22 year old dude here. Just freaked out over spiders and called my parents for emotional support. Ultimately killed both spiders but only after a girly squeal.
Feel like I'm a fraud in my personal and professional life. On the outside delivering an image yet on the inside, it's so different that people don't have an inkling how I feel, think, behave.
Lately I see something applicable to my life in nearly every single movie, anime, game, and book I experience. It's like nothing is truly escapist. Whether I'm reading something serious like Joseph Campbell or watching an anime about a bunch of cute girls I'm provoked to reflection about stuff in real life.
Which I'd usually think is a good thing. After all, it's that kind of applicability that makes story telling so powerful and meaningful. The down side however, is that HNNNNNNNNNGGGGG I TOTALLY NEVER SEE THE FEELS COMING. I WAS JUST CHILLING EATING CALZONES ON A FRIDAY EVENING AND THEN I JUST HAD TO WATCH THIS FLIPPING MOVIE.
Feel like I'm a fraud in my personal and professional life. On the outside delivering an image yet on the inside, it's so different that people don't have an inkling how I feel, think, behave
You're "playing the role" as they say.
I've never felt comfortable at all playing roles, even drama at school i hated. Maybe due to my extreme over-sensitivity, i dunno. But i guess i do play a role, when around people - that of sby who is at ease around people, goal-oriented (all-work-no-play), interested in others, "polite", "stable", avoiding eye-contact. That is who/how i am with others, and i guess has become my "default around-people self", but it not the same as my "true alone self" (incl on the web, & phone to lesser degree), and also i strongly suspect it's not my "true around-people self" (ie true personality .. which i presume implies your personality when around others???)
You're "playing the role" as they say.
I've never felt comfortable at all playing roles, even drama at school i hated. Maybe due to my extreme over-sensitivity, i dunno. But i guess i do play a role, when around people - that of sby who is at ease around people, goal-oriented (all-work-no-play), interested in others, "polite", "stable", avoiding eye-contact. That is who/how i am with others, and i guess has become my "default around-people self", but it not the same as my "true alone self" (incl on the web, & phone to lesser degree), and also i strongly suspect it's not my "true around-people self" (ie true personality .. which i presume implies your personality when around others???)
22 year old dude here. Just freaked out over spiders and called my parents for emotional support. Ultimately killed both spiders but only after a girly squeal.
*****! dont feel like less of a man, well maybe idk, I dont know, nope. no knows here
I really want to hold a beautiful girl and just be close. Yeah I typed it. lol
Something so simple, so primordial & necessary even, yet light years away at the same time.
The thing about beauty though, is that it can't be kept, bottled, or "held". And it's not constant, but forever changing, coming & going. Definately not sth reliable. But it is sth that can be loved & pined for, unfortunately. :sad:
Way I've felt this weekend, I've thought either I'm going to explode in a rage (I don't, keep it all channeled inside) or end it all. I feel everything is getting on top of me. I just want to punch out and disappear. Don't get married everyone - a strain I'm collapsing under..
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