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Thanks coyote, you made me replay all those Sinatra songs I had covered in the dust of time.

What a voice, what a voice...

I couldn’t live with myself any longer. And in this a question arose without an answer: who is the ‘I’ that cannot live with the self? What is the self? I felt drawn into a void. I didn’t know at the time that what really happened was the mind-made self, with its heaviness, its problems, that lives between the unsatisfying past and the fearful future, collapsed. It dissolved. The next morning I woke up and everything was so peaceful. The peace was there because there was no self. Just a sense of presence or “beingness,” just observing and watching. (Eckhart Tolle on his suicidal depression that led to his inner transformation)

狼 said: ↑

I couldn’t live with myself any longer. And in this a question arose without an answer: who is the ‘I’ that cannot live with the self? What is the self? I felt drawn into a void. I didn’t know at the time that what really happened was the mind-made self, with its heaviness, its problems, that lives between the unsatisfying past and the fearful future, collapsed. It dissolved. The next morning I woke up and everything was so peaceful. The peace was there because there was no self. Just a sense of presence or “beingness,” just observing and watching. (Eckhart Tolle on his suicidal depression that led to his inner transformation)

That sounds familiar...

Thanks for sharing.

MrJones said: ↑

That sounds familiar...

Thanks for sharing.

Yeah, I kinda love his writings/thoughts very much. Always calms me.

Phoenixx said: ↑

It's not even the middle of August and it feels like fall already.

Lucky. It's starting to cool down over here, but it's still in the high 80s/low 90s. I cannot wait for fall.

Phoenixx said: ↑

Looking at facebook is bringing back depressing feelings again. I think I'll stay off from there for a few days.

Have you thought of deactivating it? You can put it on hold and see how that goes. If you miss it, all you have to do is login and it's back. I have felt much better since I deactivated mine.

My allergies are bothering me. I've blown my nose so many times that it is starting to bleed. 🙁

superfluouslyme said: ↑

Lucky. It's starting to cool down over here, but it's still in the high 80s/low 90s. I cannot wait for fall.

It's only 71 here now, but when I woke up this morning, I think it was in the mid-50s. All I know is that I was really cold and had to put on a hoodie. Which I'm still in. :😛:

Have you thought of deactivating it? You can put it on hold and see how that goes. If you miss it, all you have to do is login and it's back. I have felt much better since I deactivated mine.

Well, I've had this Facebook again for only a month and a half now, after deleting my old account last year due to the whole depressing feeling. I've thought about deactivating it again, but instead I just decided to delete the bookmark. Not seeing that icon somewhat makes me think about it less lol.

My allergies are bothering me. I've blown my nose so many times that it is starting to bleed. 🙁

My allergies haven't started bothering me yet, but they probably will soon. I get the nose bleeds every fall. 🙁 Along with my eyes itching so bad that my eyelashes fall out.
Hope you feel better soon! 🙂

blackpuma said: ↑

Many nice gestures aren't about the money perse, nor about the amount. It's one thing to decline direct money offers (Example: ''Here's 5 bucks, I don't need it). That I can understand when declined, it's a little suspicious.

But when you're in a restaurant, café, mall, or anywhere else that offers an object/activity/resource for money, and a friend offers to pay that for you out of good will, it's not necessarily a hand out. At that point it's a nice gesture. The friend wants to be responsible for the (however small) amount of joy you'll get out of the object/activity/resource.

Sure there are ''friends'' that do similar to showboat how much money they have, but I'm of course not referring to those people right now.

I'm not saying that those gestures should always be nurtured, but it wouldn't hurt to do it once in a while. Because they're not declining money in the friend's eyes, they're declining kindness.

We live in a quite selfish ''my money''-era, and when people have enough money to get by in this case it wouldn't hurt people to bend their integrity a bit. Money is nothing more then a universal gift certificate. Share, and let it be shared.

yeah, I have no problem with a friend picking up the tab when we go out, as long as they let me return the favor. It can be a good way to initiate another get together.
I don't however think declining someones money is declining their kindness, as long as you show appreciation for the offer.

But if someone wants to give away their money for no reason, then their are always charities. Thus, the saying I am not your charity case.

vexatiousmind said: ↑

yeah, I have no problem with a friend picking up the tab when we go out, as long as they let me return the favor. It can be a good way to initiate another get together.
I don't however think declining someones money is declining their kindness, as long as you show appreciation for the offer.

But if someone wants to give away their money for no reason, then their are always charities. Thus, the saying I am not your charity case.

