What's the Most SP/SA thing you have ever done?

[Scrabbl]

The most shameful, pathetic thing I've ever done was when I was renting a room off a woman after I was kicked out of home in 2006. Two children lived there too, they were both 3 years older than me, and they were very egotistical, and usually made a lot of comments about how much better they were than me. Overall I felt very uncomfortable living there, and didn't feel very welcome, or involved in anything.

So they had a party at around christmas time, and all their friends and family came over, I was actually invited to attend and sit and have lunch and do the general socialising thing, but I couldn't trust them, I felt they were all out to get me or embarrass me in front of their friends, so I locked myself in my room for 30 hours straight in the middle of a blazing summer, with only a bottle of water, and no food. They didn't have air-con either, so I think it got up to around 36 degrees celcius in the room. I made it through, but I came down very sick afterwards for about a week, probably caused by heat exhaustion.

stranded in our rooms! only social phobics can understand that lol

the urban version of Robinson Crusoe!

 

[Diend]

wow after reading your responses, I probably would have done some of the stuff you guys mentioned if I was in that situation. I've had tons, but the one I remember clearly enough was when I wanted to join a club and I circled around the meeting room pretending to just pass by it. One guy looked out and that freaked me out, but I ended up going in after pacing back and forth a couple of times. I also didn't say one thing during the meeting since they were all upper-classmen and I wasn't sure if I should say anything or not.

-have been in relationships with 3 different girls now at 18, something i didn't think i'd be doing for a long time.
-got a job.
-went to several birthday parties/large social gatherings/house parties.

w00t!

 

[206Raider]

one time in college I had a new class and I went to the wrong class and sat for about a half hour knowing I was in the wrong class but was afraid to get up and walk out becuase everybody was would stare (which they did) and then the instructer asked what was wrong and I had to saw wrong class so everyone laughed and then I had to walk in a new class in session and you know how that is....everyone is sitting and you open the door and everyone looks at you and asks questions.....

and one time in high school I did a presentation and I just looked at my project the whole time and the one time I looked up...my head freak out, I mean I literally shook my head uncontrollably....luckily nobody else really noticed becuase my friends didn't say nothing to me but it reeally hurt actually, my head just shook when I looked up at everyone staring

 

[Cal]

stranded in our rooms! only social phobics can understand that lol

the urban version of Robinson Crusoe!

I don't generally hide away or anything though, even though I feel anxious a lot. But living there, I felt trapped, and confused. I had no idea what to do with my life and no one to go to for advice. On top of that, that house was out in the middle of nowhere, and the nearest town was like a 90 minute walk away. So I think eventually my brain put up the white flag, and surrendered to my anxiety and negative thoughts completely.

That reminds me, when I did go and see people I knew (but didn't exactly get along with) at the time, I would feel guilty about asking to stay the night, so I slept under a bridge instead, quite often... just to avoid going home. But it wasn't like being homeless to me, it was quite cozy there and I had a lot of neat things hidden away. Sorta like an adventure of some sort.

 

[Feathers]

oh gosh, just spent the last 6 months worrying about something that wasn't even an issue once I spoke to the right people in the right way!!! uggh!!!

feeling pretty stupid lol... could have done soo much more in the RIGHT way for getting what I really want by now!!! lol!!

okay, always double-check and try to clarify/address things if you feel it's really needed, lol!!!

 

[BlackPuma]

I don't ride buses unless it's absolutely necessary. And that means walking multiple miles relatively (relative to the amount of trips I make without having a bike available to me) often. I don't mind, though. I like how slow and calmly the world seems to move when you're forced to take a long walk.

 

[lunaticbinge]

Wow this is a hard one. I couldn't pick just one thing in particular, but there was a really bad thing I did quite a bit back in middle school/high school. If I was late for a class, rather than walk in and have everyone look at me, I would go to a bathroom stall and wait for the next class to start. The punishment I received was preferable to all those eyes on me at once.

 

[Feathers]

I love how you had a typo on "double-check" ::

meanie!!

I actually saw it in the other thread and then forgot/didn't have time to check this one and un-sheck it!! /will do it now!! you go chat to some nice girls in the library now!! for punishment!!/

 

[vj288]

meanie!!

I actually saw it in the other thread and then forgot/didn't have time to check this one and un-sheck it!! /will do it now!! you go chat to some nice girls in the library now!! for punishment!!/

Who's the meanie now? Making me go talk to nice girls...

