How are you feeling?

AtTheGates

Banned
in my opinion there are a lot of women out there who r decent but how come you had no idea she was like that? :)

long story.. : /



Lets just say I should NOT have taken the bait...because my instinct turned out to be right all along .
 
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Marc7

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Nope, the eldest sibling sent me the emails. The sister who told me to f*ck off was more concerned about the fact she going to a soon-to-be divorced mother with 2 kids than the fact I'm the one who just has tolerate her shoutin' n' screaming and making a scene. Oh, and she had the nerve to call me over-dramatic when, feeling after our heated exchange, I sighed and said that I feel like taking my own life. She was yelling at the top of her voice that it woke me from my sleep. But, no, her wee brother saying out loud he'd rather not be alive anymore is bit much

I know, the wimmin in my immediate family are schizo as f*ck when it comes to considering how I feel. Most o' the time they couldn't careless. But the moment I even make reference to suicide it's "Ye awrite? Ya sure ya don't want to talk? We're just concerned about ya"

Sorry I've been away for so long. Oh, why does she want you to tolerate her yelling and screaming at the time? Why at the time did you want to end your life? What do you mean by schizo? Wow that's fake no offense.

Yep! We just said how we felt, and realised we're both being treated badly by people who claim to love us, yet, treat us like crap. And she finally said she appreciates me for sticking by her and not cut her outta my life, given how badly she treated me over the years. Which acknowledging we have our arguments, but at least I don't dwell upon them like the middle child. As well as admiring the way I handled myself being yelled at by my older sister. Remaing calm the whole time. And wondering how I did. I admitted that it was, either, the past few years taking an interest in Eastern philosophy. Or the fact that I'm getting older and caring less? :idontknow:

That's good you and your mom had that conversation and she is concerned about you.

An unpopular opinion with radical, 3rd wave feminists, certainly. Since wimmin don't tend to be thought of as being the prone to violence rage. Plus, I sure as hell wouldn't want to be in a relationship or have children with a woman who gets intensely mad the moment something goes wrong or goes completely psycho if you say something she perceives as some slight or insult. I'm not kidding, either. The youngest of my older sister genuinely argues over semantics, ie. What you said & what you meant by?

But I more than willing to admit that my view is completely wrong. Given that it's purely based upon how my mother and sister have acted towards each other and towards me over the years. And y'know...

What is a 3rd wave radical feminists? Yea you have to choose wisely who you have children with.

^ I did get shouted down, unfairly, for merely trying to defuse the situation here.

I know. That is messed up.
 

Marc7

Well-known member
I feel inferior to most people. Truth be told. Everyone I met and know, in fact.

Why do you feel inferior to everyone you met and know?

Kinda. Well, he was around because his first words upon seeing me, age 15, were: “Hey! Long time, no see”, as he gave me a hug. But I don’t have any memories of him. Just stories. And stories that don’t show him in a glowing light. So, to me, he was never around until my mid-teens.

Oh. So he was around but they weren't good memories.


Oh, she still does it. As do my older sisters. Speak of which, I got berated the other day for telling the middle-child to calm down. And instead of saying sorry she proceeded to accuse me of being a bully. Because my mum and eldest sibling actually agree with me. Apparently, me being woken from my sleep at 10am to sound of her shouting is… irrelevant? :eek:h:

Maybe tell them to not project their feeling on to you. Sorry if this sounds obvious.

I know some of them are, but I don’t know if all my sibling on my dad’s side of the family are younger than me.

Oh. Do you want to know your siblings on your dad's side more or no?
 

Hot_Tamale

Well-known member
Like shite. Utter shite. But according to Newton, for every reaction there is an equal and opposite reaction. The people that benefit from my pain can suck on the business end of a loaded shotgun if you ask me :/
 
I've been alone so long, that i think i've lost the ability to be a friend; or else i never had it in the first place. I've always had issues with being friendly or over-friendly to people. I think i was always kind-hearted or soft-hearted, but maybe all the mistreatment over the years "got" to me, from family and outside; and all my self-persecuting thoughts as well. So now i've "hardened". Used to be a soft sea creature in it's hard shell, now i'm a hard stone in a hard shell - the soft part having died along the years; i can occasionally come out of my shell, but the core me is now hard instead of soft. Society too forces this to happen. And also men have to supress their feelings.
 
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Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Sorry I've been away for so long. Oh, why does she want you to tolerate her yelling and screaming at the time? Why at the time did you want to end your life? What do you mean by schizo? Wow that's fake no offense.

Why? Because my older sister is very immature and can't handle ever being wrong. And she thinks yelling and shouting means her point of view is more valid cuz she's upset. Why did I feel like taking my own life? Well, when you've been silently put up with her family forever arguing about things that don't justify such an overreact and you try to be the voice of reason in that situation, would you not feel like killing yerself? Especially if those were the kind of people you were around all the time.

And the schizo remark... I just meant that the women in my immediate family seems to have a schizophrenic attitude when it comes to me. Either they're grateful for everything I do for them, or I'm a selfish, inconsiderate b@$%@rd cuz I refused to do something for them or agree with their opinions. Please don't ask why that is, I don't have an answer for you regarding that.

That's good you and your mom had that conversation and she is concerned about you.

Aye, it is. But part of me feels that her concern for me is 15 years to late. I mean I'm glad she finally not dismissive of my perspective outright, but had she actually listened to me all those years ago instead of living in denial, things might not be how they are now with my older sister still throwing tantrums when she doesn't get her way.

What is a 3rd wave radical feminists?

