I would never do it by my own hand because it would cause too much pain to my family.
But if I could give myself a terminal disease I probably would.
The truth is that my life gets worse by the day. I used to think that I could change it if I worked hard in school, got a job, made good money... but the truth is that those external objects won't change anything.
The only difference is that instead of an anxious, lonely college student who is dependent on his parents for money, I'll be a anxious, lonely professional who is financially independent.
The problem is me and my inability to form relationships with people. Nothing can fix that.
But if I could give myself a terminal disease I probably would.
The truth is that my life gets worse by the day. I used to think that I could change it if I worked hard in school, got a job, made good money... but the truth is that those external objects won't change anything.
The only difference is that instead of an anxious, lonely college student who is dependent on his parents for money, I'll be a anxious, lonely professional who is financially independent.
The problem is me and my inability to form relationships with people. Nothing can fix that.