What's the Most SP/SA thing you have ever done?

[Scrabbl]

Wow I gotta say I can't top what u guys did in craziness.
But here it is..

I biked to high school for the whole 6 months of Winnipeg winter (-40 centigrade at times, with lots of snow and ice on the road). It was worth it since I could bike home at lunch hour and avoid the cafeteria.

I spent a whole day stuck in TOronto because i was too afraid to ask ppl for directions

 

[cobalt_bluester]

the most thing I've ever done was to stay over 24 hours solid in my bedroom when I was a student at Sheffield. One of my 'housemates' had invited a number of his friends up for London with telling anybody! I just didn't have the confidence to go and say hello as I would have been the centre of attention and I hate being that! It was a complete nightmare and although I tried I could just not face them so I hid away.

 

[shybhoy]

mines has to be when i had to do a solo talk in front of my class mates at college i just went bright red thought i was going to die and completely froze it did not help that the lecturer who was assessing it kind made fun of me at the end, by making a sarcastic remark "that was fabulous james" yeh right.....!! i thought to myself still i looked right through her i think we shy / SA types can hold a good stare when we need too i think she could of read my thoughts i swear maybe because whilst i was staring her out after her remark i was saying "you bitch, you complete bitch" in my head lol.....the rest of the class could see i was not happy at all....

 

[recluse]

1) Pretend to sleep on buses and cars to avoid having to talk.
2) Making excuses not to go to parties and stuff.
3) Hiding in my room when people visit my parents.
4) Pretending to do something on my mobile phone.
5) Eat in my car at work.
6) Freezing and not able to speak when having to be in front of the class at school and stuff.
7) Trying to hide when i spot someone i know in public places.
8) Not talking when in groups and just sitting/standing there like a dummy.

 

[billy]

Hung out with my one friends group of friends 4 days in a row. I sat there silent the whole time barely saying a word. They thought i was weird. And one of the girls thoguht i hated her sigh..

 

[AGR]

Literally hidding from people,always going to stores to eat instead of eating at work.

 

[jamie99]

I felt anxious just reading this thread and now i have to go to work in half an hour arghh. I guess it's good to know your not alone though, without the internet i don't think any of us would have known so many others had the same painful experiences.

 

[WelshOne]

I used to take entire days off school during my highschool years, simply because there was a school assembly that morning (everyone gathers in the main hall, listens to the head talk for a while and sometimes people would have their names called out to go on stage to collect merit awards.) I did that at least once a week.

Also at the very start of my GCSE year, I had a new class with NONE of my friends, and I had no idea where it was I was supposed to go. So I hid in the toilets... it was actually quite funny because some of the rough/bully type guys came in and were skipping class too. Ended up having a laugh with them for 15 minutes, then I just walked home! But yeah, the avoidance there was having to walk into a class that was already in progress... I HATED having to do that, because everyone would go quiet and look at me.

 

[dooby-duck]

I used to take entire days off school during my highschool years, simply because there was a school assembly that morning (everyone gathers in the main hall, listens to the head talk for a while and sometimes people would have their names called out to go on stage to collect merit awards.) I did that at least once a week.

having to walk into a class that was already in progress... I HATED having to do that, because everyone would go quiet and look at me.

I used to hate the end of term assembly. I usually had 100% attendance and made you go up and shake the headmasters hand. In the sixth form I hated all assembly's. For some reason they made me feel really anxious and sick.

I remember one occasion at school when I'd been there for several years, I had been missed off the groupings for science class (among others). So when it came time to be in a science I had to go and get put in a class. The admin person seemed to think I was a new kid even though I kept telling them that I'd been there for years. So I was taken to a class and introduced to all the class as a new kid. Of course they all knew who I was, as did the teacher. I looked and felt like a right wally.

 

[overcome.]

-have been in relationships with 3 different girls now at 18, something i didn't think i'd be doing for a long time.
-got a job.
-went to several birthday parties/large social gatherings/house parties.

 

[WalkingWithStrangers]

Last year during choir lessons we had to introduce ourselves and do that "say the name and favorite color of person before you" and I only said the girl's name and not her favorite color and let felt incredibley stupid, slapped my hand over my mouth and felt even worse.

Saying or doing things that could be taken as really insensitive.

Ignoring my entire Italian class when they did an April Fool's joke and being the only one who's desk wasn't facing the back wall... That whole class hated me anyway, though, and there were numerous things I wish I hadn't done or said.

