How are you feeling?

How am I feeling? used and abused.....:confused: confused...and stupid
After a dude ignored me for 4 months....he hits me me up this weekend saying he misses me wants to see me it ends in a booty call and now i haven't heard from him again....::(::confused:
 
I need to vent, I was thinking about how this disorder has taking so much time from me. I am 26 and I haven't accomplished a single thing worth being remembered for. That depresses me because I have such a huge desire to make a difference in this world. I am pretty healthy physically, it's my mind that's sick. I had this friend who had lung cancer at 24, shes in remission now. But she has the most amazing out look on life I think I ever met in a person. She organizes all these charities events in my town. She's been on the radio, the paper, she mentors this little girl. I find myself envious of her life. She had cancer and what? I am scared of people. I can't help but think how lame and pathetic that sounds but I know how real my fear is. I am just tired of people thinking I lack motivation when all I want is to live my life and be the person I was meant too be. I have a feeling I will be fight the rest of my living days just too keep my ahead afloat. I just feel like I am being punshied for something I did in a previous life.
I so get what you are feeling... i often feel like I'm a square peg in a round world...I also wonder what I did to deserve this life that often feels to pathetic and lonely....I'm always afraid
 

DeadmanWalking

Well-known member
I need to vent, I was thinking about how this disorder has taking so much time from me. I am 26 and I haven't accomplished a single thing worth being remembered for. That depresses me because I have such a huge desire to make a difference in this world. I am pretty healthy physically, it's my mind that's sick. I had this friend who had lung cancer at 24, shes in remission now. But she has the most amazing out look on life I think I ever met in a person. She organizes all these charities events in my town. She's been on the radio, the paper, she mentors this little girl. I find myself envious of her life. She had cancer and what? I am scared of people. I can't help but think how lame and pathetic that sounds but I know how real my fear is. I am just tired of people thinking I lack motivation when all I want is to live my life and be the person I was meant too be. I have a feeling I will be fight the rest of my living days just too keep my ahead afloat. I just feel like I am being punshied for something I did in a previous life.
I'm sure you've done something that left an imprint on someone. Sometimes, our minds downplays our actions and impact on people. Don't compare yourself to your friend. She hasn't lived through what you lived through and you haven't lived through what she has. You two are two different people with different capabilities. Find what you can do and improve on your skills:).
How am I feeling? used and abused.....:confused: confused...and stupid
After a dude ignored me for 4 months....he hits me me up this weekend saying he misses me wants to see me it ends in a booty call and now i haven't heard from him again....::(::confused:

If he only wants you for sex, then dump him and move on. You don't deserve that.
 

Shenmue

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As I look at my college application, I feel a sense of trepidation. I just have to remind myself that it won't be like HS. I just hope no one demands my lunch money. After all, it's been 11 years since I was last at school, and what with inflation, who knows what the going rate for extortion is now.
 
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coyote

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As I look at my college application, I feel a sense of trepidation. I just have to remind myself that it won't be like HS. I just hope no one demands my lunch money. After all, it's been 11 years since I was last at school, and what with inflation, who knows what the going rate for extortion is now.

i was a "non-traditional" college student - started six years after high school

i was a 24 year old freshman surrounded by 18 year olds - no one demanded my lunch money

then again, it was art school - so there were very few, if any, bullies

everyone was too busy expressing how different they were from everyone else who was different
 

MikeyC

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I need to vent, I was thinking about how this disorder has taking so much time from me. I am 26 and I haven't accomplished a single thing worth being remembered for. That depresses me because I have such a huge desire to make a difference in this world. I am pretty healthy physically, it's my mind that's sick. I had this friend who had lung cancer at 24, shes in remission now. But she has the most amazing out look on life I think I ever met in a person. She organizes all these charities events in my town. She's been on the radio, the paper, she mentors this little girl. I find myself envious of her life. She had cancer and what? I am scared of people. I can't help but think how lame and pathetic that sounds but I know how real my fear is. I am just tired of people thinking I lack motivation when all I want is to live my life and be the person I was meant too be. I have a feeling I will be fight the rest of my living days just too keep my ahead afloat. I just feel like I am being punshied for something I did in a previous life.
I'm sorry you feel this way. I'm 26, too, and haven't accomplished too much. Maybe your friend with the lung cancer is embracing life after having it almost taken away from her. Of course, she's probably not socially awkward like you, so that makes a massive difference.

Hang in there. You're already winning.

How am I feeling? used and abused.....:confused: confused...and stupid
After a dude ignored me for 4 months....he hits me me up this weekend saying he misses me wants to see me it ends in a booty call and now i haven't heard from him again....::(::confused:
Welcome to Dumpsville. Population: that jackass.
 

lilmutegirl

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Bored, but I have a lot I need to/want to do. I can't stop watching Law & Order: SVU on netflix. I want my sleepytime tea and a snack...
 

lilmutegirl

Well-known member
I need to vent, I was thinking about how this disorder has taking so much time from me. I am 26 and I haven't accomplished a single thing worth being remembered for. That depresses me because I have such a huge desire to make a difference in this world. I am pretty healthy physically, it's my mind that's sick. I had this friend who had lung cancer at 24, shes in remission now. But she has the most amazing out look on life I think I ever met in a person. She organizes all these charities events in my town. She's been on the radio, the paper, she mentors this little girl. I find myself envious of her life. She had cancer and what? I am scared of people. I can't help but think how lame and pathetic that sounds but I know how real my fear is. I am just tired of people thinking I lack motivation when all I want is to live my life and be the person I was meant too be. I have a feeling I will be fight the rest of my living days just too keep my ahead afloat. I just feel like I am being punshied for something I did in a previous life.

