THeCARS1979
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Im yearning for someone but I have absolutely no idea what Im going to do because Im wasting an awful lot of time
Single & Lonely? - Craving for someone
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I've been longing someone for half my life, at least since I got depression in juniour high.
A lot of times, I have become desperate, looking everyone, fidning someone that is like me. I always have bad luck. A lot of times, I think I find someone and find I find them on the internet, turns out, they haven't been active/online in at least a couple years. A lot of these people are very similar to me.
A lot of things that happen to me, happen to late, like they should've happened earlier. I find that happens a lot.
A waste a lot of time for nothing, and it seems that everything I try to do to get notice or to connect with someone, ends up as a failure.
Dang curse!
A lot of times, I have become desperate, looking everyone, fidning someone that is like me. I always have bad luck. A lot of times, I think I find someone and find I find them on the internet, turns out, they haven't been active/online in at least a couple years. A lot of these people are very similar to me.
A lot of things that happen to me, happen to late, like they should've happened earlier. I find that happens a lot.
A waste a lot of time for nothing, and it seems that everything I try to do to get notice or to connect with someone, ends up as a failure.
Dang curse!
Re: Craving for someone
Can't say that it's really due to hanging around these forums.
(Or perhaps it is.....I don't know!)
But for the past few years iv'e been kind of "eh....I'm not ready" about relationships.
And as you said...never really felt lonely or left out in ome way.
But lately.....I've kind of been wishing that I could be with somebody.
Wishing that I could make it happen.
But.....nope.heh
I can relate to this......alot.
Can't say that it's really due to hanging around these forums.
(Or perhaps it is.....I don't know!)
But for the past few years iv'e been kind of "eh....I'm not ready" about relationships.
And as you said...never really felt lonely or left out in ome way.
But lately.....I've kind of been wishing that I could be with somebody.
Wishing that I could make it happen.
But.....nope.heh
Phoenixx
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I tend to go through spurts of craving someone, wanting affection, wanting to be in a relationship, etc. For a few weeks I'll feel fine being single and being alone most of the time, then I tend to go into a period of hating being single and alone and feeling extremely lonely.
While I do want to experience a relationship, since I've never been in one, I don't think that's what I truly want. I think what I most crave isn't so much a relationship status and love, but rather just having someone in your life that you're very close to, that you can tell anything to, that someone who's there for you whenever you're depressed and will make you feel better, whether it is a significant other or a best friend. It's been a very, very long time where I've had someone in my life that I can tell absolutely anything to without fear of being judged. Hiding and pushing your personal emotions, thoughts, and issues away from people for 7 years really eats at you.
While I do want to experience a relationship, since I've never been in one, I don't think that's what I truly want. I think what I most crave isn't so much a relationship status and love, but rather just having someone in your life that you're very close to, that you can tell anything to, that someone who's there for you whenever you're depressed and will make you feel better, whether it is a significant other or a best friend. It's been a very, very long time where I've had someone in my life that I can tell absolutely anything to without fear of being judged. Hiding and pushing your personal emotions, thoughts, and issues away from people for 7 years really eats at you.
MikeyC
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Seven years is a long time for that sort of thing. I hope you can find someone like that.
One thing is for sure to me,liking someone is one of the best way to make me feel like crap,I dont have close friends,I dont know many places around here,dont have much experience with anything,the only thing I could offer is my love and companionship,I can also be funny sometimes or so people tell me,maybe it could be enough to her?
But its really hard to even start taking the initiative.
But its really hard to even start taking the initiative.
weberriver
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I'm fine being alone, but I would like the dependability that partnership brings. Someone who's going to have my back. But in practice I tend to seek the unattainable, mainly because there's no risk involved.
Canttakeanymore
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@ OP
yea I had a similar childhood. My family was very poor. I was always the poorest kid in class. My house was very run down and infested with roaches and mice. I was never able to invite people over and I never went to their homes since I was embarrassed that my clothes weren't as nice as everyone elses. This pretty much lasted up until I started college.
But by that time the damage had been done. Even now at the age of 25 I have yet to invite anyone over or go over to their homes. I'm single and desperately lonely. I cant wait to conquer SA! arrgg!
yea I had a similar childhood. My family was very poor. I was always the poorest kid in class. My house was very run down and infested with roaches and mice. I was never able to invite people over and I never went to their homes since I was embarrassed that my clothes weren't as nice as everyone elses. This pretty much lasted up until I started college.
But by that time the damage had been done. Even now at the age of 25 I have yet to invite anyone over or go over to their homes. I'm single and desperately lonely. I cant wait to conquer SA! arrgg!
Craving/Longing for someone, all the time, everyday, every minute and every second.
It will be like this until the day I die, as I will always be alone no matter what, becuase of this curse.
The curse controls my life, clever peice of ****ing ****. Everything I do, is a mistake. I get a good idea (sign from the curse), I go with it, it was a bad idea. I never learn. Everything I do is for nothing.
It will be like this until the day I die, as I will always be alone no matter what, becuase of this curse.
The curse controls my life, clever peice of ****ing ****. Everything I do, is a mistake. I get a good idea (sign from the curse), I go with it, it was a bad idea. I never learn. Everything I do is for nothing.
da_illest101
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getting worse and worse everyday.
I found myself, recently going often on my former friend's facebook page, just to see what she is posting. I starting to fear that I might get desesperate enough to start a conversation with someone who clearly told me that she didn't want to be friends anymore due to how weird are friendship got.
I found myself, recently going often on my former friend's facebook page, just to see what she is posting. I starting to fear that I might get desesperate enough to start a conversation with someone who clearly told me that she didn't want to be friends anymore due to how weird are friendship got.
