theslowesthand
Banned
Been bored for most of day. Sick of being bored, but there's really not much that i feel like doing most days. Sick of the computer too. Sick of tetris. Listening to some healing brain audio - is helping a bit, with my bored mood. Little bit depressed too. Might have an early night. Will go to bed & just lay there in the dark (usu classical music on radio). That'll kill off a few hours, and then i'll take my "sleeping" pill, and go to sleep, where i'm never bored & not pestered by thoughts about death. Wish i could get back to a "place" where i don't wish i was dead all the time; it's almost become a habit now to think such thoughts; i've sown the seed, and can't seem to stop it sprouting...
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