I wish I could help you out more, mate, but all I am are words on a screen. If you want more words on a screen, you're quite welcome to talk to me privately if that'll help.
Perhaps you need some new interests. If you stick to one interest and you're finding it's a chore to maintain, then that signals a time to change.
However, what may be more likely in your case is that depression and apathy are blocking your enjoyment of hobbies.
If I remember correctly, you living in your house now is giving you grief. Is that still the case? I seriously hope you can move out, and soon, because it can't be doing you any good.
My shoulder blade is killing meeeeeeeeeee.
When you leave a social gathering with a score of conversations echoing inside your skull for the remainder of the night
Damn, my mum keeps sending me FB messages about job opportunities (even though we aren't even facebook friends). I already told her I'm not interested in doing things related to my degree because I don't like any of those jobs, and that I don't want to receive those messages, but she keeps sending it anyway. She used to only send them to my secondary email (which I just check once a week), but now she's sending them in FB which I check quite often. It's pretty annoying to see a "New message" every time I log in, only to find out it's just another of those messages.
You should try blocking her. :thumbup:
It is a lot better because once you remove the road block, the ideas and happiness can flow again. I've had those road blocks myself - almost gave up drumming more than once - but I persisted and I'm still doing it today. I think these things happen to everyone, with any activity.I think you may be right about that. It does feel a lot more like a block than a complete lack of enjoyment. Which I suppose is a better development than straight up loosing it.
If moving out was an option, I'd definitely go for it. But I'm stuck here for now. It's one of those mean situations where everything falls into a self sustaining circle of negativity and counter productivity.
Whatever progress I make, is equally fast taken away.
Hey, awesome! That's a massive step! What country are you moving to? It's going to be extreme at first but I reckon you'll adapt easily. :thumbup:Worried -.-
My life now is purely routine: I'm a teenager and I live with my parents, go to school, study (sometimes.. xD), I chat to my best friends (they are in my class), and I feel quite comfortable around my classmates, as we've "known" each other for almost 5 years.
Everything is familiar.
Next year.. Well, I've applied to university. In another country. Everything will be different, new, unexpected. Sometimes I feel excited and happy and hopeful.. other times, I'm so afraid.. I really hope it won't turn out to be a huge mistake.
I feel like an annoyance at the moment. Maybe I should back down a bit for a few days, online and in real life. :thinking: