Suicide. Death. You.

[DanFC]

Well Hellhound, that's different since the relatives are pushing you and not themselves to suicide. And in your case, I'd say something is wrong with your family (not just morally, but on a serious objective level that extends to almost any rational paradigm). I seriously hope that you have some connections wrapping you to reality more than a pet in case of a breakdown or anything; if nothing else, it seems from posts that I have read that there are people on this site who have considerably strong ties to you

 

[Hellhound]

hellhound that is absolutely horrifying.. it really shows me how incredibly strong you are though, because you HAVE found things that you choose to live for. i hope you know that you are way better than them for having been so courageous...

I must thank my human and animal friends for giving me that strenght... Without them, I don't know where i would be right now.

Thanks for your kind words

 

[Nack]

I must thank my human and animal friends for giving me that strenght... Without them, I don't know where i would be right now.

Thanks for your kind words

Remind me one of these days to get a chinchilla.

 

[Hellhound]

Well Hellhound, that's different since the relatives are pushing you and not themselves to suicide. And in your case, I'd say something is wrong with your family (not just morally, but on a serious objective level that extends to almost any rational paradigm).

I know right? They're just sickos... It doesn't suprise me if I inherited some of their insanity.

I seriously hope that you have some connections wrapping you to reality more than a pet in case of a breakdown or anything; if nothing else, it seems from posts that I have read that there are people on this site who have considerably strong ties to you

In real life no. But I have my online buddies and close friends, they help a lot I wish they were here though... And really think so? Heh... that means a lot. I must admit that I'm getting attached to a few people here but i'm not sure if they would believe it... or if they consider me their friend (i think i'm just insecure)

 

[theblank]

How often do you actually "want to die" or actually consider suicide?

Just about every day the thought crosses my mind. Today it crossed my mind MANY times.

 

[mrb]

not me ....... death awaits us all , so ill just wait until death gets me , im not giving myself to death ....

 

[206Raider]

I think everybody has thought of dying before. As far as suicide, I've never planned anything out or tried. I've wanted to! But something always would hold me back, thinking somethings will get better soon. Of course I've thought about countless times though, "I won't mind if this car spins over and kills me on the spot" or I hope I never wake up. But, I wouldn't kill myself and I don't feel that bad at the moment atleast.

 

[Hellhound]

Remind me one of these days to get a chinchilla.

Good choice!

 

[lyricalliaisons]

I think about it every single day, practically all day long. I don't have a plan for it or anything, but I know I'm going to have to come up with one, even though I don't want to. I know I can't make it on my own without my mom & I don't even want to try. I know my life is going to get a million times worse after my mom dies & I'm not going to go through even more hell. The last 28 years have been hell enough. There's no real reason for me to be here after my mom dies. I'll have absolutely no one then. Honestly, I really wish I would just die so that I won't have to kill myself, but I know that's not going to happen.

 

[chained]

I've been very suicidal lately..but I don't have the guts and once I took a razor and my mom saw me, and she barely said please don't.. i couldn't.. but anyways id probably end up paralyzed, cuz im not smart enough to plan my death, and I guess life could be a lot better, if I have endured so much, what the hell..and maybe it;s even worse when your dead..

 

[BlueDays]

I don't think about it as much as I used too. It used to be in the back of my mind everyday earlier in my life. It is suprising how the older you get, you manage to develop strategies to cope, until the urge eventually subsides.

 

[lunarla]

I had this really depressive state fairly recently where I fantasized a lot of death. I genuinely wanted to die, and I had all these different requirements for my death though. It passed. The suicidal state didn't last that long, but what was really scary to me was that I felt like I could have done something to act on it when I was in that state.

I've been feeling really weird lately, and sort of thinking about death but in a different way. Just that I'm really confused with reality.

 

[Lea]

I am not suicidal right now, but not happy either. But I get into depression and thinking about suicide all too easily. If time or effort manage to cover it or push it to the back of my mind, it is mostly a thin layer that can be easily broken. I'm trying though...

 

[Pink_Paula]

I've been thinking recently that if my mum loved me she'd realise that by me ending it then that would be the end of my pain and suffering. She's the only person that keeps me here, i have no one else that i care about or that would care if i was gone. I think if i left she would understand.

I care too. There could be a billion or more that would if they really knew you.

I truly want you to find the tides turn in this life. My restless life has mistreated me also. I think I am safe for now? However, know one knows for certain what tomorrow brings. What I do know is that their will be more beautiful mornings that I would love to see.

Thankyou, I hope everyone on here who feels like that finds the strength to carry on, i guess we'll have days where things will seem unbearable but like you say we don't know what tomorrow will bring the only way we will find out is by waking up.

 

[Badbuz]

thinkin about it all the time lately but havent attemped it.i dont have a belief in the after life so thats one thing that stops me ending this life and i wud never hang,drown or cut myself because there all painfull deaths y wud i want to die in pain iv lived my life to long in pain emotional pain mainly,so that leaves overdose as my only option besides living of course.i hope life gets better i just dont know how to make it better

 

[evil feline space cadet]

thinkin about it all the time lately but havent attemped it.i dont have a belief in the after life so thats one thing that stops me ending this life and i wud never hang,drown or cut myself because there all painfull deaths y wud i want to die in pain iv lived my life to long in pain emotional pain mainly,so that leaves overdose as my only option besides living of course.i hope life gets better i just dont know how to make it better

HIDE THE PILLS!!
Youre not goin' anywhere!!

 

[Psychedelicious]

It's All Over

Never once ever. I'm certainly not afraid of death or anything like that either. I can also also assure you, I probably hate myself more than most of the people here too, not that I want to admit that. It has nothing to do with that. I just think that it's selfish, and the thought has never crossed my mind. I'm here, so I might as well do whatever. I'm certainly not going to try to live as long as I possibly could, but I'm not going to try to die either.

 

[anomicdeer]

I use to think of it a lot. But now, I don't want to die. I don't want to kill myself. I want to try to enjoy my life. I'm not scared to die, but I just really want to be able to be happy again before I do.

 

[greyside]

there r times wen i think of it as the best solution,u dnt hv to care abt nething aftr dat,n nothing can hurt u more aftr datend of grief!!!.2 b honest i once tried rat poison.however i failed..bt trust me its scary...its frightful,,i sometime think isnt there ne idea 2 kil myslf which wont pain,or choke or hurt...bt one thing is for sure ths idea steams up in head only in the extremes of mood or circumstances,if one cud overcome dat moment...u wont be a looser!!!its a solution f al d problems,sadnes or inner complexes bt its a punishment to ur wonderful ,innocent family!!!!!dnt punish thm for no reason!

 

[greyside]

there r times wen i think of it as the best solution,u dnt hv to care abt nething aftr dat,n nothing can hurt u more aftr datend of grief!!!.2 b honest i once tried rat poison.however i failed..bt trust me its scary...its frightful,,i sometime think isnt there ne idea 2 kil myslf which wont pain,or choke or hurt...bt one thing is for sure ths idea steams up in head only in the extremes of mood or circumstances,if one cud overcome dat moment...u wont be a looser!!!its a solution f al d problems,sadnes or inner complexes bt its a punishment to ur wonderful ,innocent family!!!!!dnt punish thm for no reason!

give urself time.things get better,thety mite tk time bt they do....life is a book f changes!!