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I wish you weren't so frustrated on a daily basis Graeme as much as i struggle with being bored/lonely on a almost daily basis nowadays but I'm glad that you really have your musical interest. I have faith that this situation will be sorted out.:)
It’s difficult to not be, lily. Especially when I’ve made more of an effort than my sisters to actually try and sort it.
But my mother doesn’t seem all that interested in changing her way, or looking after herself properly. :cry:

It’s like watching an alcoholic or drug addict in the grip of their addiction, and yer trying to get through to them. But, they just shrug off yer concerns as if they mean nothing, and go back to slowly killing themselves.
 

MollyBeGood

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I know... none of them seem to acknowledge that, though. Or, if they do, it’s more outta self-pity in an attempt to shame me for pointing out how $h!% things have gotten over the year. But somehow, that’s comedy to them... me pointing out all the dysfunctional pish.

It not even the being treated badly that bothers me, more so the being told I’m right then having my advice fall on deaf ears. “Oh, I’ll change... ah promise”. When? F…ck knows.

Yet, my mother is still wasting money, or giving it away to one of my cousins who rarely visits cuz my mum feels sorry for her (my cousin). But she still, in the same breath, complain that we’re barely getting by... Gee, ah wonder why? :mad:

I was kinda hoping I’d get a place of my own, but that doesn’t seems likely. It’s been over a year, now, since I applied to my local housing department. Got my name pretty high up on waiting list for rehousing, but never heard back. :(

My mother recently put my name on the lease of the family house, which was done so I could apparently have more of a say in things. But that’s just amounted to actually be told things, rather than finding out days later. Even though the house is now, technically, partial mine, my say as far as how things should be still counts for sweet eff all...

I just get the same ol’ reaction: “Stop naggin’... yer getting on at me”.

To be honest, I’ve just gave up, really. Trying to put most of my time and energy into making music. Since I see little point in wasting time reiterating things I’ve been saying for years.
Oh now I know 😞 I know dysfunctional relationships are horrible and we must do our best to try to either fix them or leave. I know..
and you have to try to keep yourself from being to damaged by the insanity of it in the meantime. Not fun!!!

I am watching all three LOTR’s too thanks for the great idea!
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lily

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It’s difficult to not be, lily. Especially when I’ve made more of an effort than my sisters to actually try and sort it.
But my mother doesn’t seem all that interested in changing her way, or looking after herself properly. :cry:

It’s like watching an alcoholic or drug addict in the grip of their addiction, and yer trying to get through to them. But, they just shrug off yer concerns as if they mean nothing, and go back to slowly killing themselves.
i know it's so difficult, it's sad :cry: but i have faith that things will be sorted out by God. :)
 

LoyalXenite

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Graeme this makes me so sad and angry that they are treating you so badly. I am so sorry you are still in such a bad situation. We all here really care about you and want so much for you to move out and be free of it. You don’t deserve to be treated like that!
If only you could break free.
Definitely agree with Molly. We all love you Graeme!
 
Oh now I know 😞 I know dysfunctional relationships are horrible and we must do our best to try to either fix them or leave. I know..
and you have to try to keep yourself from being to damaged by the insanity of it in the meantime. Not fun!!!
It's a few years too late for the whole tryin' not to be damaged by the insanity, unfortunately. :((n) Just sayin'... the damage seems to have been done.

I've felt caught in the middle of the dysfunction since I was a wee lad, so it's not surprising I've become as withdrawn and wary of people and their intentions as a result. Not saying that as a sob story, it's just how it is. I mean, I did grow-up around women who were, and still are, quick to aggressive overreact when criticised and have a tendency to lose the plot when things go wrong, and am talkin' the slightest thing...

I am watching all three LOTR’s too thanks for the great idea!
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:D(y) Enjoy ! Hopefully yer not doing as I did and watching them over the course of 2 and a half days. :oops::LOL:

i know it's so difficult, it's sad :cry: but i have faith that things will be sorted out by God. :)
I'd like to be hopefully that things will change for the better next year, but I've been letdown too often when my family make those kinda promises.

Definitely agree with Molly. We all love you Graeme!
;):)
 

SilentAndShy

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Can you, just ya know, focus on work rather than talk about everything that isn't work? I like a laugh from time to time but this isn't a school play ground.

Because I sit in an office away from the main group, and have minor managerial duties, it doesn't mean I'm more superior than anyone else. I'm still part of the group so cut out the odd, annoying, insinuations. I joined in for a while, but now it's having a subliminal effect on others

I work from home on occasions because I have to, to look after my family for appointments, and contrary to the odd jokes that are made (which, admittedly I've joined in on in the past), I do fricking work and my integrity is something you can't question.

Can I close my office door and just disappear from you all!?

All of the above are all related to work, which is only enhancing my mental woes
 
Not in the mood for jokes the now, Pug. Sorry... ah know ye mean well by 'em.

Every time ah asked my family for help, they either tell me they can't or that ah know better than them. :mad:

It's great when yer 30 and you've spent the last 15 years o' yer life having to pretty fend for yerself, despite a physical disability. Even asking for the simplest things to be done is asking too much.
 
