How are you feeling?

[MikeyC]

just wanted to say hope everyone is feeling ok, if not i hope tomorrow brings better sunshine. were all in this together. goodnight all.

Thanks, aidan.

Sadly, I think I have missed out somewhere. This has been going on for a number of years. We see each other , we flirt. He has hinted a few times eg asking me to cook for him, but I didn't take him on because I wasn't sure if he was being serious. He has never directly asked me out though. I did try today. I tried to hint that he could come and see my new car, after all, it was he who suggested what car would suit me, but he didn't seem to be taking me on. I don't get to try agin til Friday when I get my hair done (because he owns the hairdressers) and if I don't do something then, then I won't see him again for ages. I used to just go up to men and smile and they would ask me out or I would. I don't know what happened as that all seems to have disappeared. I think I screwed up somewhere along the line. Thanks for listening people, I have no friends to talk to about this stuff. Xx

I would absolutely say something on Friday, because if you miss out then, you're going to kick yourself for a long time. It's a scary thing to do but all you need is 10 seconds of courage. I'm positive he will reciprocate if you guys are both flirting.

 

[lonely_drummer]

That sucks, is there anyway they can resolve their issues though? But its not your fault in anyway.

Nah I don't think so. It's just we've kind of drifted apart lately and it doesn't seem like one of the members is even interested anymore. I blame my injuries because it's because of this long break without jamming that's causing us to drift apart. The drummer sees it and said he's done and this is a band where the members are irreplaceable. It's really hard to say right now.

 

[bcsr]

@bcsr how? why?

It was just some idiot trying to show off to the group of people he was with. He picked the wrong target.

 

[lilmutegirl]

Stressed and anxious. My boyfriend has been really stressed lately, so he hasn't been able to watch my son (he usually does while I'm at work). If he is unable to this week, I won't have child care for three of the 5 days I work, as well as the first day of summer school (I'm going back to college). I have very few other options for child care, and I am in the hole from having to pay for an hourly rate day care the past week (I was hoping by now he'd feel better after a week break, but I guess not...)

 

[KiaKaha]

Very un-alpha male like - which means I am completely and utterly unacceptable in every way imaginable.

 

[coyote]

Very un-alpha male like - which means I am completely and utterly unacceptable in every way imaginable.

funny, i accept you

 

[Arthur_Dent]

I guess that at some point, people get bored of hearing you complaining about the same thing over and over and grew tired of you, I don't blame them.

 

[KiaKaha]

Always have to be in control, dominating, powerful.
Faster, stronger, better.
Always - never falter, never be weak, never be insecure. That is the only way you are deemed to be worth anything. No one will respect you or be interested in you if you show a single ounce of uncertainty in your disposition.

 

[coyote]

Always have to be in control, dominating, powerful.
Faster, stronger, better.
Always - never falter, never be weak, never be insecure. That is the only way you are deemed to be worth anything. No one will respect you or be interested in you if you show a single ounce of uncertainty in your disposition.

sounds like you had the same drill instructors that i did

that's what they taught us in the marines

actually, that's my fall-back position for when i AM unsure of myself - if in doubt, resort to your training

when i'm truly confident, i'm more comfortable letting down my guard

i've learned that i can build stronger relationships when i allow people to see my imperfections and not take myself too seriously

but your mileage may vary

 

[Srijita52]

Always have to be in control, dominating, powerful.
Faster, stronger, better.
Always - never falter, never be weak, never be insecure. That is the only way you are deemed to be worth anything. No one will respect you or be interested in you if you show a single ounce of uncertainty in your disposition.

Well, in that case I've no hope for me.

Very un-alpha male like - which means I am completely and utterly unacceptable in every way imaginable.

I'm sorry Kia, I like you the way you are.

 

[MikeyC]

Very un-alpha male like - which means I am completely and utterly unacceptable in every way imaginable.

That's not true. Surely you know that.

 

[Srijita52]

Sadly, I think I have missed out somewhere. This has been going on for a number of years. We see each other , we flirt. He has hinted a few times eg asking me to cook for him, but I didn't take him on because I wasn't sure if he was being serious. He has never directly asked me out though. I did try today. I tried to hint that he could come and see my new car, after all, it was he who suggested what car would suit me, but he didn't seem to be taking me on. I don't get to try agin til Friday when I get my hair done (because he owns the hairdressers) and if I don't do something then, then I won't see him again for ages. I used to just go up to men and smile and they would ask me out or I would. I don't know what happened as that all seems to have disappeared. I think I screwed up somewhere along the line. Thanks for listening people, I have no friends to talk to about this stuff. Xx

Good luck for Friday.

Nah I don't think so. It's just we've kind of drifted apart lately and it doesn't seem like one of the members is even interested anymore. I blame my injuries because it's because of this long break without jamming that's causing us to drift apart. The drummer sees it and said he's done and this is a band where the members are irreplaceable. It's really hard to say right now.

I'm sorry, but I don't think its completely your injuries though. If all of you have drifted apart there might other issues besides this.

 

[Opaline]

I just feel down, pointless. Frustrated.

I struggle with the fact that as long as I'm still alive, I must continue to keep living, and in the end you are the only one who must decide how to handle your existence. Because after a point all people can do is shrug and move on with their own lives, and how can you expect otherwise? They have to take care of themselves, your life and your thoughts are an alien world they will never have to be in. Sucks to be you.

Not feeling sorry for myself by the way. I don't feel pity for myself right now. I am just completely baffled as to what my next move is supposed to be, as far as taking care of myself goes.

The hard fact is... I honestly don't want to live. Not that I'm planning a suicide or anything, but... how do I explain? I loathe this existence. That I'm trapped in this human body, in this society, this planet. I don't want to be here. I don't want to face it all. I've tried to just suck it up, and it works, and I'm glad. But I can only hide my dissatisfaction for so long...

Anyway. Distraction helps. Distraction and lowering my standards... really far. So I won't be as disappointed. I read a lot and go online and work a lot. And that consumes my days... Until I figure out another way of being, this is my reality.

 

[KiaKaha]

sounds like you had the same drill instructors that i did

that's what they taught us in the marines

actually, that's my fall-back position for when i AM unsure of myself - if in doubt, resort to your training

when i'm truly confident, i'm more comfortable letting down my guard

i've learned that i can build stronger relationships when i allow people to see my imperfections and not take myself too seriously

but your mileage may vary

It just means I am never good enough. I accept myself fine. It's the rest of the world that doesnt seem to think I am wothwhile.

 

[MikeyC]

The hard fact is... I honestly don't want to live. Not that I'm planning a suicide or anything, but... how do I explain? I loathe this existence. That I'm trapped in this human body, in this society, this planet. I don't want to be here. I don't want to face it all. I've tried to just suck it up, and it works, and I'm glad. But I can only hide my dissatisfaction for so long...

What about existence do you loathe? Just the way it works? I can understand where you're coming from because I have similar thoughts, too.

As far as taking care of yourself goes, do whatever you need to do to make that happen.

 

[Srijita52]

I just feel down, pointless. Frustrated.

I struggle with the fact that as long as I'm still alive, I must continue to keep living, and in the end you are the only one who must decide how to handle your existence. Because after a point all people can do is shrug and move on with their own lives, and how can you expect otherwise? They have to take care of themselves, your life and your thoughts are an alien world they will never have to be in. Sucks to be you.

Not feeling sorry for myself by the way. I don't feel pity for myself right now. I am just completely baffled as to what my next move is supposed to be, as far as taking care of myself goes.

The hard fact is... I honestly don't want to live. Not that I'm planning a suicide or anything, but... how do I explain? I loathe this existence. That I'm trapped in this human body, in this society, this planet. I don't want to be here. I don't want to face it all. I've tried to just suck it up, and it works, and I'm glad. But I can only hide my dissatisfaction for so long...

Anyway. Distraction helps. Distraction and lowering my standards... really far. So I won't be as disappointed. I read a lot and go online and work a lot. And that consumes my days... Until I figure out another way of being, this is my reality.

I'm sorry Tally, I know the feeling. But yeah, I agree with you, in the end all of us are on our own, do whatever it needs to be done in taking care of yourself, hang in there.

 

[Opaline]

I'm sorry Tally, I know the feeling. But yeah, I agree with you, in the end all of us are on our own, do whatever it needs to be done in taking care of yourself, hang in there.

I just feel like I'm at the end of the line.

I feel like I'm 60 years old. World-weary and have given up many dreams and just want it to be over with.

I also feel like I've seen and experienced enough, and have had many happy days in the past. And I want to just take that and treasure it and go onto the other side, which is probably nonexistence.

I'm here though, so I have to continue coping. Maybe one day I will be thriving and not just coping.

I can't lie, I'm doubtful. But crazier things have been known to happen.

 

[Srijita52]

I just feel like I'm at the end of the line.

I feel like I'm 60 years old. World-weary and have given up many dreams and just want it to be over with.

I also feel like I've seen and experienced enough, and have had many happy days in the past. And I want to just take that and treasure it and go onto the other side, which is probably nonexistence.

I'm here though, so I have to continue coping. Maybe one day I will be thriving and not just coping.

I can't lie, I'm doubtful. But crazier things have been known to happen.

You never know what might happen in the future, life is crazy. You might feel you've had enough now but maybe one day you'll be hopeful again. Till that happens though you've to keep on coping.

 

[MikeyC]

I just feel like I'm at the end of the line.

I feel like I'm 60 years old. World-weary and have given up many dreams and just want it to be over with.

I also feel like I've seen and experienced enough, and have had many happy days in the past. And I want to just take that and treasure it and go onto the other side, which is probably nonexistence.

I'm here though, so I have to continue coping. Maybe one day I will be thriving and not just coping.

I can't lie, I'm doubtful. But crazier things have been known to happen.

I don't really know what to say. I'm sorry you feel this way. Srijita put it in better terms so listen to her.

I do sometimes feel that my 26 years on this planet is enough. I have gone through plenty and don't really want to experience much more. Yet here I am. If I can do it, you can easily do it.

 

[JimmyHAHABebop]

thinking about a girl i can never be with