I've been happier than normal all week but now I feel like I'm close to death. The horrible feeling hit's when it wants to. I think I'm tired and lonely. I feel like everything is going to shut down on me and I won't wake up for a couple of years. I've been working on my work since 3:00 PM and it's now 1:00 A.M. and I don't want to go to my bed. I hope it's just the medicine. I feel dry and unreal....everything feels unreal. I'm frustrated but I'm drugged up, so I can't show it too much....maybe that's am excellent thing because a few weeks ago I was about to bite everyone heads off and explode.