How Has Your Start to 2011 been so Far?

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Last year was possibly my worst yet, too many details to list....this year feels like i'm at major crossroads in my life and they could go either way, bad or good, and while the uncertainty is a big stress on me, atleast change is happening and that is refreshing.

ok, so heres what i'm trying to achive in 2011:
i'm trying to etch out a new career which i've just begun, get off these meds which ruined my relationship last year, see a proper psych dr and get onto some more suited meds for me. become financially independent again and move into a house of my own (this time for good). upgrade my car to a better one. cut down on abusing alcohol, get ontop of a few debts... i'm very commited to achieveing these by the end of 2011.

what are some of your goals for 2011? resolutions? and how has it started so far? every year i like to make changes in my life hopefully for the better although that doesn't always happen..
sorry for the blog type nature of this post, but feel free to reply in blog format aswell.
 
superfluouslyme

superfluouslyme

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So far, 2011 has sucked monkey balls. On New Year's Eve, we had a tornado. It left our house alone, but uprooted both of our giant trees. Then my 84 year old grandma fell chasing after my mother's dog and broke her shoulder. The county said my gma couldn't keep the dog anymore, so there was a time when we were thinking of having him put down. (He is part chow chow and no adoption agency would entertain the idea of taking him in. Luckily, we found him a home.) Then my 8 month old kitten broke her hip and died during surgery. And we just now got hit with a blizzard and 16 inches of snow. On top of this, I still don't have a job. So things could be going better. ::(:

But I am trying to be more optimistic. I want to get on the right meds, find a stable job that I would greatly enjoy, and try to enjoy life. I am relatively happy and healthy and I am surrounded by a great support system. My life isn't nearly as bad as I think it is. In many ways, I would say that I am blessed. I just need to remember that more often.

But yeah, 2011 sucks. :)
 
NickyNacker

NickyNacker

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Really good at first but them my panic came back after being gone for all of 2010. So bad right now.
 
worrywort

worrywort

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ugh, annoyingly, kinda bad...I'm not quite sure why. I just can't seem to fire myself up. I've been feeling kinda deflated and half-hearted so far this year....I'm not sure....I guess it's going ok. I'm still on track with all my goals so that's good. But I really wanted to up my game this year and do better, but I wonder whether I set my standards too high sometimes and it ends up defeating me....I've also got problems with my dad and the possibility of having to move house, which, on some days, I really feel like I'm learning to deal with it well, but then on other days I just feel tired and the whole thing feels too much for me.
But sod it, you know what, today is a brand new day, so I'm gonna put the past behind me and start afresh right now! :) yeah!
 
Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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Well, January sucked for me. My computer crashed, so I lost nearly all my stuff (Good thing I had backup files!) and my mom managed to go back to her old ways again of treating me like crap and blaming me for whenever something goes wrong. Also, for four months one of my teachers bullied me. It finally got resolved last month. Not really complaining there, but I just found it funny when we had a huge meeting on this that she tried to blame me for some of the stuff she said. :rolleyes: Yeah, for most of January I felt like a real pile of crap. BUT this is a new month, so I decided to start new. And so far, it's feeling pretty good. :)
 
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replica

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Every year starts off bad because I don't do well during the holiday period but apart from that I've been going alright. Still highly motivated with exercise which has been great and competed in my first triathlon late January. Hoping to stay focused on my goals and taking small risks here and there and not let depression get the best of me.

Another big change this year is I will be moving out to live on my own in my new house. Lots of work and challenges there I am sure but I it will be worth it.
 
Falkor

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how my start of 2011 has been going on so far:
-i'm doing much better this year. It's like a brand new start. I never thought I would get to this point of life so fast, But I did it, and I just kinda stepped out of the old social anxiety road going to walk on a different path of life.
I have been dealing with SA for 3 years, and now it's time to go on with my life and let it all go and just move on and face everything I'm afraid of.
Because I did realise that everything which make me anxious are the things I love for example I like to be on stage and perform my songs.
& I love socializing, I like be in company of friends and have a good time around people but I just feel very uncomfortable now and then.

