mismeek
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Physical relationships *mature topic* Update
I had a bf for a few months and our sexual relationship was okay (he wasnt very good at it but.. *shrugs*) He was my first partner. Everything was okay for a month or two, but then I started having severe panic attacks during intimate moments. It got so bad to the point where I just broke up with him so i wouldnt have to do it again. I was sexually abused when I was a child (hence the all the anxiety issues) so I can understand why i began to panic, but what i dont understand is why didn't I panic the first time we did it? Is anyone else having anxiety during times of intimacy?
update:
Sooooo I talked to my ex....
I've never been so humiliated in my life.
I met him for lunch and we talked about my issues. I guess I had really hurt his pride/feelings when I rejected him the last time we had sex. After I explained to him what had happened to me and how I wanted us to work through it, he looked at me like I had admitted to him that I was half alien or something. He pretty much said that I was f****ed in the head and wanted no part of it. He went on to further hurt me by saying that I should stick to family members...and that I was obviously a better lay for them (I was hurt by a relative)
my anxiety around men is back at a ridiculous level again. I guess he wasn't the right person to share my secret with.
so yeah I think I'm done with the whole relationship thing. I'm really embarrassed.
anyone want to be my online bf? :/
I had a bf for a few months and our sexual relationship was okay (he wasnt very good at it but.. *shrugs*) He was my first partner. Everything was okay for a month or two, but then I started having severe panic attacks during intimate moments. It got so bad to the point where I just broke up with him so i wouldnt have to do it again. I was sexually abused when I was a child (hence the all the anxiety issues) so I can understand why i began to panic, but what i dont understand is why didn't I panic the first time we did it? Is anyone else having anxiety during times of intimacy?
update:
Sooooo I talked to my ex....
I've never been so humiliated in my life.
I met him for lunch and we talked about my issues. I guess I had really hurt his pride/feelings when I rejected him the last time we had sex. After I explained to him what had happened to me and how I wanted us to work through it, he looked at me like I had admitted to him that I was half alien or something. He pretty much said that I was f****ed in the head and wanted no part of it. He went on to further hurt me by saying that I should stick to family members...and that I was obviously a better lay for them (I was hurt by a relative)
my anxiety around men is back at a ridiculous level again. I guess he wasn't the right person to share my secret with.
so yeah I think I'm done with the whole relationship thing. I'm really embarrassed.
anyone want to be my online bf? :/
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