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Ah wonder what my older sister thinks of my music? :unsure: Naw, actually, I don’t want to know...

Also, I sorta fear writing a hit song. Why? I suppose it’s the whole fame aspect of it, and the pressure that comes with that. Plus, I’m already going, “Ugh... is that good enough”. So... :( And it does’nae help that I’m writing and producing my own music cuz I am pure $h!%* at multitasking. :LOL:
 

LoyalXenite

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Ah wonder what my older sister thinks of my music? :unsure:Naw, actually, I don’t want to know...

Also, I sorta fear writing a hit song. Why? I suppose it’s the whole fame aspect of it, and the pressure that comes with that. Plus, I’m already going, “Ugh... is that good enough”. So... :(And it does’nae help that I’m writing and producing my own music cuz I am pure $h!%* at multitasking. :LOL:
You could always produce music under a pseudo name and it can be part of your image that your true identity is a secret, then you dont have to worry about the fame aspect
 
You could always produce music under a pseudo name and it can be part of your image that your true identity is a secret, then you dont have to worry about the fame aspect
Hmmm... :unsure: Sounds like a good idea. (y) Guess that’s one song I probably won’t upload to my SoundCloud account once it’s done. Och, well... :LOL:
 
Getting really effin’ sick o’ huvin tae always rely upon myself all the time...

Ah know best, how come? So, what yer basically saying is, you cannae even give me advice even if I spell out and explain the options available, and made it clear it’s not you making the final decision? That’s just great, innit? You tell me what to do most o’ the time. But, as so as a multiple choice question gets asked of ye, suddenly, you know sweet eff all !! So much for claiming I’m the yin who lacks empathy, huh? D’you actually know what it’s like to constantly huv naebuddy ye cun go to for advice? Having to constantly trust your making the right decision even though you haven’t a clue what yer supposed to do?
 
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So, let me get this right...

You can remember the day when we had the conversation, and what it was about. Yet, for whatever reason, ya can’t recall what I said in response to the question you asked me? If yer gonnae lie to my face n’ joke you’ve got dementia, ye might want to be consist in yer lies.
 
Ya did’nae even listen tae me, did ye? Ah said: email me when what you’ve ordered gets delivered, so I know when it’s coming. Y’know, since I’d been nice enough to let you use my address for the delivery. Remember? Ah did’nae tell ye to email me as soon as ya placed the order, ya stupid fuc...

D’you and her do this on purpose? Cuz it’s a laugh tae you, innit: f*ckin’ me about? Blaming me for your mistakes. What gets me is, you’ll answer me when ah tell ye something to make me think ya understood what ah just said. Then, you come to me n’ tell me the exact opposite o’ whit ah just telt ye, then accuse me of lying? :mad:(n)

Reliable and honesty: it’d be great if you were capable o’ both more often; rather than when it suited ya.
 
What’s it gonnae take for you to actually change, huh? D’you just not want me around, cuz ah’ll go. Either by moving out or killing myself. Am no jokin’ when ah say that, either. Cuz I am f…ckin’ sick o’ you being so dismissive of every piece o’ advice ah give ye ! :mad:

Believe or no, I am actually trying to help ye... am daein for my benefit. But, you’ve made it clear to me by yer attitude n’ action in the last 2 year that, ya could’nae give a f…ck. Or haven’t for a long time. So, why should ah waste ma time n’ energy continuing to give a f…ck about you? Huh? Something I’m doing less n’ less as ah git older.

But then you probably think it’s a good ol’ laugh... don’t ye? Wasting money on food that’s never gets ate, refusing to take proper care o’ yerself, hoarding $h!%* you won’t part with... Why? Only you know, but, ya never give an answer to that question. Oh, and ah wouldn’t added up the amount of money ya wasted, either. Just thinking about was enough to make me upset to the point of tears...

D’you think I’ve enjoyed the last 18 years living with you? Huvin ma life dictated, not having much, if any, choice. Being treated, and spoken to, like I’m dumb, then being expected to assume the responsibility of caring for someone other than myself. :mad: This isn’t how ah wanted, or expected, ma life to pan out like, y’know? Ah did’nae want it to be like this. :cry:
 

MollyBeGood

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What’s it gonnae take for you to actually change, huh? D’you just not want me around, cuz ah’ll go. Either by moving out or killing myself. Am no jokin’ when ah say that, either. Cuz I am f…ckin’ sick o’ you being so dismissive of every piece o’ advice ah give ye ! :mad:

Believe or no, I am actually trying to help ye... am daein for my benefit. But, you’ve made it clear to me by yer attitude n’ action in the last 2 year that, ya could’nae give a f…ck. Or haven’t for a long time. So, why should ah waste ma time n’ energy continuing to give a f…ck about you? Huh? Something I’m doing less n’ less as ah git older.

But then you probably think it’s a good ol’ laugh... don’t ye? Wasting money on food that’s never gets ate, refusing to take proper care o’ yerself, hoarding $h!%* you won’t part with... Why? Only you know, but, ya never give an answer to that question. Oh, and ah wouldn’t added up the amount of money ya wasted, either. Just thinking about was enough to make me upset to the point of tears...

D’you think I’ve enjoyed the last 18 years living with you? Huvin ma life dictated, not having much, if any, choice. Being treated, and spoken to, like I’m dumb, then being expected to assume the responsibility of caring for someone other than myself. :mad:This isn’t how ah wanted, or expected, ma life to pan out like, y’know? Ah did’nae want it to be like this. :cry:
Graeme this makes me so sad and angry that they are treating you so badly. I am so sorry you are still in such a bad situation. We all here really care about you and want so much for you to move out and be free of it. You don’t deserve to be treated like that!
If only you could break free.
 

lily

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I wish you weren't so frustrated on a daily basis Graeme as much as i struggle with being bored/lonely on a almost daily basis nowadays but I'm glad that you really have your musical interest. I have faith that this situation will be sorted out.:)
 
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Graeme this makes me so sad and angry that they are treating you so badly. I am so sorry you are still in such a bad situation. We all here really care about you and want so much for you to move out and be free of it. You don’t deserve to be treated like that!
If only you could break free.
I know... none of them seem to acknowledge that, though. Or, if they do, it’s more outta self-pity in an attempt to shame me for pointing out how $h!% things have gotten over the year. But somehow, that’s comedy to them... me pointing out all the dysfunctional pish.

It not even the being treated badly that bothers me, more so the being told I’m right then having my advice fall on deaf ears. “Oh, I’ll change... ah promise”. When? F…ck knows.

Yet, my mother is still wasting money, or giving it away to one of my cousins who rarely visits cuz my mum feels sorry for her (my cousin). But she still, in the same breath, complain that we’re barely getting by... Gee, ah wonder why? :mad:

I was kinda hoping I’d get a place of my own, but that doesn’t seems likely. It’s been over a year, now, since I applied to my local housing department. Got my name pretty high up on waiting list for rehousing, but never heard back. :(

My mother recently put my name on the lease of the family house, which was done so I could apparently have more of a say in things. But that’s just amounted to actually be told things, rather than finding out days later. Even though the house is now, technically, partial mine, my say as far as how things should be still counts for sweet eff all...

I just get the same ol’ reaction: “Stop naggin’... yer getting on at me”.

To be honest, I’ve just gave up, really. Trying to put most of my time and energy into making music. Since I see little point in wasting time reiterating things I’ve been saying for years.
 
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