I will continue my journal that has seemed to make it's way into this thread. This past week has been insane for me. Probably the wildest week of my life considering I had a woman I dated 3 times totally ignore me the entire week and now I'm done with her, went on a date on Saturday with a new woman that I'll talk about in a second, and then today I decided to attempt to make friends again with my friends from the past. All in one week. I'll continue with my post to BSammy, which explains it best, from the beginning:
Yep, that woman is over. I've already pretty much forgotten about her. She didn't respond to any of my calls or texts this week, so she's finished no matter what.
What's funny is that it may have helped that this happened because I already got a date with a woman and I told this woman the story about the woman who screwed me over and we bonded over it. She said that I should call that woman who ignored me and tell her that she's a bi--- and doesn't deserve me. I'm not going to even do that because what's the point? It's not like she's going to respond, you know. I'd have nothing to gain from that except she'd listen to the message and think I'm a jerk.
This woman I found online, she's actually hot. When I met in her person, when she sat down and faced me I was like is this woman seriously talking to me? It's funny because I may be above average looking, but since I'm so shy, I've never dated an attractive woman b4. I even asked her what the heck she was doing on an online dating site and she said she's on there to meet new people and/or date guys. She's 20, and that's fine with me. I'm willing to date women between 19-40 years old, lol. Age doesn't mean that much to me considering most women have bigger social lives than me.
I know it sounds negative, but something tells me this is too good to be true. If I can't hold on to below average or average looking women for more than 3 dates, then an attractive woman should be even harder to hold on to. It's funny because she already promised me that if she breaks up with me, she'll tell me the truth why. She said she won't be like the woman I was just with.
Also, I'm planning on turning my social life around. I'm deciding to make tomorrow judgment day, and I am planning on going to my old friends house, the ones that I complained about. Like I've complained to you so many times, guys need social status and friendships to talk about if they want to get women and hold onto women. I'm going to try to be one of those guys from now on. 4 years it's been since I've been there.
You know I've got to do this if I want a chance at getting respect from women and to have a chance for a relationship. It's not just that, but I also need friends for me. I need friends so I'm not alone all the time and feeling lonely. If I can improve my social status I can actually fit in with society and don't have to be ashamed to talk about my life.
I'm going to go there on a monday morning, that way there is less of a chance of it being packed in there. I want to deal with as less of people as possible. I've just got to get this first meeting over with. Then that fear wall will be broken down and it should be a little easier. Or at least I hope it will.
