Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

Opaline

Opaline

1
Annotated bibliography annotated bibliography annotated bibliography

WOULD ANYONE LIKE $100?



...no one ever accepts my offer :crying:
 
kihira

kihira

1
I want to go out and not run into people I know, I want the mental space of being in my own thoughts without them being polluted by questions and reminders, but that's not happening, it seems that wherever I go I'm seeing someone and feeling like I need, if possible, to hide
 
W

w*n*c*a*m

Well-known member
Pyrophosphate said:
You're not heartless, you're realistic. I don't know your colleagues, but it sounds to me like they needed support, projected that onto you, and did what they thought was helping you through a hard time, but was actually helping themselves. Through you. Without anyone realizing it, you were the support network in that situation.

You were okay, you know you were okay. Don't let anybody else's actions convince you otherwise.
Click to expand...

And what added to my guilt is that I seem to be ungrateful for not really appreciating their act of kindness. I know they meant well but I also kinda hated it. Maybe it's just my ego coz they're making me appear vulnerable even if I'm not. I'm not saying that crying for what happened is a sign of weakness, it's emotion afterall. I just hated the fact that they assume something that isn't true. They gave me this 'I feel so sorry' look and kept asking me multiple times if I was OK which just made me more conscious and uncomfortable. It made me look like I'm just pretending to be fine and I'm being defensive if I keep saying I am really fine. Especially the sorry look they gave me like they don't believe me and they wanted to dig deeper.

I would really appreciate if I needed comfort. I'm the type who's not ashamed to cry or brawl in front of others when I feel sad . (I think not being afraid to show that you're crying is a sign of strength) but that time, I really am not ... so it's ugh! annoying.

I'm OK but they make me feel like I shouldn't be OK. So I became not OK not because of what happened but because of them and it shows that I became a bit upset so their assumptions just became stronger.... and I hated it I so hated it.

It's a bit of an insult coz it's this one thing that I know I can manage well and yet they assume the opposite.

In some way I kinda feel that by being sorry for me, it would make them feel needed and strong. I'm not saying it in a really bad way like they're doing it on purpose. I just know that people have this nurturing tendency that is generally good but could be smothering and annoying for people who doesn't need or want it (like for instance, me).
 
Last edited:
Opaline

Opaline

1
One more assignment to tough out and then I'm finally free. No more of this all-nighter BS. I feel nauseous.

Bad habits can be so hard to break -___-
 
PugofCrydee

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
kihira said:
I want to go out and not run into people I know, I want the mental space of being in my own thoughts without them being polluted by questions and reminders, but that's not happening, it seems that wherever I go I'm seeing someone and feeling like I need, if possible, to hide
Click to expand...

Love your avatar :thumbup:
 
Ithior

Ithior

Well-known member
I think I might have Achalasia. Should go see a doctor, but then I might have to put a tube down my throat which I can't really handle. Then if I do have it, I'd need to have surgery to fix this. I've had my fair share of surgeries, I always end up vomiting for a day which is not a pleasant feeling. I'm also concerned with it going wrong since I would need another surgery to fix it.

The success rate for esophagomyotomy is thought to be 80-90%. However, patients may develop some complications. These include:
-issues related to tearing of the esophagus
-acid reflux
-respiratory conditions caused by food travelling up the esophagus and into the windpipe
Click to expand...

I always think I'm going to land in the unsuccessful group.
 
Pacific_Loner

Pacific_Loner

Pirate from the North Pole
kihira said:
I want to go out and not run into people I know, I want the mental space of being in my own thoughts without them being polluted by questions and reminders, but that's not happening, it seems that wherever I go I'm seeing someone and feeling like I need, if possible, to hide
Click to expand...

I know what you mean. That's why I love living in a big city. I once moved in a little town thinking it would be great for a loner like me, but not at all, you see the same people all the time so at some point they kinda expect you to talk to them. In a big city, even your neighbours don't really care if you don't say hi.
 
Kiwong

Kiwong

Well-known member
kihira said:
I want to go out and not run into people I know, I want the mental space of being in my own thoughts without them being polluted by questions and reminders, but that's not happening, it seems that wherever I go I'm seeing someone and feeling like I need, if possible, to hide
Click to expand...

I am the same. Someone at work was waiting at traffic lights that take a long time to change to green. I stopped walking so I wasn't waiting at the traffic lights at the same time as them.
 
Opaline

Opaline

1
My assignment is definitely getting a bad grade. Maybe not failing but not good. I feel so unmotivated academically. The time I spend (WASTE) writing essays and reading critical theory I'd much rather spend working out, cleaning and cooking ;)
 
Opaline

Opaline

1
Most of Maroon 5's stuff sounds the same to me and I'm not a fan but "Sugar" is a cute song if not amazing. The music video sucks though.
 
theoutsider

theoutsider

Well-known member
I absolutely love it when plans for social events get canceled!

Them: Hey Outsider, the farewell party for Theresa is off. She won't be in town this weekend. We're all gonna just give money and get her a nice going away gift. Is that okay with you?

Me: Aww, that's too bad. I was looking forward to it. How much do you want me to give? :applause:
 
PugofCrydee

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
AtTheGates said:
I avoid going to places where superficial people seem to congregate...I'd much rather go hiking way out in the woods while listening to the LOTR soundtrack than go to a snazzy bar or nightclub...
Click to expand...

I'm the same, I love listening to certain soundtracks when I'm hiking. LOTR is one of my fav's.

Have you ever hiked/listened to the Morrowind, Oblivion and Skyrim soundtracks?
Absolutely awesome :thumbup:
 
You must log in or register to reply here.
Top