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I have been feeling like shit recently, particularly today as I have had a terrible flashback about what has happened in Japanese class in September, and upon trying to enroll in a math class, I was reminded of the incident by the dean demanding papers from me before I can enroll at any class in...

Not too long ago, I was afraid of human interactions of almost any type, but now I just combat this with saying "I am I'm Me" or "I am what I am, and that's all that I am" and so far its helped to boost self-confidence drastically. I still have quite a bit to go, but so far, this has helped to...

I'm having one right now, can't calm down, breathing heavily, what do I do?

I can't believe it!!! After all of these years of experimenting on grilling steaks, I FINALLY have managed to grill steaks perfectly with the diamond sear, and the authentic steakhouse taste! Just this has washed away everything I was ever upset about, because cooking is my secondary hobby aside...

I have come to the conclusion that pleasing others doesn't necessarily mean pleasing myself. Some people, like the Japanese "language exchange" partners I had cannot be pleased no matter how hard I try. It took me a lot of effort just to register to language-exchanges.org and put myself out...

Many people find ways to cope with certain things that have happened in the past. I have had some very bad recent experiences with people that has made me feel hated, and perhaps unimportant, so I deal with this by playing extremely violent games like Blood, God of War, or Postal 2. How about...

Just yesterday, I have been blocked by yet another Japanese language partner. This shit has become so bad that I deleted my language-exchanges.org account, since I have had complete shitty luck trying to communicate with Japanese people; I am mainly unable to meet with them online, because of...

Does anyone else here listen to death or black metal if either you feel unmotivated to do something, such as homework or learning social skills, or feel extreme vengeance towards a certain person and need an outlet like it?

I was writing a journal about how angry I felt towards humanity, and then all of a sudden, a powerful, jolting feeling of nostalgia rushed towards me, relieving my childhood. It was back before I knew what depression or even autism was. Back when Sega was at its last breath, but still had...

My best friend has been threatened multiple times by his parents that he will get kicked out of the house if he upsets them again, and his parents even told him "You are not a child, you are a burden." and this is really worrying me as he is a great guy to me, and has brought a lot of joy...

Recently, I have been finding myself not wanting to socialize with people anymore in fear of rejection, or being disappointed by the outcome of the interaction, and I have been just depressed to the point where I drink sake for several hours straight, attempting to forget about the pain of...

I am currently trying to learn Japanese, but as I have described in earlier posts, I have been deleted and blocked by many, mainly because my skills are very poor, and I still don't know what to do to this day. I have invested quite a bit of money in books, but apparently, I am a "kinesthetic"...

Of course I will not do what the title suggests, but I shouldn't be feeling this way either. It all started after a failed visit to the psychologist involving him insulting me, though I merely explained my struggle, and ever since then I fantasized about having revenge against him in the most...

I have been living with extreme social anxiety since I was young, but it eventually developed itself into pure hatred for humans. I used to partake in something called "language exchange" to improve my Japanese, only to be blocked and deleted by more than half of native Japanese speakers I met...

Unfortunately, ever since I have been hit many times back in grade school, I stare at people and take in all the surroundings in public places in fear of being attacked by someone across the street or store I am in, and not surprisingly I get frowned at very often, and now I am starting to feel...