My self-imposed internet hiatus is drawing frighteningly near. I have mixed feelings about the whole thing. I feel so dependent on the internet. I feel like nothing that I do during April will matter unless I come back and tell everyone about it. That seems so wrong to me.
In some ways, I wish I could stop right now, but I haven't quite built myself up to that point yet. Tomorrow I will be finding a place to store my laptop so it will be out of sight and hopefully out of temptation's reach.
I know that I should have been weaning myself off the internet for the past week or two, but instead I have done the opposite: starting several new threads, staying up way too late at night chatting, getting in as much internet browsing as I can, for reasons that are unknown to me. I should be slipping away quietly and unnoticed, but instead I have been talking about it on here and on facebook, making a big deal about it, I guess in a last ditch attempt to get noticed before I slip back into obscurity.
I so want to get away but I feel so tied down to this computer.
Ugh ugh ugh.