Oh, the radical 3rd wave feminist is normally stereotyped as a woman who hates men, believe she is better than them, and thus doesn't need a man in her life. A view I frequently heard from my mother during my formative years. And something I still resent her for due to the contradictory message of "All men are useless, except you son" :idontknow: :confused:

Yea you have to choose wisely who you have children with.

And be sure ya want children. No point having them if you don't have the maturity or coping skills to raise them.

Why do you feel inferior to everyone you met and know?

Mainly because I'm not like them. Don't feel as intelligent. And feel like an outsider a lot of the times due to my disability.

Oh. So he was around but they weren't good memories

Pretty much. There wasn't really that connection or desire to get to know each other.

Maybe tell them to not project their feeling on to you. Sorry if this sounds obvious.

Obvious. But easier said than done when the response I get is a childish: "You're always picking on me!" :crying:

Oh. Do you want to know your siblings on your dad's side more or no?

Not really. I doubt we would have much in common, having been raised very differently. My siblings on my dad's side of the family had a more middle class and posh upbring compared me, whereas I grew up on a rough council estate.
 

MollyBeGood

Well-known member
I am leaving this site until they fix the security breaches that have been happening. I hope you all stay safe here! Not likely.

I know I don't feel safe when anyone can use my account at any time...call me paranoid.

One day I logged in and I was IN another users account!! I have a screenshot if you don't believe me.

((I am not a hacker either by far from it! Refer to the thread I started a thread about how I can barley use my "smart phone" lol))

It is my opinion the webmaster should take this site down until he updates the software. Otherwise you all are sitting ducks. But I could just be being overly cautious.
 
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Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Not sure I'm going to be around much longer at this rate... the amount of stress I'm under. Why does my family feel the need to make me fèel guilty for problems that they end up creating? :idontknow: :sad:
 
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PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
Men in general are shallow.

It's not that smart to generalize... that's like saying women in general are gold diggers. Not cool. Or all people with SA are weird.

Yes there are men out there who are selfish and shallow, but there are a lot of good men out there too. Just like some women ARE gold diggers, certainly not all, but some.

Yea, generalizing.. not cool man.
 

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
i recommended in pm that to truly fix the issue i personally think you should call your local police especially when it still is happening, the more support, the better and more likely you'd truly get help. but you didn't reply to my question after i replied all of yours but i'd understand if it's really b/c of your SA. i believe you're not a hacker.

Police won't do diddly squat. Nor do they have time to worry about this site.

As always, you have to learn to protect yourself online, even though that itself has limitations.

Don't ever share personal info online. Change passwords often and do full virus/malware scans often. It's a bit like driving a car though, the risk of crashing is always there, no matter how safe you drive.
 

Kiwong

Well-known member
Had a really good day yesterday, enjoyed the company of the people I was with. Was doing worthwhile work out in the bush.

Days like this are rare.
 
I am leaving this site until they fix the security breaches that have been happening. I hope you all stay safe here! Not likely.

I know I don't feel safe when anyone can use my account at any time...call me paranoid.

One day I logged in and I was IN another users account!! I have a screenshot if you don't believe me.

((I am not a hacker either by far from it! Refer to the thread I started a thread about how I can barley use my "smart phone" lol))

It is my opinion the webmaster should take this site down until he updates the software. Otherwise you all are sitting ducks. But I could just be being overly cautious.

I've dealt with security myself (wrote software for it, but didn't finish it as i was overwhelmed by the number of "loopholes" or "vulnerabilities" concerning security). It's not readily remedied, because if you try doing that, then computers would be "unusable". You just have to "be sensible", and realize there is no "perfect security" - but that doesn't mean you're unsafe.

And i've had some "funny" stuff happen on spw, not much, but annoying enough. A hacker "poisoned the DNS servers" so that the latest page on "How are you feeling?" pointed to their scam site. I was unable to send PMs (to admin), but i sent an email to my web server about it, and it was fixed in a day or so. One thing that still annoys me is that since then, i have only a 50 message limit for my messages, when i used to have 250.

MollyBeGood, I would put it down to a one-off thing, and not worry about it.
 
It's not that smart to generalize... that's like saying women in general are gold diggers. Not cool. Or all people with SA are weird.

Yes there are men out there who are selfish and shallow, but there are a lot of good men out there too. Just like some women ARE gold diggers, certainly not all, but some.

Yea, generalizing.. not cool man.

Okay, maybe that's too general a statement, but concerning what i meant by it, it's TRUE!. Maybe you're thinking that i'm meaning something else.
What i mean precisely, is that, concerning men being attracted to women, men are shallow - that is, the attraction is primarily physical (eg hair, breasts, behind, legs, etc). It's human nature!
I didn't mean to imply that men are shallow in the way you interpreted it as, or selfish, etc.
 
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i was complimented yesterday and then today when i woke up the person on socialphobiaworld replied an insult. i don't hurt other people but i lift them up and i don't know why i have to get someone who brings me down. i wish i can have support.
It's best to report any grievances with another SPW user to a Mod.
Posting complaints about other users in the Forums can end up getting messy. :)
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
i don't want you to leave but i'd understand if you felt you needed to. you're going through a lot and you need to be pushed upward as everyone does unless they're weird but socialphobiaworld can help release that.

I know... It's not so much wanting to leave. I just wish ah could come to this forum and express what I going through, like I used to. But words fail me at this point. Cuz everyday brings yet more petty, immature, family arguments that I just have to quietly endure. :kickingmyself: And it's been like that since August of this year. Because my older sister is a very hostile, unreasonable person who, like our mother and oldest sibling, doesn't react well to being told the truth, or that she's wrong. :thumbdown:

While inside my head I'm going: :eek:mg: :eek:
 

FountainandFairfax

in a VAN down by the RIVER
I hate having commitments.

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