DukeOtakuNukem
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Recently, I have been finding myself not wanting to socialize with people anymore in fear of rejection, or being disappointed by the outcome of the interaction, and I have been just depressed to the point where I drink sake for several hours straight, attempting to forget about the pain of knowing that I will never be able to successfully interact with humans, let alone Japanese friends whom I would be able to get along with. I feel that every human interaction is a waste of time, as everyone is talking to everyone else, and even though I do not interrupt the conversations, I never get a turn to do anything conversation-related, and ignored. It seems as though my attempt to socialize with the human race only resulted in failure, and now alcohol is my best friend, I want to drink, drink, drink, and drink until I can not feel pain anymore, drink, and ****ing drink!!!!!