I have a curse, which makes my life miserable, and having friends impossible.
MikeyC
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If you're feeling this lonely, there's perhaps other avenues you could look to. Have you tried dating sites? Or similar sites where you look for friends?
JuiceB
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I've thought about dating sites. What if the beautiful young woman I meet is really an psychopathic old lady with a bunch of cats to feed?
As lonely as I am I think the best thing would be to pick myself up and go to a bar or something.
MikeyC
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You're thinking absolute worst-case scenario. Sometimes you have to take a risk if you feel desperate enough.
Going to a bar is just as dangerous, I reckon.
JuiceB
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Yeah you're right. Guess that's why I don't leave the house much.You're thinking absolute worst-case scenario. Sometimes you have to take a risk if you feel desperate enough.
Going to a bar is just as dangerous, I reckon.
InvisaLady
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I just signed up for okcupid (cause its free) but I am terrified that nobody will contact me once I post my photo. I also am stuck on writing my profile. I have no idea on how to make shy ,fat, disabled by being legally blind so no car and will never be able to drive, poor as dirt on SSI and medicaid and still living with parents cause of reasons previously mentioned, hates dogs and outdoor sports- sound good!
And so far all the men they have matched me with are marathon runners who enjoy hiking and camping and have facial hair, yuck!
And so far all the men they have matched me with are marathon runners who enjoy hiking and camping and have facial hair, yuck!
MikeyC
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If I thought worst-case scenario for absolutely everything, I would never leave the house or do anything, ever. Everything we do has a small element of risk.
Having said all that, I am also too nervous for dating sites, and I wouldn't want to be on there until I have some confidence or my anxieties around sex and dating are eliminated/lessened.
Wow, I didn't know this. I'm sorry. :
:da_illest101
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enlight me please, because if I'm able to have friends anyone can
I don't know what kind, I'm not that smart of curses. I don't even know why I have it. I never used to believe in them, until, a few years, I started piecing it together, how so many things are just a coincidence. Things just happen at the right (wrong) time.
It is pretty predictable, given any scenario, I can predict the outcome.
The curse, has a way of making me miserable, no matter what. If I try to become successful at something, it all ways goes wrong, whether I think it or not, whether I'm positive or not. If I get close to someone, something always happens, like they move away or something.
The curse isn't dangerous and only effects me. I try to maje a new friend, never works out, for some reason or another, they end up hating me, thinking I'm a freak or something. I'm left there thinking, what did I do wrong? Porbably explains why a lot of girls judge me on first look. THe curse sends them a message, they get the feeling, that I'm a creep or weirdo and not someone they want to hang out with. No matter what.
When the curse is up to something, I can usually sense it. I've gone through a lot of ambarresing moments, which I wish not to discuss.
Things just happen for no reason, and always at the right time too. Like I'll be typing something really important, and my Fox will crash. It never crashes any other time. Something that is important to me, it intervenes, nothing I can do about it.
There is so many coincidence, like my speech acting up when I try to explain something, every time. I only get 10% of the information out, and it ends up being vague. I try to explain something, Something happens, someone misunderstands what I say, they often laugh and reticule me. There is always something. I always notice, that when I'm in high spirits. Something ALWAYS happens soon enough. Something embarrassing or upsetting. I hate it when you're in a really good mood, then BAM! Something happens in a split second, your mood is the opposite.
Sometimes, things mysteriously happen without a reasonable explanation. It's hard to prove. Most curses are very good at what they do.
Here's a good one!
I get canker sores on my tongue, usually 1-2 times a year. Anyway. It took me a few years after high school to be ready for a job. As soon as I'm ready for a job. I get canker sores, like nothing. I get one days apart. These canker sores I get are extremely painful and miserable. I can't get a job because of them. I get a few a month, they last a bout a week or two, when it gets better, another comes in a couple of days later. It's been like that ever since December 2010, when I was finally ready for a job. I can't work, because I require so much time off. I could barely work. The pain is paralysing. It brings tears to my eyes.
I go to the doctor and a few specialists. They don't have an answer. Nothing I did differently to make the canker sores go so rapid.
Every time I try to communicate with someone, my speech acts up, where I don't make sense, sometime I make up my own words. I have a Brain Processing Disorder. Something I made up. It's when the brain signals get mixed and your speech and stuff don't work as good. It;s most noticeably when trying to explain something. When I try to make friends. They end up hating me, soon enough. I did nothing to upset them, but they just sense that I'm not someone they should talk to. I wonder where that came from? The curse. You know how you get a feeling out of no where, even though they have done nothing wrong. Yep, the curse. Every time too!
The only thing I've been successful is getting my drivers license, I have a car, and I'm usually good at fixing computers (as long as nothing mysteriously happens to them.
Another example. I bought an external HDD. After I copied all my data too it and the next time I turned it on. Guess what! The disk partition could not be found. Everything had been erased because the table is just gone. I never had that problem before. Lost a crap load of stuff.
It wasn't just the HDD, it ad to do with the external HDD enclosure. How do you explain that? I couldn't. Neither could a few specialists I've talked to, couldn't figure it out. The disk wouldn't even properly format. I had to put my Dad's HDD in the external HDD enclosure, which that one was all I had at the time. I put it in. Same thing happens to my Dad's computer. His business computer. Lost all his emails, documents and stuff. Now he makes sure to have a backup.
I can't have a girlfriend, even a friend because of the curse. I am just meant to be miserable. I've tried everything. No matter what, it ends up in failure.This has been years.
Just like this poor bloke:
Forever With Autism: Would You Date Or Have A Relationship With A Guy Like This?
It is so awful, the stuff I go through.
I hope some of this makes sense.