Sure, but that would be the showboating I mentioned earlier. People giving you money out of the blue is kinda strange when not asked for. In that instance the money itself would be the focal point, rather then the gift that is bought with the money.

Well I am..... thoroughly disappointed. Oh well.

vj288 said: ↑

Found out the name of my roommate for the upcoming year and the date I return to college, it's starting to hit me that I have to interact with people again, very soon. Should probably start working on what I'm going to say now, I only have 17 days left.

^ Hope you two get along well. 🙂 I leave in 2 weeks. I'm still pretty nervous about it, but I'm actually kinda excited... I just hope that when I get there I can manage to actually talk to a few people instead of being standoffish.

vj288 said: ↑

Should probably start working on what I'm going to say now, I only have 17 days left.

You are quite sure that this will be productive time spent, and not an invitation to allow your anxiety and fears to trample all over your head?

vj288 said: ↑

Found out the name of my roommate for the upcoming year and the date I return to college, it's starting to hit me that I have to interact with people again, very soon. Should probably start working on what I'm going to say now, I only have 17 days left.

Phoenixx said: ↑

^ Hope you two get along well. 🙂 I leave in 2 weeks. I'm still pretty nervous about it, but I'm actually kinda excited... I just hope that when I get there I can manage to actually talk to a few people instead of being standoffish.

I wish you both the best of luck. Everyone is nervous during that first week or so, so don't worry. I personally had a horrible time in college, and I still lived at home. I didn't know the full extent of my illness back then, though. I often wonder if I would do better now. I think I'll just live vicariously through the two of you. 😉

vj288 said: ↑

Thanks, I hope the same for you. 🙂 And don't worry, everyone is nervous before they go college for the first time, so you'll be in great company!

superfluouslyme said: ↑

I wish you both the best of luck. Everyone is nervous during that first week or so, so don't worry. I personally had a horrible time in college, and I still lived at home. I didn't know the full extent of my illness back then, though. I often wonder if I would do better now. I think I'll just live vicariously through the two of you. 😉

^ Thanks to you both. 🙂 How'd you have such a horrible time? Was it just the SA or other reasons as well?

Phoenixx said: ↑

^ Thanks to you both. 🙂 How'd you have such a horrible time? Was it just the SA or other reasons as well?

I think I thought that because I was living at home, I wouldn't have to talk to people. So I didn't and I was miserable. Plus, I wasn't sure on my major and it all coincided with one of my major breakdowns. I signed up for four classes my first semester: modern art (which I mostly attended but skipped the final), Italian (which I skipped a lot and stopped going to with about 3 weeks left in the semester), a class on being an art historian (One of the requirements for the class was to run the schools art gallery and do different kinds of presentations and that freaked me the **** out. I stopped going after one class but never officially dropped the class. At the end of the semester, when I tried to get a medical exemption from my classes, I went to see the professor of this class and she got all in my face about how irresponsible I was and all this ish. I went home and cried and vowed that I was never going back to this school, and I haven't.), and some other class that I dropped immediately. I was never given a medical exemption because I "waited too long" to say something to the school. So yeah, university isn't my favorite. I actually greatly enjoyed both of my stints at community college. The atmosphere is so much more refreshing IMO. I think it's because there aren't that many students, no one lives on campus, and there is a small town kind of feeling to the school.

superfluouslyme said: ↑

I think I thought that because I was living at home, I wouldn't have to talk to people. So I didn't and I was miserable. Plus, I wasn't sure on my major and it all coincided with one of my major breakdowns.

^ Oh I see. Sorry you had to go through college like that. Would you ever go back? I think you should, that is, if you know what you want to do now. 🙂

Phoenixx said: ↑

^ Oh I see. Sorry you had to go through college like that. Would you ever go back? I think you should, that is, if you know what you want to do now. 🙂

If I didn't know what I wanted to do, I would entertain the idea. But I don't. So I won't. 🙂

It's nice and quiet at home today.

The ex has gone out for a few hours and taken our daughter with her.

Finally got a bit of peace and quiet it's just a shame it's only for a few hours.

I will face it anyway , I will feel better after it, because I faced something I mostly never did, so I'll just go for it. I'll pray for god, I know he can help me through this 🙂 I believe in faith

Saskia said: ↑

I will face it anyway , I will feel better after it, because I faced something I mostly never did, so I'll just go for it. I'll pray for god, I know he can help me through this 🙂 I believe in faith

That's good. Don't let your fear defeat you from going through with it. And I hope it all turns out very well for you.

Even though it might not feel like it at the time you will feel better after for doing it.

Why does the Zune software have to be such a pain in the rear? Honestly, it's almost as bad as iTunes, almost.