Post your random thoughts/feelings etc
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MollyBeGood
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I couldn’t live with myself any longer. And in this a question arose without an answer: who is the ‘I’ that cannot live with the self? What is the self? I felt drawn into a void. I didn’t know at the time that what really happened was the mind-made self, with its heaviness, its problems, that lives between the unsatisfying past and the fearful future, collapsed. It dissolved. The next morning I woke up and everything was so peaceful. The peace was there because there was no self. Just a sense of presence or “beingness,” just observing and watching. (Eckhart Tolle on his suicidal depression that led to his inner transformation)
MollyBeGood
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Lucky. It's starting to cool down over here, but it's still in the high 80s/low 90s. I cannot wait for fall.
Have you thought of deactivating it? You can put it on hold and see how that goes. If you miss it, all you have to do is login and it's back. I have felt much better since I deactivated mine.
My allergies are bothering me. I've blown my nose so many times that it is starting to bleed.
Phoenixx
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It's only 71 here now, but when I woke up this morning, I think it was in the mid-50s. All I know is that I was really cold and had to put on a hoodie. Which I'm still in. :
:Well, I've had this Facebook again for only a month and a half now, after deleting my old account last year due to the whole depressing feeling. I've thought about deactivating it again, but instead I just decided to delete the bookmark. Not seeing that icon somewhat makes me think about it less lol.
My allergies haven't started bothering me yet, but they probably will soon. I get the nose bleeds every fall.My allergies are bothering me. I've blown my nose so many times that it is starting to bleed.
Along with my eyes itching so bad that my eyelashes fall out.Hope you feel better soon!
vexatiousmind
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yeah, I have no problem with a friend picking up the tab when we go out, as long as they let me return the favor. It can be a good way to initiate another get together.
I don't however think declining someones money is declining their kindness, as long as you show appreciation for the offer.
But if someone wants to give away their money for no reason, then their are always charities. Thus, the saying I am not your charity case.
Sure, but that would be the showboating I mentioned earlier. People giving you money out of the blue is kinda strange when not asked for. In that instance the money itself would be the focal point, rather then the gift that is bought with the money.
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Beatrice
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Well I am..... thoroughly disappointed. Oh well.
Phoenixx
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^ Hope you two get along well.
I leave in 2 weeks. I'm still pretty nervous about it, but I'm actually kinda excited... I just hope that when I get there I can manage to actually talk to a few people instead of being standoffish.
You are quite sure that this will be productive time spent, and not an invitation to allow your anxiety and fears to trample all over your head?
^ Hope you two get along well.
I wish you both the best of luck. Everyone is nervous during that first week or so, so don't worry. I personally had a horrible time in college, and I still lived at home. I didn't know the full extent of my illness back then, though. I often wonder if I would do better now. I think I'll just live vicariously through the two of you.
Phoenixx
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Thanks, I hope the same for you.
^ Thanks to you both.I wish you both the best of luck. Everyone is nervous during that first week or so, so don't worry. I personally had a horrible time in college, and I still lived at home. I didn't know the full extent of my illness back then, though. I often wonder if I would do better now. I think I'll just live vicariously through the two of you.
How'd you have such a horrible time? Was it just the SA or other reasons as well?^ Thanks to you both.
I think I thought that because I was living at home, I wouldn't have to talk to people. So I didn't and I was miserable. Plus, I wasn't sure on my major and it all coincided with one of my major breakdowns. I signed up for four classes my first semester: modern art (which I mostly attended but skipped the final), Italian (which I skipped a lot and stopped going to with about 3 weeks left in the semester), a class on being an art historian (One of the requirements for the class was to run the schools art gallery and do different kinds of presentations and that freaked me the **** out. I stopped going after one class but never officially dropped the class. At the end of the semester, when I tried to get a medical exemption from my classes, I went to see the professor of this class and she got all in my face about how irresponsible I was and all this ish. I went home and cried and vowed that I was never going back to this school, and I haven't.), and some other class that I dropped immediately. I was never given a medical exemption because I "waited too long" to say something to the school. So yeah, university isn't my favorite. I actually greatly enjoyed both of my stints at community college. The atmosphere is so much more refreshing IMO. I think it's because there aren't that many students, no one lives on campus, and there is a small town kind of feeling to the school.
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Phoenixx
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^ Oh I see. Sorry you had to go through college like that. Would you ever go back? I think you should, that is, if you know what you want to do now.
^ Oh I see. Sorry you had to go through college like that. Would you ever go back? I think you should, that is, if you know what you want to do now.
If I didn't know what I wanted to do, I would entertain the idea. But I don't. So I won't.
simpsons2007
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It's nice and quiet at home today.
The ex has gone out for a few hours and taken our daughter with her.
Finally got a bit of peace and quiet it's just a shame it's only for a few hours.
The ex has gone out for a few hours and taken our daughter with her.
Finally got a bit of peace and quiet it's just a shame it's only for a few hours.
simpsons2007
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I will face it anyway , I will feel better after it, because I faced something I mostly never did, so I'll just go for it. I'll pray for god, I know he can help me through this
That's good. Don't let your fear defeat you from going through with it. And I hope it all turns out very well for you.
Even though it might not feel like it at the time you will feel better after for doing it.