 

[Fighter86]

Let's see...

a) I used to hate it in school when we had fairs, big celebrations or the like. Basically, you get to spend the day exploring the fair with your friends, and I hated it because I didn't have friends that I could actually hang out with and explore the fairs, so I sort of pretend and walk purposefully around them like I was on my way to something important, and then go hide in the toilets after I've done a round or two and just sort of repeat the cycle till the day ends Either that, or I pretend to be sick and avoid school.

b) I HATED school projects, especially those where they allow you to choose your groups because I didn't have any friends I could group with. I distinctly I stressed for one such project for weeks, and then at the final last few days before the dateline, I went up to this girl whom I know was quite nice and told her I forgot all about the project and asked if I could join her group. She just sort of pretended she didn't know I didn't had any friends to form a group, and let me joined hers, but she belonged to a popular group and her friends just look at me like a freak show, f*** them all!


c) Later on in tietiary education, I was so terrified of school, I actually got up, got ready, and pretend to go to school as usual, but I hang out in libraries instead, I took a bus right up to school, then leave.

d) I'm pretty paraniod about going out nowadays because of my colleagues, I'm afraid they would spot me alone out in shops when I tell them I would be out with friends.

 

[sorrow1]

after reading through some of these i can relate to alot of the silly stuff people have done. I think its good to read through them because it makes us recognise the need for change and to get help.

I always remember a time when my flat mate had about five friends coming over who i didnt know. I was too anxious to meet them so i told my flatmate i was going out with my friends that night. only i later discovered after numerous frantic phone calls that all my friends were busy so instead of just going back i wandered around outside for nine hours until everyone had gone. it was a cold winters night and I had no jacket, i ended up nearly getting hypothermia and got a nasty cold for the next two weeks. all because of my anxiety.
thankfully im much better now and i dont do stuff quite as extreme anymore. but it was one of the things that made me wanna change.

 

[Noca]

-have been in relationships with 3 different girls now at 18, something i didn't think i'd be doing for a long time.
-got a job.
-went to several birthday parties/large social gatherings/house parties.

How is that the most SA thing you've ever done?

 

[citizen_erased]

This morning i think i managed to break my own personal record for the most stupid i've ever done because of SA.

My car had its MOT this morning and since i walk right past the garage it was at on my way to work (i only live a 5 minute walk away from my job) i stopped to find out what the status was. I was told it'd passed and that my keys were in the ignition. It'd been parked just outside the garage. I planned to take it home at lunchtime since i couldn't do it right then, so i just needed to go and lock it up and grab my keys. I was just about to go and do that when i noticed there a few men nearby and one of them was looking at me - suddenly i felt really anxious so, stupidly, i walked straight past my car and just went to work which is a few buildings away from the garage

The road that the garage and my workplace are on isn't even a proper road, it's a little lane not even off the main road, so it's usually a fairly quiet area. Despite knowing this, plus the fact that the car would only be there a few hours until i picked it up, within 90 minutes of arriving at work i'd gone from being relatively calm about the situation to completely paranoid that it wouldn't be there by lunchtime I decided i had to go and lock it up and get my keys back because i couldn't stand having to work while worrying about it for the next 2 hours til lunchtime. I was too anxious/couldn't face the embarrassment of telling my boss/supervisor what i was up to, so i just carefully snuck out without telling anyone, did what i needed to do and came back - i was gone less than 2 minutes and i'm almost certain no-one even realised i was gone, but i've spent the rest of the day kicking myself for being so stupid in the first place, and no doubt will be doing so for a long time to come. When the hell did my SA become this bad?! ::

 

[Flowers-Of-Bloom]

Left school early.

If there's someone in the house besides my family (friends of family, relatives) I very rarely will leave my room. My brother has a lot of parties and LAN gatherings here, so I will avoid those people to the best of my ability.

 

[awkwardturtle]

1) Skipped college classes/presentations without a second thought.
2) I used to hate buying things so if I was with my one friend I'd give her my money and have her buy it for me. I always felt embarrassed about what I was buying. I got over this thankfully.
3) Walking wayyyyy out of my way to avoid walking near people.
4) Not talking to roommates in college.
5) My ONE friend in college went home for a weekend and I didn't go eat at the dining hall because I didn't want to go alone. Think I just lived off crackers from the vending machine that weekend. Now I don't really have a problem eating somewhere alone because I just started forcing myself to do it so I didn't starve.
6) Not answering the door/phone. Avoided making really important phone calls in college that had to do with financial aid so I could've potentially screwed myself over big time if I hadn't finally forced myself to call the people I needed to talk to.
7) I used to hate walking around without anything in my hands. I'd always have to be holding SOMETHING, whether it was my purse, a pen, whatever. Now I don't have a problem with this either.
8) Lying to people about not feeling well or something to avoid situations.
9) Avoided walking out to the bathroom at college because I heard someone in the hallway.
10) Spending more time talking to people online than in real life.

