Post your random thoughts/feelings etc
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And I hate you all.
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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You can't manually move files around in a folder with windows 7? Wtf? WOW.
KnuffleBunny
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Bleh, so tired but can't sleep, hungry, it's cold. . .grr
Huh? is it broken?
Falkor
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I should stop focussing about how I am being percieved, I'm too busy with caring about what people think.... I think I should focus on other things around. For example if I'm sitting in a restaurant focus on the food taste, and totally pay attention on the convo i'm holding on, and keep my mind on the topic. Just don't think about how I might be judged, No... I wanna quit it. It'll be a hard task, but I'll beat this someday.
For example if I'm sitting in a restaurant focus on the food taste, and totally pay attention on the convo i'm holding on, and keep my mind on the topic. Just don't think about how I might be judged, No... I wanna quit it. It'll be a hard task, but I'll beat this someday.
Falkor
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Beatrice, you don't have to change yourself from the outside,try to change your way of thinking on the INSIDE, I mean.. that you should LOVE yourself for the person you are, so you don't have to care about your flaws or such. you can always restyle, but stay natural, if you learn to love yourself from naturally features, you can feel the positiveness of being happy from inside. I know BDD s*cks, but we make this BIG, it's not as MEGA-ENOURMOUS-BIG as it seems.
I know exactly what you are fighting for, and this whole world is f*cked up about beauty, I'm tired of it and even though you would have your jogging suit on and when you just rolled in the dirt (LOL) you should still go to the supermarket without being afraid of people staring at you. I know they would, but who cares..... That's what you should think as well, on the way you worry about your hands and other things which might bother you, if you learn to not care about whatever you look like, you are in the right direction. good luck
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Sinar_Matahari
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I smell like puppies! I never want to shower again!
I rocked out to 'Endless Love' in my car today. It was awesome.
Sinar_Matahari
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They were the cutest things ever! One month old schnauzer puppies. One was all black and the other way gray. Of course, I no longer smell like baby schnauzers, but like Malboros.
dean01
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i had a weird day today. i was sitting in my bedroom as usual and heard loads of voices outside, i got up and looked out of my window to see about 30 teenagers climbing up my neighbours fence. i just watched them and kept quiet (lucky im invisible). one of the youth then attempted to kick my neighbours frontdoor in, he only kicked it once and then the group all ran off laughing. they got about 50 meters away and a group of 6 of them started to walk back towards me again, they all pulled there hoods up on the tops as if they were out to cause trouble. as they got closer one of them saw me at the window (damn i thought i was invisible haha) and started shouting abuse at me. i froze up, my heart started racing and my chest went tight, it was like i went into a little world of my own, it might have been for seconds or minutes i dont know. when i snapped out of it i ws still spaced out on the group of youth shouting abuse and i think ide made things worse. the ring leader of the group got closer puffing his chest out and gesturing for a fight. these boys must have been 15 at most. normally i would have lost the plot by now due to my bipolar and been after them all in a heartbeat, i must admit the thought did go through my head that there very young but i just dismissed it saying to myself that theres 6 of them which makes it fair, doesnt it ? anyway i dont know if it was shock or self control but i just stood there and said nothing and they all walked off, still shouting abuse pheww !! i relised today that my anxiety was completely overwelmed by my adrenaline and rage and could have got me hurt. 6 of them what was i thinking, o yeah that it was fair ha ha ha
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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Don't even know why I try sometimes. Cant help but just feel and say screw it. Puppies couldn't even make me feel otherwise atm.
Phoenixx
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I have piles of laundry sitting in my room that need to put themselves away.
^ You sound like you need a hug. *Hug*
Ecstatic highs are often followed by great lows when effort isn't duly, and fairly, rewarded. You're one of the most positive people on here, and that positivity surely resonates throughout the site. For whatever it's worth, that effect is felt in quantities. And that's because you try, experience, learn and then share.
Give yourself some time to feel bad and vent the disappointment. It's only natural to feel pessimistic at times.
philly2bits
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Wasting another night on the computer. There must be more to life but what? I can't even imagine what to do.
Deus_Ex_Lemur
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Playing Metal Gear Solid
Thanks puma you're always so positive and encouraging yourself and THANKSSS for the Hug Pheonixx =D
You're right; I'm perhaps trying to expect too much not from others as much, but myself - reap what you sow, do what you say walk the talk kinda thing, and yeah... not really doing that like I was right now esp when I want to so badly right now. Like everythings bottle-necked.
Ive perhaps focused too much on others and trying to be there for them and neglected myself (not just meaning here, but in RL) I guess the stress of graduating; final projects; my recent birthday and realizing schools over for good, what I put off for a few years and Im not where I want to be now, I KNEW that before this semester and prepared myself but once moment really hits you ... overwhelming and hopeless feel creeps in. Plus other stuff... such as FAMILY ISSUES - seems to be a recurring them these days.
Anyways ranting now. But I usually dont so THERE. Feels a tad wee bit very small better =) (but not really).
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Oooh. Firefox 4 is a little weird. That's going to take some getting used to.
Playing Metal Gear Solid
Thanks puma you're always so positive and encouraging yourself and THANKSSS for the Hug Pheonixx =D
You're right; I'm perhaps trying to expect too much not from others as much, but myself - reap what you sow, do what you say walk the talk kinda thing, and yeah... not really doing that like I was right now esp when I want to so badly right now. Like everythings bottle-necked.
Ive perhaps focused too much on others and trying to be there for them and neglected myself (not just meaning here, but in RL) I guess the stress of graduating; final projects; my recent birthday and realizing schools over for good, what I put off for a few years and Im not where I want to be now, I KNEW that before this semester and prepared myself but once moment really hits you ... overwhelming and hopeless feel creeps in. Plus other stuff... such as FAMILY ISSUES - seems to be a recurring them these days.
Anyways ranting now. But I usually dont so THERE. Feels a tad wee bit very small better =) (but not really).
I totally understand that. It's not really something you can prepair yourself for, because it's an unknown area. It's nice to have people of experience walk you through that transition, but with social troubles it's difficult to find some to properly mentor you without it becoming too pushy.
When I got out of school, I was at home for nearly two and a half years before I got into some kind of action. But, with that said, I was nowhere near mentally where you are now. It takes some adjusting, and learning when you're not ready yet (like I was at the time). Use that clever noodle-soup of yours to (eventually (slowly (if necessary))) make a new plan.
Any progress is progress, if you're overwhelmed by everything, just kick that bugger a whole bunch of nudges down, as long as you don't stop entirely and get stuck in a rut.
I personally (still) use AdBlock Plus. Works just fine on F4. :3