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PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
but aren't you needy too? don't you want a girlfriend? if two people are looking or needy for a girlfriend/boyfriend then there wouldn't be an issue. My point is just that, not trying to offend.
Mmm.. maybe using the word "needy" was the wrong option there. Yes most of us crave a good relationship but personally I have experienced the good and the bad. W
We're nobody now~ Cast down from Mount Olympus, titleless, without identity, doomed to roam the realm of mortals once more.
Hang on.... *shifty eyes*..
If we're all number one.. well that just cant be! How can you have more than one number 1?? It's a conspiracy I tell you!!
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
i felt there was nothing really to do either so I lied in bed closing my eyes listening to x-mas music but then i felt terrible so I'm up so how did you do in finding chamomile tea at an online natural health store? perhaps it can be somewhere else i just don't know.. does anyone else know? but then it should be good quality

Whereas I just couldn’t be bothered getting up, and eventually forced myself to get up and dressed just after midday. :LOL:

Regarding the chamomile tea, I found a few different brands available to buy online at Amazon, prices vary. But all get good reviews. Though, I’m going to look on eBay and see if the price differs any...

Then it’s just a matter of justifying the purchase to the family, cuz they’re nosy judgmental bitches like that.

“Chamomile whit? Tea? Huh?! That green tea stuff ? Whit did ye gan n’ git that fur anyway?! Urgh Gawd... It smells minging! Yuck, am no drinkin’ that!”

^ I’m paraphrasing, but this is usually how the exchange goes, cuz my family are quite predictable in their attempts to shame me for the things I buy. Even though it’s none o’ their business.
 

MollyBeGood

Well-known member
Where I currently live just totally sucks, to be honest. The population is increasing, but it seems like everyone that is in my age range is already married. This was a conversation I had with my therapist; the dating here sucks. But yes, there are ‘Meet Up’groups here - they’re just not as plentiful as in the city. I have a crush on someone, but much like the others, I am willing to wager he’s not interested in someone like me. Anyway, I get what you’re saying, though, Molly - you gotta put yourself out there.

Oh yeah... that sucks living some place with so few options. That was my life forever till I moved. I am still adjusting to it all.
I hope you can muster up the courage to approach your crush though. Even if it's just flirting-does he know you're interested?
 
Oh yeah... that sucks living some place with so few options. That was my life forever till I moved. I am still adjusting to it all.
I hope you can muster up the courage to approach your crush though. Even if it's just flirting-does he know you're interested?
See, I don’t know if he does. During our tutoring sessions, we increasingly talk more about our personal lives than math, we sit really close to each other (like, we are often times touching and neither of us pull away), whenever I express that I am stressed, he will put his hand on my shoulder, his pupils look bigger when we are talking to each other, and he will sometimes look at my mouth while I am talking, so that’s all I have to go by lol. I want to remain logical about this and not make something out of nothing, but I really wish I knew if he liked me or not because I really like him.
 

MollyBeGood

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See, I don’t know if he does. During our tutoring sessions, we increasingly talk more about our personal lives than math, we sit really close to each other (like, we are often times touching and neither of us pull away), whenever I express that I am stressed, he will put his hand on my shoulder, his pupils look bigger when we are talking to each other, and he will sometimes look at my mouth while I am talking, so that’s all I have to go by lol. I want to remain logical about this and not make something out of nothing, but I really wish I knew if he liked me or not because I really like him.

Sarah um well I am reading that and thinking if a guy is touching you like that and sharing personal details I’d say he’s definitely interested. The other signs are really good, too.
What is his personality type? Is he usually guarded or pretty open and friendly with everyone?
Could you just ask him out for coffee?
That wouldn’t be too bad would it for you to just make the first move?
 
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Sarah um well I am reading that and thinking if a guy is touching you like that and sharing personal details I’d say he’s definitely interested. The other signs are really good, too.
What is his personality type? Is he usually guarded or pretty open and friendly with everyone?
Could you just ask him out for coffee?
That wouldn’t be too bad would it for you to just make the first move?
You think so? I am terrible at being able to tell if a guy likes me or not - he has to basically tell me lol. He told me very personal stuff about his family, too. He seems like a friendly person to me. Like, he is a thought oriented introvert, but doesn’t have social anxiety and has friends and stuff. I haven’t seen him talk to other girls, so I can’t compare his behavior with me versus another woman. The only objection I have to this is that he is only 21 or 22 and I turn 28 in January - he may not be interested because I am too old. This is also his last term at our college before he transfers to a university, so he might not be around for much longer, sadly :(
 

MollyBeGood

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You think so? I am terrible at being able to tell if a guy likes me or not - he has to basically tell me lol. He told me very personal stuff about his family, too. He seems like a friendly person to me. Like, he is a thought oriented introvert, but doesn’t have social anxiety and has friends and stuff. I haven’t seen him talk to other girls, so I can’t compare his behavior with me versus another woman. The only objection I have to this is that he is only 21 or 22 and I turn 28 in January - he may not be interested because I am too old. This is also his last term at our college before he transfers to a university, so he might not be around for much longer, sadly :(

He sounds really sweet. I would go for it Sarah with the idea in mind though that he might be moving soon so you cannot get too attached. Easier said than done, I know...