 

[LazyHermitCrab]

Went to a family wedding which included people of all age so it wasn't wild crazy but it still made me panic enough to just leave...lots of people were dancing and stuff. So in the middle of standing in a group i had nothing to say so went to the bathroom and decided to leave... this was at 1 am and i didn't have my license... a search party went after me and i heard them yelling my name and i pretended i was already at my grandmas when they called my cell after i ignored it heh when i was in the middle of crossing a busy highway...

 

[Snowdrop]

God where to start? Well this is embarassing to admit but while I was in my second year of college I didn't have any real friends so I'd spend lunch break alone. I hid and ate in the toilets for maybe 20 mins so that there'd be no chance of anyone seeing me sat there alone eating. Completely crazy right?
Others have also avoided seeing people who used to be friends with me (I slowly stopped hanging out with them), so I'd go to college a bit earlier so as not to see them on my journey there, and if I did see them I'd whip out my phone and pretend I was texting and didn't see them. Terrible...

 

[JosephG]

Probably one time when I was at my friends girlfriends and we were all watching tv. They started making fun of me in terms of a bit of banter. It was something I'd usually have a laugh with but this time I said I was going the toilet and I just left the house and walked the 30 minutes walk home on my own. They kept ringing me and I blanked their calls. They had searched the whole house and were really worried as to where I was.

 

[Kingdave]

isolated myself and last all my friends basicly 11th and 12th grades of my high school career.

 

[kihira]

Wow this is a hard one. I couldn't pick just one thing in particular, but there was a really bad thing I did quite a bit back in middle school/high school. If I was late for a class, rather than walk in and have everyone look at me, I would go to a bathroom stall and wait for the next class to start. The punishment I received was preferable to all those eyes on me at once.

I can remember doing this at high school too. I got caught out once when I forgot it was a double class; I waited until the bell went and walked into a full classroom anyway

 

[Untamed88]

I have been at my job for three years. Everone else goes to the cinema at weekends at attends each others birthday. Seriously EVERYONE. No exaggeration. Even people who joined about two weeks ago.
Everyone but me. I don't speak to any of them and they have given up speaking to me. I used to get a few invites in the beginning but not anymore.

 

[Kristina223]

There is a lot of things, very stupid things I've done because of my SA.
The most recent one ...

- When I want to go to my personal doctor, I have to be at the clinic at 13:30 and wait there to get a number, on which the time of your appointment is written. So, I went there, got the number and the time wasn't written on it. I saw that the first second I got the card but was to afraid to ask. So I went back to the car and thought what to do next ... because I had no idea when should I be there and of course I didn't want to wait in the waiting room for multiple unnecessary hours. So I drove back home, turned around and decided to go back and ask (I couldn't call and ask, because they don't pick up the phone). I was sure the people that were in the waiting room before wouldn't be there anymore .. So I got back to the clinic and all the people were still there. So I walked pass them, as if I was there for something else ... and I left at the back door. So yeah, I didn't know when my appointment is and I was there a few hours again anyways, dying in the waiting room just because I was too afraid to ask. Which is kind of ironic, because waiting two hours was even worse.

- And another one, that I do every day when I go to school. Instead of going to the bus to the school, I walk for about 30 minutes ... It's pure suffering, because I meet lots of people on the way, I have trouble walking, especially now when the pavements are icy and slippery. And at the and I get to the school with my face red because of all the walking, just because I was to afraid to go to the bus ... With the bus, I would be there in 10 minutes, but I don't want to stand there in the crowd. But still, 10 minutes of suffering would've been better than 30 minutes.

 

[Minty]

Well...on Tues. and Thurs. I study an extra hour at my school library so I can take the later bus. Two of my friends take the earlier one and I can't talk to them at all when there are dozens of strangers around us listening in. I hate the bus.

 

[*Amy*]

Some time ago when I used to like a guy in my class and I would blush every time he spoke or even when another person mentiond his name. That was a dreadful part of my life::

 

[MollyBeGood]

hmm.. now this is very funny to me but I was working at a guest ranch and this woman who was a health guru freak I couldn't stand her, she invited this man to do a sweat lodge...and I was sitting in the circle with others who were saying prayers and comes to my turn I didn't say anything, mostly because I thought it was a total joke but anyways I also didn't want to speak infront of them during their wanna-be rituals.

 

[jack23]

I had a panic attack inside of a craft store that sells Halloween costumes and decorations, like the day of Halloween. There was very narrow aisles and a ton of people and I started hyperventilating.

A more regular occurrence is when I go out to get something to eat, I will have a bout of SA, drive around for 20 minutes then end up going home with nothing to show for it. I hate that.