How selfish does a father have to be, to be able to not care at all if his children are dead or alive, throughout his whole life?
You are a pathetic, totally useless, selfish, self-absorbed, cowardly, immature and mean example of a human being. I wish you had died in a car crash, or burned to death in a house fire, before my mother met you.
If you were still alive today, I would want to find you and beat you over the head with a baseball bat.
 
How selfish does a father have to be, to be able to not care at all if his children are dead or alive, throughout his whole life?
Well, from my own experience with own father... I'd say selfish enough to only think about himself and not care what path his kids wish to take in life unless it benefited him. But then my Dad, when his oldest daughter (a step-sister to me on his side of the family) was diagnosed with cancer and couldn't work, all he did was bemoan "how come she's not out working her job n' making money". :mad:

You are a pathetic, totally useless, selfish, self-absorbed, cowardly, immature and mean example of a human being. I wish you had died in a car crash, or burned to death in a house fire, before my mother met you.
If you were still alive today, I would want to find you and beat you over the head with a baseball bat.
My dad was much the same. Though, with mine, I wish I'd squared up to him whenever he waved his fist in my face telling me to come visit him and his side of the family "or else...". He'd try to coaxes me into it, despite me having no interest in doing so. Instead laughing it off sarcastically, ah should've stood up, got nose to nose with him n' stuck tha heid in 'em (headbutted) as the Scots saying.
 
Every thought aboot actually take responsibility for yersel’, instead o’ complaining aw fuckin’ the time ? “Oh, ma leg’s sore. Oh, ma hip...” Ya dinnae hear me being like that, self pitying, yet am in pain for the waist down everyday. Y’know am disabled, right? D’you just complain cuz yer looking for sympathy, or is that your way of asking for help ? Or is getting off yer arse asking too much, eh ? If yer not gonnae help yersel’, why should ah bother helping you ? But hey, the responsibility is always on me, innit ? Who cares what I’ve had to sacrifice, just to ensure you’re awrite.
 
So, how um ah wrong again? You're [email protected]_kin' prioritising yer ain daughter n' grand-wains over yer only son. The poor, cripple c_%t who's paying to keep a roof over yer heid! Where um ah wrong, exactly? Every time they come roon, you just assume: "Aw, they must be staying for dinner" Ask them?! F_*k that ! Cuz they more less verbally confirmed they were staying when they said "Hullo!" Never mind if they were barely in tha f_*kin' hoose!

D'ye no see why ah've felt like an after thought fur tha last 2 years, eh? What happened to me getting more of a say, since "...it's your house as well" - in other words mine. Aw, wait that's right: ah cannae say "No" tae even yin o' yous withoot ye turning intae a stroppy, tantrum throwin' c_*t ! Upset cuz ya did'nae git things your way. Ever thought aboot how tha f_*k ah feel when you straight up refuse to help me ? D'ye know what it's like having to pretty fend for yersel' from about age 12, despite huvin a physical disability ?
 
So, let me understand this...

You cannae be arsed switchin' on yer laptop, right-clicking a photo n' selecting print to bring up the photo sizes screen? Then daein a web search for "photo sizes cm to inches"? You f*ckin' lazy c-%[email protected] How tha f__k did you get this far in life ? Seriously ?! Ya should'nae own yin if that's the case then :mad:

"Oh, but ah dinnae ken how !" That's always the excuse fae you and oor mother. Every thought aboot, mibbe, learning, eh? But, naw, that's too difficult ! Am the spoiled yin? Eh... might want tae look in tha f__kin' at yersel' ! Cuz, judging by yer attitude, ya only care aboot yersel'.
 
Right... !! You are seriously gonnae make me pissed off enough to set aboot ye n’ beat tha $h!% oot o’ ye. Dinnae push yer f…kin’ wae me. Ah know full well the harm am capable o’ when pushed tae breakin’ point. In fact, the memory o’ that day ah almost broke that lad’s arm in the school playground in front of pretty much the entire school for bullying me when ah wus 12 hus’nae left me.

Anyway, ah did whit ye asked, whit’s yer f…kin’ problem !? D’ye no remember me saying the other day, the photo sizes from print outs on my laptop are only in centimetres ? An’ you said “Is there no summit oan the internet that could converter them?” Ah said: “Probably, ah cun huv a look” and you responded wae: “Just dae that then, ah need the sizes for tomorrow” Or were you no playing attention cuz ye were to busy staring at yer f…kin’ smartphone? :mad:

Ask me tae do summit for you again n’ ah’ll give ye a two word response that won’t me politely telling ye tae go away.

I am f…kin’ seek, fed-up o’ you n’ yer f…kin’ entitled attitude. Oh and if - according tae you - we do “f…k all” for ye, why d’you constantly ask for oor help. Naw, let me rephrase that: why d’you expect our help ? Ye don’t even say “please” when ye ask, either. Huv ye noticed that !? :mad:
 
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