I get that totally. I keep waiting for some day when I wake up and feel like I can take on the world instead of hiding from it. Whenever I hear about somebody overcoming adversity (illness, poverty, addiction, etc) I'm jealous of their ability to thrive after such negative experiences. If anything bad happened to me, I'd be destroyed. It would make my condition worse, probably.
 

lilmutegirl

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As I look at my college application, I feel a sense of trepidation. I just have to remind myself that it won't be like HS. I just hope no one demands my lunch money. After all, it's been 11 years since I was last at school, and what with inflation, who knows what the going rate for extortion is now.

Congrats on going back to school! I'm a 30 year old still in college (probably 2-3 years left too), if that makes you feel any better. Nobody has ever bullied me in college, so you probably don't have much to worry about as far as people demanding your lunch money. It's been my experience that people pretty much mind their own business.
 

KiaKaha

Banned
I am sexually attracted to my therapist.

Great. That's all I need.

Mostly because she laughs at all my dumb jokes.

I feel a rant coming on.
 
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KiaKaha

Banned
Time to find a new therapist?

No way...

The sessions are almost up anyway only one more - that is until next time I fall into unrelenting depressive state. That unbreakable therapist/client relationship will remain incorruptible. Even if we are both undressing each other with our eyes.
 

shakethelight

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How am I feeling? used and abused.....:confused: confused...and stupid
After a dude ignored me for 4 months....he hits me me up this weekend saying he misses me wants to see me it ends in a booty call and now i haven't heard from him again....::(::confused:

was his name drew?:eek: kidding, I just had this happen to me! w/o the booty call because Im insane and went into his email and saw hes a lying scumbag. Next time he calls, act like you dont care for some reason guys dont like that. or just dont answer. be strong!
 

Nathália

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was his name drew?:eek: kidding, I just had this happen to me! w/o the booty call because Im insane and went into his email and saw hes a lying scumbag. Next time he calls, act like you dont care for some reason guys dont like that. or just dont answer. be strong!

Add me to that list.

I woke up late this afternoon, flipped opened my laptop and read this. I was like. Am I still doped up on my medications? Because I don;t remember posting this

Don't even respond to him, block him. I don't even know why men would try some mess like that, it's sickening. It's shows how horrible and ignorant people are. Stick you number two in the air and S on that ....

Don't even let there be a next time he calls. Get rid of him because men like that only want to play mind games. A lot of nerve these punks have.

It's okay, all of you are going to be a better person than what they are. Wait you guys already are so sweet and awesome.
 

Deus_Ex_Lemur

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Add me to that list.

I woke up late this afternoon, flipped opened my laptop and read this. I was like. Am I still doped up on my medications? Because I don;t remember posting this

Don't even respond to him, block him. I don't even know why men would try some mess like that, it's sickening. It's shows how horrible and ignorant people are. Stick you number two in the air and S on that ....

Don't even let there be a next time he calls. Get rid of him because men like that only want to play mind games. A lot of nerve these punks have.

It's okay, all of you are going to be a better person than what they are. Wait you guys already are so sweet and awesome.

What she said... u don't need that douche around u anywhere. Truth is most men are scumbags. Luckily I'm a lemur :D
 

shakethelight

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Add me to that list.

I woke up late this afternoon, flipped opened my laptop and read this. I was like. Am I still doped up on my medications? Because I don;t remember posting this

Don't even respond to him, block him. I don't even know why men would try some mess like that, it's sickening. It's shows how horrible and ignorant people are. Stick you number two in the air and S on that ....

Don't even let there be a next time he calls. Get rid of him because men like that only want to play mind games. A lot of nerve these punks have.

It's okay, all of you are going to be a better person than what they are. Wait you guys already are so sweet and awesome.




they are the worst! and what I saw was mindblowing. like, really. He was calling me after 4 months of ignoring me AFTER i was the only person who was there when he went away. Got out and got a new gf. 4 months goes by and decides to call me? Im glad I went into his email because he has an std and i would have never known! being crazy does pay off. plus if he didnt want me to go in there he'd change it, I decided.
 

Deus_Ex_Lemur

Well-known member
I am sexually attracted to my therapist.

Great. That's all I need.

Mostly because she laughs at all my dumb jokes.

I feel a rant coming on.

Aren't u paying her to do that? :p No this is the reason why I'm trying to choose a male or old manly woman for my therapist :)
 

Nathália

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they are the worst! and what I saw was mindblowing. like, really. He was calling me after 4 months of ignoring me AFTER i was the only person who was there when he went away. Got out and got a new gf. 4 months goes by and decides to call me? Im glad I went into his email because he has an std and i would have never known! being crazy does pay off. plus if he didnt want me to go in there he'd change it, I decided.

::(: I'm sorry shakethelight you had to go through that, that's awful. No it's called being cautious. I found out my ex b*** was a famous singer with different names after searching him real good after he sent me a "I miss you" message. When I confronted him about being a singer in another country, he acted dumb and got scared. See he goes to all these different countries and "falls in love" with women. I won't even play into these games anymore. Once a dudes gone, he better not call me back.
 

DarkPhoenix

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Stressed and nervous. Just found out my boss wants to train me to be a supervisor, i know i should be happy with the opportunity but my communications skills are terrible and i dont really like telling people what to do... im worried my team mates wont respect me because of how socially awkward i am.
 
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