I dislike the effect pornography has on human beings.
In pornography, fantasies are played out where otherwise in the real world it should be illegal. But as a child who grows up exposed to this kind of stuff at a very early age, might want to emulate these behaviors, and carry it out into the adult world. From then on, sexuality is seen as a wanton, and violently lustful thing.
Even on TV, sexuality is portrayed wantonly. As children, we watch TV, and "adult" content (as if that is what adult content is really even supposed to be like). I believe being exposed to sexuality pre-puberty can mess a person's life up once you do hit puberty.
Who knows what happens in middle school and elementary. Guys touching girls, without consent. And it "just happens" without any control. Because it "feels good" and we have urges that we can't even control.
I remember, because I was exposed to pornography, and sexual abuse (as a result of the abuser being influenced by pornography) at such a young age.. in middle school, I could not control myself, and was severely uncomfortable with sexuality,or it was non existent until it took control of me. Not that I was like one of the kids who would touch others to 'see how it feels', or whatever. I was a bit different, more into my own self, rather than chasing girls. but I wonder if maybe I was supposed to, like all the other kids who were acting out their lustful desires because they saw it in pornography and wanted to 'try it out'. But instead I was introduced to it by a male, though I quickly learned it wasn't supposed to be like that, and stopped it right away. But as a child I questioned sexuality because of what I went through, the wantonness. the abuse wasn't that bad, but the fact that my mother took it so seriously, and took my to psychologists and made me question my mental state, and have doubts about myself... It could have affected me, and made me withdrawn from Love and sexuality. Because of all the wanton lustfulness going on, everywhere I went, I was uncomfortable with sexuality.
Now about the porn thing: Rape, and Sex Crimes are "ok" in pornography. You see guys being wanton with women, touching them without consent, using sexual bribery, "tricking" girls into sex, and the girls are 'dumb enough" to accept, and be ok with it. Anything goes.
So when that behavior comes into reality... I feel like women might expect you to be wild, like what is shown in pornography. I'm not like that, I am a modest person. I can't just start touching a woman without first her consent. but in porn, many of the movies show, that's how it starts. If people expect me to act like they do in porn to have sex... then I don't think I'll ever find love. But porn is so accepted in this society, that it's even used to titillate the minds of couples. Why can't there be real erotica, showing two people who loved each other. Why does it have to be wanton, and crazy.
The sad thing is, people actually believe pornography is closer to the reality of love than anything else. but what if that's not true, and it's only the reality because of pornography, and people who from a sick mind, act out pornographic behaviors, even since the beginning of mankind, before pornography. not everyone was as violently lustful as this.
Not that we can't be like animals, but even animals have their own rituals. Each species has it's own ritual. And you can't compare too much humans with other animals.
