Anyone else lonely?
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Sociallychallenged
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Yeah i know how u feel, altho i have my family around me at home,i still feel so lonely. When I'm at my university i hardly speak 2 words to anyone. They think im stuckup but it aint so. In a sense i feel empty, i only have 1 friend only see him once a month. A couple of weeks ago I saw a programme on tv about a woman, a clairvoyant who gave a private reading to a grieving wife. When the client burst out in tears,this woman got up and gave her a big affectionate hug. I feel like that grieving woman, I'm hurting from the inside,nobody knows how I truly feel. And I so need someone who would give me a big affectionate hug from time to time.
For years, I was home day after day on the internet, watching tv, reading, and I can say I was never lonely. On the contrary, I felt relax, no anxiety to worry about or face, no high or low emotions, its just a monotone sort of existence. Now that I've since started work, things are different, I have to go out, meet people, and it highlights to me how much of a failure/loner I am. Everyone is attached, and I am not. It never used to bother me when I was home all day, as there was no people to tell me all about their partners and fun lives, but now, things are different, I hear and see people going out, doing things, I just feel like real sad you know...Now, if only I could have someone show an interest in me and find myself a partner, lol. But really, going out actually makes me feel worse and more depressed than staying at home does, especially when I go to places and I see lots of good looking people my age having fun and I just feel sick to my stomach(mentally and literally- I could feel the physical symtoms) that my life is turning out to be such a disappointment :
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:The loneliness is one of the hardest and most painful things about having SA for me. I just can't seem to win with that. I am so very antisocial because of my anxiety but at the same time I long to have friends and a normal life and be around others and socialize. I miss that feeling of belonging. I don't really seem to fit in anywhere, not even in my own family.
Forgetmenot_ak
Banned
I feel bad in saying it, but the responses to this make me feel better... It's somewhat comforting to know that I'm not the only one who feels this way. I just wish that my mom understood how hard it is to not be lonely. Everyone else acts as if I CHOOSE to be lonely or something, as if it's something I enjoy...
veggielover
Well-known member
It really doesn't feel good to be alone. I wish people would call me to hang out, but apparently I'm just not that person that is good enough to hang out with.
Tiercel
Well-known member
I know what you mean. All my friends are usually busy with their other friends. It's only when those other friends aren't around that they call on me for entertainment. Of course I almost never call anyone myself....
All the time. Its the only feeling I cant fight against, what isnt there just isnt there. I just wish I could quell this feeling but I have felt it for so long. Im just scared.
veggielover
Well-known member
Saaame with me. I have one specific friend that does that all the time. Whenever she's not on good terms with someone else or her other friends are out of town, then she calls me. I get happy because she wants to hang out with me, but in the back of my mind I know its only because her other friends aren't available. It makes me feel pretty crappy knowing that, but I just let it be like that. When I try to call her to hang out, she's always doing other stuff, so it makes me feel worse. And then I go on feeling bad for myself because I have no real friends. ... :/
whysitmatter
Member
I do alot of the time but not always, maybe I'm just more used to being isolated, from 5th grade to freshmen year, I had no friends outside of school and have pretty much alienated just about all the friends I made in high school and shortly after with my excessive drug use. Even now that I'm pretty much clean, I rarely get on the internet,no buddys on my buddylist, haha, I just sit in my room for the most part, watching The Simpsons, it's kinda sad I can quote just about anything from every episode. . And for some reason I'm one of the few americans that doesnt like cell phones, I have one, but It's a crappy cheap prepay that I just use as a pager.
Even when I'm drivin' around, or with people, I still fell lonely because people know about my problem and dont treat me like a normal person, they're always very cautious as to what they say/do. Some of my good friends understand my agoraphobia more so, but it's hard to educate most people.
. And for some reason I'm one of the few americans that doesnt like cell phones, I have one, but It's a crappy cheap prepay that I just use as a pager.Even when I'm drivin' around, or with people, I still fell lonely because people know about my problem and dont treat me like a normal person, they're always very cautious as to what they say/do. Some of my good friends understand my agoraphobia more so, but it's hard to educate most people.
Anomaly
Well-known member
I've got some friends, but I can't connect with any of them as much as I would want to. I would love to have discussions with them about epistemology, metaphysics, molecular biology, and the like, but that won't be happening anytime soon. Ironically, the only times I've had such discussions were online, virtually anonymous.
faithnomore
Banned
I get random times when i feel extremely isolated. I really need to know people, but i spend most of the time on my own at home. I'm scared of being alone forever.
twinkleeyes
Member
I feel extremely lonely. It gets worse at night because I just want to have someone to love me which gets me to thinking it'll never happen if I don't meet someone (relationship wise). How am I to meet someone when I don't go out? Besides, most people don't understand what agoraphobia is. Some members of my own family believe I'm just being lazy. I'm tired of feeling like this. I don't know what to do.
Blue Teardrops
Banned
I couldn't have said it better myself.
twinkleeyes
Member
Only on days that end with "y". Corny maybe but it's the truth. I wonder if I can die of loneliness?