I hate dealing with people. My sister asked to get together Friday night, she wanted me to cut both of her daughter's hair (I used to be a stylist.) She said she would bring some meat to grill or something. Then last night my mom called, said my sister invited my mom and her boyfriend... TO MY HOUSE... for dinner. Ummmm, when I agreed to do a favor I didn't realize I would be suddenly hosting a family party. If my brother found out we didn't invite his family, the family politics gets dicey so am I supposed to ask him too, or is that my sister's job? And if I'm doling out the haircuts for my sister's kids, then do I have to cut EVERYONE'S hair? So- I am supposed to clean, cook, hostess a party, and cut everyone's hair?
Needless to say I cancelled. The honest truth is that while Wonder Woman could probably pull this off, I have Lupus and very low iron. In fact it's 3 pm and I just found the energy to get dressed today, the two haircuts alone would be pushing it.
So the big question is why do I feel bad about it, and it's not fair that I have to deal with the anxiety over not meeting my families elaborate demands?