Not having perceptible emotions doesn't mean that I am a serial killer.

But, well, my ability to feel emotions is significantly less developed than it appears to be for others. Most people seem to be lead by their emotions, every single aspect of their existence heavily influenced by irrational thoughts.
Are you sure you don´t have Aspergers? They tend to be very rational people with less development in the emotional part. You try to deal with the world by your brain which you apply to everything because the emotional part is undeveloped. The result is sometimes a bit weird. It is not allways possible or appropriate to explain feelings rationally. For example if someone says: "I am sad", and you say: "But why, there is no reason to be sad, your feeling is irrational", it is a bit inapropriate because the person surely knows he has no reason to be sad. All he wants is compassion. I´m not saying you said exactly this, but similar things which only tend to piss people off. As I said they want compassion, which is a demonstration of love in fact. You might say love is a feeling and not rational, so what is the REASON for it. Similary some people, who are full of hate, tend to find every REASON for their hate. Is hate more rational than love? Either way, it´s both feelings, and not explainable rationally.
Still, being as rational as you are, as you yourself say, you want to find a woman and love. So, why do you want love, it´s not rational

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Seems to me sometimes like you don´t know what you want, or you yearn for it and push it away at the same time because you don´t know anyhow else. Same, you say you dislike people or are not interested in them and at the same time long for their company.
Anyway I am said to be AS too (without the intelligent part apparently), and have mess in the emotions department too. If everything could be dealt with pure rationally, it would be easier and safe.