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theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
Been bored for most of day. Sick of being bored, but there's really not much that i feel like doing most days. Sick of the computer too. Sick of tetris. Listening to some healing brain audio - is helping a bit, with my bored mood. Little bit depressed too. Might have an early night. Will go to bed & just lay there in the dark (usu classical music on radio). That'll kill off a few hours, and then i'll take my "sleeping" pill, and go to sleep, where i'm never bored & not pestered by thoughts about death. Wish i could get back to a "place" where i don't wish i was dead all the time; it's almost become a habit now to think such thoughts; i've sown the seed, and can't seem to stop it sprouting...
 
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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Graeme1988 said:
Like my life isn't my own. And, I'll just leave it at that. I'm
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Same as when I post that remark about life no being ma ain. :sad:

Feckin' fed-up feeling as though I'm obligated to do everything my family asks of me. :mad: Yet I'm the yin takin' advantage o' them, supposedly. Loada pish! Ah mean, I'm always agreeing with 'em. Giving them attention when they insist I put my life on hold. Cuz that's what it feels like. I do whatever's they ask, even when I tell them they dinnae appreciate what ah do for them. And they don't! Going so far as to, stupidly, admit that. :eek:mg:

But it's me who's "privileged" and acts "entitled". :kickingmyself: It's me who needs to change how I treat them. Or so I'm reapeatedly telt. Yet, I'm just treat them no differently than they do me. But, somehow, it's always me who's in the wrong - never them. Oh aye, that's right, they're permanently doolally feminists.

Rant over
 
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grapevine

grapevine

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frustrating when your partner is so flat and depressed with no drive. Lost his father recently and there's nothing that I can do to make it better. It seems to rub off on me- so Im having some time to myself and feeling guilty about it. But needed this time in avery looong time. Starting to put up my boundaries now and speak my truth and assert things. Otherwise I get taken for a ride that isnt in my own interests- rather there for him over really my own. I do this. My gp said I had to 'teach' others my boundaries - which I know- but putting into practice is another thing.
 
AtTheGates

AtTheGates

Banned
well i passed the reading/writing part of my placement test. I got carried away with the one essay question on there so had to finish the multiple choice portion really quick. I got pretty much all the answers right though. anyway, I have to schedule another appointment for that math part of the placement test because that one is going to take me FOREVER.

also, there was a nurse there who I guess was taking college classes. anyway, she randomly smiled at me when she walked by. idk why she did that but it made my whole day.
 
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AtTheGates

AtTheGates

Banned
this is awesome! some people might think "why not help the U.S. instead" . well if you think about it , this IS helping the U.S. because they're building a good place for refugees to go home to. I hope this continues to happen for other towns that were destroyed by war in the middle east so that even MORE refugees will be able to go home .

maybe then, christianity can become a majority over there and they'll have enough strength in numbers to defend themselves from the remnants of the Islamic state as WELL as get some good christians to be a part of their government..as opposed to a corrupt regime that murders innocent women and children in the name of al*ah. christianity is a minority group in that part of the world and they're the victim of numerous attacks by Isl***c radicals (yes I edited that out)

Knights to Save Destroyed Town | Knights of Columbus
 
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FountainandFairfax

FountainandFairfax

in a VAN down by the RIVER
I hung out with my cousin tonight and he told me that his mom (my aunt) found out yesterday that she has tumors in her colon.

I'm hoping like crazy that they're benign, but the real shame is that she's abused pain killers for decades, which can cause serious constipation, which in turn probably masked the fact that something else was building up. Had she not been on so many of them she may have realized something was wrong sooner.

She's going back for another colonoscopy tomorrow because they had to stop today since the masses were so large. It doesn't sound good at all, but I'm hoping like crazy it'll be alright, for all their sake. My cousins are textbook mamma's boys and it would absolutely wreck them if something happened to her.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
I think I'm pretty much done with life. :sad: Don't really seem much point in living anymore. :idontknow:

My mother's a f*ckin' idiot! Take umbrage with me saying that, but we just had an argument over which t-shirt I'd be wearing this week, since I'm getting away for just a day this weekend. Aye, a feckin' t-shirt! :kickingmyself: And who had the last word on it - not me! :eek:h:
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Also, I got definite confimation yesterday from my oldest sibling that the reason I'm not allowed to move outta the family house due to co-dependent. And not co-dependence on my part, cuz I've proved I can manage on my own with minimal support. Don't ya just hate parents who are narcissistic c*nts?! :thumbdown:
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Graeme1988 said:
I think I'm pretty much done with life. :sad: Don't really seem much point in living anymore. :idontknow:
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Still stand by this. Honestly, for me, there's no point. F*ck all has changed as far as how my mother and older siblings treat me. Despite last year's promises.

Nope! I'm still the ungrateful c*nt. Despite them, guilt-tripping me n' making me feel obligated to do everything they ask of me. At least by their bewildering feminist logic, anyway. Ah mean, ye get that phrase "No means No!" still applies when ye continuously nag til ye get yer way, but ye refuse to acknowledge that the man in question just can't be bothered and just wants to be left alone. :kickingmyself:
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Well, my mum just straight-up f*ckin' lied to me... AGAIN! :kickingmyself: And I'm just supposed to tolerate this?! Or so I'm toldF*CK OFF!! :thumbdown:

Gee... No wonder I don't trust people, huh?! :mad:
 
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Hot_Tamale

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defiance said:
I was trying to find what the odds of dying in your sleep were. Oddly enough I couldn't find it. I'll take anything as long as it does the job quick and is as painless as possible. :sad:
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Just out of curiosity I decided to research a little bit of how people die in their sleep after you posted that. I couldn't find any odds either but websites say the major causes of death while sleeping are due to a coronary incident or stroke. I assume the odds of death while sleeping are in the ballpark of the same odds as a heart malfunction or brain hemorrhage.
 
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