 

[Cal]

The most shameful, pathetic thing I've ever done was when I was renting a room off a woman after I was kicked out of home in 2006. Two children lived there too, they were both 3 years older than me, and they were very egotistical, and usually made a lot of comments about how much better they were than me. Overall I felt very uncomfortable living there, and didn't feel very welcome, or involved in anything.

So they had a party at around christmas time, and all their friends and family came over, I was actually invited to attend and sit and have lunch and do the general socialising thing, but I couldn't trust them, I felt they were all out to get me or embarrass me in front of their friends, so I locked myself in my room for 30 hours straight in the middle of a blazing summer, with only a bottle of water, and no food. They didn't have air-con either, so I think it got up to around 36 degrees celcius in the room. I made it through, but I came down very sick afterwards for about a week, probably caused by heat exhaustion.

 

[Darkened]

I have two or three major cases that I can consider the worst...

- School - It was morning and the 1st class of the day was inside a room that has very close tables and chairs. I arrived a little bit late, I couldn't choose the regular back seat closest to the door.... so the only place available was right in the middle of everyone. I thought "This is not good good", but the worst was yet to come. Sometimes my belly makes some noises after eating and, for my sins, in that morning it happened. My heart rate was very fast, my throat was like someone was choking me and was desperately trying to find a position that would make the noises stop. Almost everyone noticed and at some time even the teacher and some guys smiled. It was the most embarrassing moment of my miserable life.
Other time it started to happen during a exam... the silence was unbelievable and I even started to caught and making some weird noises to cover it... it's unbelievable that I even though about that. A few minutes later I delivered the exam and left the room. I didn't even complete half of exam, I was not even thinking about it.
It was the last time, from that day I started to miss a lot of classes, and started to roam by car to burn time. I don't know I many Km I've made and how many gasoline I spent during those years, but it was almost everyday, sometimes more than once.

- The MacDonald's - This one was during a trip with my family to visit a cousin of mine. The return was near the dinner time and at some point in the middle of the road they all decided to eat... at MacDonald's for the first time, suggestion of my two other cousins. The day was going well, but at that point I just thought "Unbelievable! Just what I needed!". In food I don't like a lot of things and they seem to be available altogether at McDonnald's. When we arrived I couldn't believe in my eyes... that place was almost full of people (specially teens) at that hour. I was almost decided to say I was not ungry and to stay in the car waiting for them. But that would be a bit childish and I was a little bit ungry, so I went inside too. Then it all started... while waiting the line for order, my mother started to ask what I wanted, criticising me that I don't like a lot of those things and telling me to try this and try that... I was just thinking when would she just shut the hell up. I finally chose some small chicken pieces. Not enough embarrassing, they decided to seat at the tables... right in the middle of everyone. Man, my mother wouldn't just shut about what I chose... All I wanted was to get the hell out of there. I just eat the damn things in less than two minutes and said: "I'll wait in the car". When I was outside I felt like I was free from jail or something like that. It was the first and the last time I was inside of that hell. Next time I prefer to starve or be run over by a car.

 

[Scrabbl]

1) Skipped college classes/presentations without a second thought.
2) I used to hate buying things so if I was with my one friend I'd give her my money and have her buy it for me. I always felt embarrassed about what I was buying. I got over this thankfully.
3) Walking wayyyyy out of my way to avoid walking near people.
4) Not talking to roommates in college.
5) My ONE friend in college went home for a weekend and I didn't go eat at the dining hall because I didn't want to go alone. Think I just lived off crackers from the vending machine that weekend. Now I don't really have a problem eating somewhere alone because I just started forcing myself to do it so I didn't starve.
6) Not answering the door/phone. Avoided making really important phone calls in college that had to do with financial aid so I could've potentially screwed myself over big time if I hadn't finally forced myself to call the people I needed to talk to.
7) I used to hate walking around without anything in my hands. I'd always have to be holding SOMETHING, whether it was my purse, a pen, whatever. Now I don't have a problem with this either.
8) Lying to people about not feeling well or something to avoid situations.
9) Avoided walking out to the bathroom at college because I heard someone in the hallway.
10) Spending more time talking to people online than in real life.

nice list lol. 7 or 8 of those applies to me as well.