But this year I'm going to start being in college again and I will be studying and that makes me feel like i'm having a social life again. I will start make music again and just keep singing and playing songs and just record them and do the things i love and which i enjoy and just think much more positive and be more strong in my emotional way because I'm going to follow therapy which is very intensive and i hope i can get a lot out of it and it's to cope with these things and we're going to '''kick'' the fears away ;)

I also started to fall in love with a girl i used to be friends with in the beginning. We started chatting on the web and we dated in real life for about a year ago. She had to go to Canada for her intership and we haven't seen eachother in a while. When she came back, and we saw eachother again I started to develop feelings for her and now we have a lovely serious relationship. She respects me and I respect her and we can talk about anything and she's really helping me through all this and nobody ever showed me that before in relationship so I'm really happy!
This is sure one of the most positive things this year!

I'm really looking forward to all the things which are going to happen and i cant wait to get started with everything. especially studying and making music and just have not pretty much the pointless life i lived and dont get the things out of life which i want to get out of it. i want to show especially my invirement that i can handle it and i will show them i can!!!

Also I'm feeling that I can take more control of my social skills, I don't think it's a bad thing to start a conversation or to talk about myself and ask a lot of questions, actually people love that. In the past I was afraid of showing myself and be in the center of attention but now I just put myself into it and just know it'll be fine. And I feel that my recovery is closer than before. I never thought everything could work out so fast.
It's like a suprise .

Although some things might be hard, but I can think much more rational and just try to keep my mind focussed on the things which are going to happen and the little things to enjoy in life. and just not make my world tumble down, i won't let that happen because it's not the way I should make it go, but i'm going to work on that, day by day, everything will only get better, from now on. I believe that.

this year is the start of new things..... :):):rolleyes:
 
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jhanniffy

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I started of with a depressive episode - I seem to have leveled of at the moment. I have opened up more than ever and even talked to people about my anxieties. I go from thinking I am worthless and that I am not up for it to thinking maybe I can still keep going for another while.

This year started off really bad, I'm feel good now and the fact that I know know my depression comes in cycles I am a little more prepared for that side of things...
 
vj288

vj288

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Not as good as the beginning of the previous 3 years. In January of '08 I found Fiona right after New years, which was the start of me coping with things, in '09 I was coming off my first semester of high school and starting to put an honest effort in turning my life around in in '10 I had a surprise thrown at me that was paying off and made my optimistic about the end of High school and start of college. The beginning of this has been uncalled for dramatic mood swings and aimless counterproductive reclusion. There's a long way to go till 2012 though, I can make something happen, I hope.
 
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Kiwong

Kiwong

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I've shared all this year with back pain. It is starting to improve now. When I am in physical pain, my anxiety always seems to be worse. I haven't been feeling positive at work, and without my running outlet, my thoughts have been negative and paranoid. I've stopped drinking too much caffeine (pepsi max) and have started to feel less stressed out.
 
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Kinetik

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Pretty good actually. It's been disciplined, with lots of hard work and studying. I've saved a good bit of money already. So I'm feeling productive/happy with myself. I've had no dramas so far this year.
 
joyce

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2011 is better then 2010 alot better :)
-I met a nice boy
-I starting to attend school again
-I cry alot less
-I'm less depressed
-More happy
 
BlueDays

BlueDays

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so far...
useless, and disappointing (in myself).

It's not going to change for me, I need to start to learn to deal with that.
Maybe 2011 will be the year I finally learn to accept it and stop exhausting my mind and body fighting it.:)
 
harlseq

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Not too bad...

I've enrolled in college again to finish my last course required for my degree and that's going well. I switched jobs... moved to something less time-consuming and rigid than what I was doing so it'll be easier to focus on school and a social life. I've made inroads on getting back on my old meds (made the appt and all, but still haven't seen the doc yet). I don't have as much money but my family is helping me out a lot. Unfortunately, there haven't been any romantic interests yet that I feel I can effectively pursue, but hopefully that'll change once I get more entrenched at my new job and class. I'm also working out a lot and showing good results... I've lost close to 40 pounds in the past year and look a lot better than I did. The future is looking brighter than it has in a long time.
 
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