Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

hoddesdon said: ↑

But isn't that impossible?

Unlike Australia America actually has four seasons.

Roman Legion said: ↑

My brother was sent to prision for 3 years today. I must admit, I am not really sure what I should be feeling as I don't seem to feel anything anymore. It seems life has desensitized me quite thouroughly early on.

That sounds rough. I hope you are doing okay.

Opaline said: ↑

Oh dear lord, why.

On the very rare occasions I overhear my parents having sex (this happened maybe two other times), I literally get a jolt of panic and sometimes cover my ears until I'm safely in my room away from the horror.

Maybe some would think that's immature of me? It's not that I can't handle the idea of them having sex. I just don't want to hear the sounds. That's just... traumatic, haha. Ugh.

I don't blame you. I never would have thought it when I was a kid, but I am so thankful that my parents are divorced.

hidwell said: ↑

Unlike Australia America actually has four seasons.

It's starting to feel like we have 8 or 10 seasons. The time between winter and spring should be its own season! It's effing crazy. 🙂

hidwell said: ↑

Unlike Australia America actually has four seasons.

Well, Melbourne can have four seasons in one day. I was there last April and it was true. Hot, cold, rain, hail, sun, gale force winds and that was in just one afternoon.

Kiwong said: ↑

Well, Melbourne can have four seasons in one day. I was there last April and it was true. Hot, cold, rain, hail, sun, gale force winds and that was in just one afternoon.

But you are forgetting the 12 year drought they had.

Whomever came up with the internet-chat customer support for certain companies is a genius. It makes the whole process so much more manageable.

Not to mention being able to read back to see what was said exactly is nice. I tend to ramble with phone calls.

I was really thinking about going to a sexual partner, to lose my virginity, but now I don't know what to do. Maybe it would be better if I losed it with someone I love, but in the same time if I payed for it, it wouldn't be as good, but possibly sex would get off my mind.
I'm almost 24 by the way. I do think a lot about women & sexuality is on my mind most of the time...

Daniel089 said: ↑

I was really thinking about going to a sexual partner, to lose my virginity, but now I don't know what to do. Maybe it would be better if I losed it with someone I love, but in the same time if I payed for it, it wouldn't be as good, but possibly sex would get off my mind.
I'm almost 24 by the way. I do think a lot about women & sexuality is on my mind most of the time...

I myself (I'm 20) would still prefer to do it to someone I love. I think that if I tried I could probably pick up some woman and do a one night stand or something like that, but I decided that I don't want to do that.

You have to reach a definite decision yourself, a decision that you're OK with. And whichever option you end up taking, you have to accept it and not regret it.

[unrelated to the post above]

Took a 10 minute nap. Thought I wouldn't even fall asleep since I usually take a long time to fall asleep. I was feeling a bit tired but I thought it wasn't enough to make me fall asleep fast enough.

Well, I set my alarm clock ten minutes from that moment and laid in bed. During the first minute I was still feeling like I wasn't going to fall asleep in the next 10 minutes. Then I woke up with my alarm clock ringing, and I slept so well that I actually thought I had mistakenly set the alarm two hours later than what I wanted.

I'm so fed up of reading peoples' opinions about Margaret Thatcher on Facebook! Arghhh. I don't care what people think about her, I'd just rather not be told what to think.

In other news, my friend has finally split from her abusive boyfriend. Not before he'd physically attacked her and used disgusting language towards her friends on her BIRTHDAY. My only worry is that she'll go back to him, again. But for now, karma is working it's way well 🙂 Apparently he's devastated at losing her.

Finally done with my taxes, I feel like I should celebrate. But that's just being indulgent, taxes are easy if you're single with no assets and all that schtuff. Well, easy if you have all the information you need... I can't believe I'm missing last year's return. How could I lose that??? :/

I'm going to try some self-hypnosis for my agoraphobia... I'm sick of my agoraphobia now, and even more sick of feeling incredibly guilty and useless every time my husband says how much he misses going for walks to the woods (although, to be fair - my SI pain would probably preclude long walks anyway, but if I persist with physiotherapy, perhaps it will improve further...).

The problem with my agoraphobia is that once I get passed a certain point (even imagined) the thoughts kick in with "but now you're too far away, if you do panic it's too difficult to get back! You'll be stuck here, panicking!" And because I go dizzy (well, it's more of a floating, falling feeling than "dizzy", but still...) I fear that I will end up trying to crawl back home as I often do fall to the ground to try to feel more stable at those times...

Test, just a test

Hello. And Bye.

Lately, I find it's easier to distract myself from all the things that bother me by either extreme dissociation or by getting intoxicated.

Ithior said: ↑

Took a 10 minute nap. Thought I wouldn't even fall asleep since I usually take a long time to fall asleep. I was feeling a bit tired but I thought it wasn't enough to make me fall asleep fast enough.

Well, I set my alarm clock ten minutes from that moment and laid in bed. During the first minute I was still feeling like I wasn't going to fall asleep in the next 10 minutes. Then I woke up with my alarm clock ringing, and I slept so well that I actually thought I had mistakenly set the alarm two hours later than what I wanted.

Just tried this again today, I have to say I feel really refreshed after it. I never really liked naps because it made me feel like an old guy but it's a great solution when you had a bad night of sleep and it just takes 10 minutes. I don't even sleep the whole 10 minutes.
Feels much better than a 30 minute nap, when I take those I eventually sleep for 2 hours (I can't get myself out of bed after 30 minutes) and feel much sluggish afterwards.

Feeling sorta blue cause the weather has been terrible, and will be bad for the next few days. Need some warmth and some sun already! Also I've to go to work in an hour and that makes it worse because i hate that job with every atom of my body!!! Strangely optimistic inside though haha

Why does everyone but me know how to cook? Seriously, the three most complex things I've ever made are probably pancakes, two minute noodles and premade dumplings.

Ithior said: ↑

Just tried this again today, I have to say I feel really refreshed after it. I never really liked naps because it made me feel like an old guy but it's a great solution when you had a bad night of sleep and it just takes 10 minutes. I don't even sleep the whole 10 minutes.
Feels much better than a 30 minute nap, when I take those I eventually sleep for 2 hours (I can't get myself out of bed after 30 minutes) and feel much sluggish afterwards.

It's been studied that a 20 minute nap is better than 1 hour because you awake during a lighter sleep cycle. I'm glad it's helping you.

squidgee said: ↑

Why does everyone but me know how to cook? Seriously, the three most complex things I've ever made are probably pancakes, two minute noodles and premade dumplings.

It takes practice, man. I didn't even know how to cook eggs when I was younger, but today I can cook lasagna (as long as I periodically consult the recipe 🙂). Get a recipe for some food that you really like and have a go.

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be warned Susie is mean LOL

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April Snow said: ↑

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be warned Susie is mean LOL

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