Last few days I've been feeling very..pointless.
I got offered a job the other day, my first full-time job after university, reasonable money and such, but ever since then I've just been struck by this overwhelming feeling that everything is pointless.
Sure I could take the job, have a career, earn some money..but so what? I'll die eventually and it would all have meant nothing. I could even achieve wonderful things, go down in history for something great, but eventually we'll all die and who will give a **** then? It'll just all be irrelevant.
I suppose it's just the idea of the whole bull**** I'm going to have to go through from now on. Get a job..try and get promotions or better jobs...try and earn enough money so that i can afford a place to live and then when I'm finally too old to do the job any more, have just enough so that I don't have to die in the gutter. What an incredible waste of time. I'd much rather just disappear off and do something interesting, like go abroad and volunteer with people or something. I'm not sure I could stand the whole standard life/career thing. But of course, even that requires a lot of money to do.
urgh