watching sport and listening to music. It's all just distractions from my thoughts, which inevitably come back, whether I'm happy or not.
Srijita52
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Maybe you just need some time before you can get rid of those distructive thoughts. Stay strong Mikey and I'm sure there're plenty of people who like you for who you are. Try not to be too hard on yourself
MikeyC
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I've had these thoughts for so many years that I don't know if I can rid myself of them. I have to live with them somehow. I have no doubt that people like me, but when it comes to hanging out with me, everyone departs. Nobody wants anything to do with me.Maybe you just need some time before you can get rid of those distructive thoughts. Stay strong Mikey and I'm sure there're plenty of people who like you for who you are. Try not to be too hard on yourself
That sucks, Iluv. Feel better soon.
Srijita52
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I'm sorry you're feeling this way. But judging from your posts in here I can tell you you're none of that. Life has different meaning to different people. What maybe right for your friend might be absolute meaningless to you. Isn't it all relative anyway?
Shyangel
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@Mikey
I'm sorry your feeling that way. I can't tell you how much I can relate to what you just said, honestly. I see myself as a complete loser and like nobody really gives a damn about me alot lately. Especially the loser part. I hate meeting people because I just don't feel like I have anything to offer them, friend or other wise. I can feel and understand your frustration, Mikey. I don't think your any where near any of those things, though.
I'm sorry your feeling that way. I can't tell you how much I can relate to what you just said, honestly. I see myself as a complete loser and like nobody really gives a damn about me alot lately. Especially the loser part. I hate meeting people because I just don't feel like I have anything to offer them, friend or other wise. I can feel and understand your frustration, Mikey. I don't think your any where near any of those things, though.
Feeling_Nothing
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Aww you shouldn't think like that ! I thought like that a while ago and someone made me realize that you would definatly hurt people, your family, maybe some friends because it's not because you don't consider them "good" friends that they won't care.
Personally I'm feeling "ok" for now, later I have a family party so I'm sure I'll come home an emotional wreck...gosh I just "hate" them! They always feel the need to compare me to my much smarter niece...she has a good life, good grades in university and tons of friends/social activities. I have none of those and every single time our family meets they feel the need to point it out to me. I sometimes wonder WHY they do that? I mean, if it's to make me feel bad then they are succeeding at it...
Yeah, I feel sorta the same way with family, they all have all these wonderful things to say about my sister and her accomplishments but whenever they see me I get a "she's so pretty" and nothing else....or people just don't remember me at all people I've met multiple times including my own grandmother...it's all just getting to me, I don't know how to break these habits how to get out of the house...how to do anything...my younger sisters are always talking about how amazing my older sister is but when it comes to me there's literally nothing...I don't do anything to be proud of so I am just there....it's pointless really
Feeling_Nothing
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I'm currently trying to figure out myself on how to break all my habits, how to meet people and how to get out of the house so I can't really help you there
I'm sure there are things your good at, you might not see it for yourself but it's there. I noticed (sorry checked your profile) you do photography, art and sketching, maybe to try go to some sort of "club" that does similar things? People with the same interests where you can share your art/photo's?
Yeah I've wanted to put up some of my stuff in a local coffee shop, but my sister used to work there and artsy type people tend to be snobby and standoffish, plus one of the girls there use to be my best friend when we were kids so it's hard...I just wish I could get up the motivation to leave my house and not be scared something bad will happen to me..thats another one of my problems too :/ just gotta get up the courage to be a part of the world more. on my own, I'm 24 so I really need to fix this proble
Feeling_Nothing
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I would say: Go for it, put it up at the local coffee shop, and if someone acts like a douche, let them. Everyone likes different things when it comes to art so you won't be able to please everyone anyways. I don't know if anything happened between you and that person that was your best friend but if you just drifted apart maybe try to hang out with her again? Like start a conversation and catch up?