Don't let the slight age difference stop you imo the chemistry is sounding like it would be great between you two ;)
 
He sounds really sweet. I would go for it Sarah with the idea in mind though that he might be moving soon so you cannot get too attached. Easier said than done, I know...

Don't let the slight age difference stop you imo the chemistry is sounding like it would be great between you two ;)
He said he couldn’t abandon his mom, so I am really hoping that means he’s going to stick around. He is really sweet and I hope something good happens between us and I can muster the courage to ask him out. I’m really scared, though haha.
 

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
Got roped into going to a work xmas party yesterday. I tried to have a positive frame of mind about it. People where friendly enough, but as usual beyond the polite niceties I struggled to seem at ease and make good conversation like everyone else was doing.
At times I found myself with no one to talk to, my SA started to get worse.. but I remained calm - at least on the outside lol.
I was really glad when it was over.
 

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
Do you know what? I came to a realization today. An epiphany of sorts. I came to the realization that I actually don't wan't or need to be social in order to 'fit in with society'. I don't need or even WANT to change me, my habits or anything about myself to get better at socializing.

I don't want, or need it.
I now know I'M DONE WITH THAT BS.

I don't want friends that I have to please. If it takes me being 'fake' or pretending to be someone I'm not just to have people to hang out with once in a while.. well, screw that. And screw them.

I was at work today, at times I have a lot of time to think while I work. Today was one of those days. I got to thinking about how I felt at yesterdays xmas work party/bbq and the people that where there, and how I had to 'fake it' just to sort of.. fit in. And how uncomfortable I was doing it.
Then this morning as I was driving to work, I dreamed of living a life where I could just go to work, come home and not have to deal with any.. 'fake'ness'. It was such a powerful feeling, like it was drawing me inwards, calling me.. that feeling.

Then I was at work, thinking of the same thing. I once again thought of the bbq.. the people there. I had a realization.

I DO want friends.
I DO want friends... But I don't wan't 'sheep', or generic fake's who I have to change for. I thought of my friends on SPW. These are the sort of friends I could live comfortably with being around from time to time. Not having to be in each others pockets, but I would happily be there for them, and ideally they would be there for me.

It's funny. I had a job where I was earning good money but wasn't happy and never really knew what was going to make me happy. But now I know.

So... my goal is to keep working towards my ideal employment (if and when I get it I'll definitely let you guys know) and when I get it, I'm going to move into a secluded but nice, house. I'm going to set it up with all the things I want. And.. I'm going to travel. Now, my current employment doesn't allow me to do that. But if I get my goal employment.. I'll be travelling a lot! Which is my passion.

I'd love to meet some of you guys on my travels one day, even if it's just for a coffee.
 

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
He said he couldn’t abandon his mom, so I am really hoping that means he’s going to stick around. He is really sweet and I hope something good happens between us and I can muster the courage to ask him out. I’m really scared, though haha.
Jump in, feet first Sarah!
You only live life once.. sliding doors and all that.
 

Pacific_Loner

Pirate from the North Pole
So... my goal is to keep working towards my ideal employment (if and when I get it I'll definitely let you guys know) and when I get it, I'm going to move into a secluded but nice, house. I'm going to set it up with all the things I want. And.. I'm going to travel. Now, my current employment doesn't allow me to do that. But if I get my goal employment.. I'll be travelling a lot! Which is my passion.

Well that sounds like the best plan ever.
 

lily

Well-known member
I don't want friends that I have to please. If it takes me being 'fake' or pretending to be someone I'm not just to have people to hang out with once in a while.. well, screw that. And screw them.
I don't know if it's called faking it for me but i've altered my title or text online just to have it more interesting and i've faked being fun starting a thread. i've seen how other people do it and it then becomes me usually but i'd never go any further than that. just being open back to you.

question-how come you guys have # 1's under your name LOL! now that's funny! but it's ok!! it's just a bit wierd on a forum but at least it's exactly centered! lol
 
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