As embarrassing as it is to talk about, I really feel like I need to get a handle on my compulsive internet use. I've tried many different methods of quitting or reducing my usage, but I keep falling back into bad habits. It's really starting to become a problem. My house is a mess, and I can't even remember the last time I cooked a complete meal. I struggle to get normal household chores done. I'm going to have to wash the same load of laundry for a third time today because it has been sitting in the washer for a week and I keep leaving it in until it gets musty and needs to be washed again. Lately I've been staying up late to chat online, then I don't get enough sleep and end up getting in late to work and feeling like a zombie. I neglect my bf when he is home, and get irritated if he tries to hang around when I am online. I don't even hear half the things he says to me anymore, then he looks sad if he has to repeat something he already said to me.
The worst part of it is, the more I use the internet, the more empty and unsatisfied I feel. If I can't find someone to talk to or a discussion to partake in, I start browsing through Yahoo article comments, or looking at photos of people I don't even know on Facebook. These are completely useless things that I don't even want to be doing, but for some reason I just feel the need to be doing them. I have a million things I want to accomplish and experience in my offline life, but instead I am staring at a screen for hours a day, neglecting everything else. I haven't even picked up a book to read in several days, and even then it was only because I made myself get off the internet and do something else.
I don't know what to do about it. I don't want to quit the internet altogether because there are a lot of good uses for it. I just wish I could manage to limit myself to something reasonable. Even just one hour a day would be a vast improvement (though that still sounds like a lot to me). I haven't been able to find any of those internet blocker programs that will work for a Mac. I've seriously considered selling my laptop, but I use it for too many other things for that to be worthwhile. For a couple of months I was able to limit myself by not using my internet at home, but it got to be such a chore to have to go out somewhere just to check my bank statement, etc.
If anyone has any good suggestions, let me know.