It's impossible for me to meet new people by myself.
I can't approach anyone.
I feel awkward asking a teacher for anything. Even if it's a question that is essential for an assignment. I'll just guess, unless it is a really nice teacher who I actually am comfortable with.
No matter how much I'd want to, I cant be the conversation starter with someone I dont know.
And sometimes I'm so anxious I dont even feel like going for a walk or anything.
If I could have even a little confidence in myself, I could work and be happy doing what I like-- but I don't even know what I like anymore and I feel ashamed that I can't even take advantage of my one and only talent.
To be honest I dont think low self-asteem is a symptom of Social Anxiety or Phobia.
I think it's more of a thing where we don't feel "normal" because we can't socialize right so society and whatnot makes us feel like misfits and disfunctional people.
Either way I still have close to no self asteem/confidence |:
Not being able to maintain friendships. In the rare case that I meet somebody, I may hang out with them about 3 times and then try and quietly slip out of their life. Afraid that they will think I am boring after they know me. I can persuade myself that anybody doesn't know me yet hence why they like me, and I use it as an excuse to push away (past) good friends
This was a hard one b/c at different times in my life I would have answered differently. There was a time I wouldn't come out of the house for fear of an anxiety attack. When I finally did get out I still wasn't talking to anyone (except for a psychiatrist). Right this moment the hardest has been trying to establish relationships. I've been alone too long.::
Definitely being misunderstood by others. I know I come across as cold and distant when I don't wave or say hello as much as I probably should. I care a lot about what people think about me and I'm not able to present myself in the way I really want to. It's hard having that difference between what I feel I'm like on the inside and how I can show it. It's easy for people to mistake me for being stupid, rude or both when in reality I'm just petrified of letting go and relaxing.
Also there's the replaying of what I think were uncomfortable events over and over in my mind. It's like my brain is always switched on. I still think about things which happened over 10 years ago which, rationally, is ridiculous but I really can't help it.
To be honest I relate to everything on the poll but I still stick by that being misunderstood is the most painful for me.