Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Nae danger... Ah don't intend to get married.
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Nae danger... Ah don't intend to get married.
GraybeardGhost
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Life could have been so good if I had been someone else, but I'm me, and it's too late to change or fix anything now. There's no point in trying anymore. I am completely beaten.
BlueDays
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Sad to read you are feeling defeated atm, Graybeard. *Hugs*
Luckily we don't live in an age of Eugenics, otherwise people like us would be "disposed" of. :sad:
Right now I can hear 5 different types of birds gleefully making their carefree birdsongs in and around the many trees in my yard and street I live in.
Sometimes I think we need to stop and enjoy the beauty of nature around us that we usually take for granted in our everyday lives.
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Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Everythin' ah suggest seems to fall on deaf ears, so from now on ah'll just keep ma gob shut.
This may somewhat come from left field, but I've been to the plastic surgeon today and in three weeks time I'll undergo surgery to have my nipples removed.
Due to hyper sensitivity I've had to wear bandaides over them for the past ten years, resulting into giving up a great majority of activities. I couldn't go swimming because I needed to hide the bandaides, couldn't carry heavy things due to not being able to have it touch my chest, or do any exerting things or even a quick shower due to the moisture involved. Not to even mention what it did to my overal anxieties.
I couldn't even tell anyone about it untill just a few days ago, because I was too ashamed to. I feel kinda embarrassed it took this long to be honest.
It may sound like a silly little problem on the surface, but it has dominated my life to an extreme extent for a decade now. I'm very happy it'1s coming to an end.
Due to hyper sensitivity I've had to wear bandaides over them for the past ten years, resulting into giving up a great majority of activities. I couldn't go swimming because I needed to hide the bandaides, couldn't carry heavy things due to not being able to have it touch my chest, or do any exerting things or even a quick shower due to the moisture involved. Not to even mention what it did to my overal anxieties.
I couldn't even tell anyone about it untill just a few days ago, because I was too ashamed to. I feel kinda embarrassed it took this long to be honest.
It may sound like a silly little problem on the surface, but it has dominated my life to an extreme extent for a decade now. I'm very happy it'1s coming to an end.
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GraybeardGhost
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Man, shopping wears me out. It wouldn't be so bad if I could break it up into a few separate trips, but when I have to do it all at once, it makes for a seriously rough time. Four grocery stores and a Walmart tonight. Four trips to bring it all in from the car. My feet are very unhappy with me.
@Puma: I hope your procedure goes well, and congratulations on taking such a bold step to address your issues. I wish I had your nerve. :militarysalute:
@Puma: I hope your procedure goes well, and congratulations on taking such a bold step to address your issues. I wish I had your nerve. :militarysalute:
BlueDays
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I hope your surgery helps to improve your life, Puma.
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BlueDays
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Are you trying to give it up, Kiwong?. Good luck with it if you are. :thumbup:
I find distraction helps with stopping a habit. Distraction, distraction, distraction.
Feeling used.
The few people I have in my life...I've given up so much time and made so many personal sacrifices to help them...which of course they forget immediately after they get what they need.
I'm just trying to survive and along they come and ask me for my time to help them, they have no idea how I struggle to just survive. I need that time to work to pay my bills.
I know I need to say no more help. I try but then they tell me they have this deadline or that crisis and they get all stressed and upset. I cant imagine being in their shoes I feel bad for them and I don't like to see them worry so I help. I put in a few hours or work at it for a day or a few days or even weeks sometimes to get it sorted. And the issue is resolved until the next time.
And they'll say thats what familys for...
...except of course if I ever asked any of them for help (which I wouldn't do) I would be told they are very sorry but are too busy to help
I know its stupid but they all forgot my birthday this year, I got a card yd 6 months late because I went to them because they asked me for a favour.
Im disgusted by my own self pity I need to just stop whining and say no to them and put myself first like they do.
The few people I have in my life...I've given up so much time and made so many personal sacrifices to help them...which of course they forget immediately after they get what they need.
I'm just trying to survive and along they come and ask me for my time to help them, they have no idea how I struggle to just survive. I need that time to work to pay my bills.
I know I need to say no more help. I try but then they tell me they have this deadline or that crisis and they get all stressed and upset. I cant imagine being in their shoes I feel bad for them and I don't like to see them worry so I help. I put in a few hours or work at it for a day or a few days or even weeks sometimes to get it sorted. And the issue is resolved until the next time.
And they'll say thats what familys for...
...except of course if I ever asked any of them for help (which I wouldn't do) I would be told they are very sorry but are too busy to help
I know its stupid but they all forgot my birthday this year, I got a card yd 6 months late because I went to them because they asked me for a favour.
Im disgusted by my own self pity I need to just stop whining and say no to them and put myself first like they do.
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nodejesque
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Puma, I am glad for you. Its horrible that you have had to live with something that has held you back so.
I wish you the best in your surgery, and cheers to you and this coming new chapter of better times to come (its only 745am here.. But its Saturday, so Im drinking a beer tonight)
I wish you the best in your surgery, and cheers to you and this coming new chapter of better times to come
(its only 745am here.. But its Saturday, so Im drinking a beer tonight)
nodejesque
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Kilojoule, I know exactly what you are going through. Family has a way of really making life difficult.
I don't know about you, but sometimes for me ... They assume that because I have no children or husband, that I must be rich. So I HAVE to help. How dare I not have time, money, or the solution to all problems.
But yes, god forbid you just can't do it.
But your family takes the cake. No one should have forgotten your birthday. That's a douchey thing to do. Happy belated birthday, joule. I hope this year has proven to be even a lil better than the last.
And as far as family goes, Ill give you some advice. Something that works for me, because I too can't say no to them. Since I can't say no, I just avoid them. If they can't reach me, they can't ask. I'm not someone attached to a cellphone or computer... And I park in the garage. So they never know when I'm home. I have found this works.
SilentAndShy
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Life is rubbish but to top it off, incredibly sad at Muhammed Ali's passing today.
planemo
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Life is rubbish but to top it off, incredibly sad at Muhammed Ali's passing today.
I'm sad about him passing too.
Opaline
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I'm getting on a plane on Monday and I'm afraid I'll be more afraid of takeoff than I used to be (I wasn't) because some of my anxieties have gotten worse as I've gotten older. I'm excited for takeoff at the same time. It's so brief and then the rest of your flight is boooooring especially at night, boo.
Overall very excited though. Haven't flown in years and this is my first time abroad. And I get to see... someone :3
especially at night, boo.Overall very excited though. Haven't flown in years and this is my first time abroad. And I get to see... someone :3
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