MrJones
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I just complain too much, but thanks for asking.^What's wrong MrJones?
I just complain too much, but thanks for asking.^What's wrong MrJones?
Like things would be better if I leave... I tend to make things worse and to make people feel bad, but it's not my intention ::
I shouldn't even say a word anymore or I'll end up making the same mistakes again and again and again... and I'm really, really sorry ::
Thanks angel. I can tell you I make people feel bad and uncomfortable, and I can't seem to learn. There are people who hate me, there are people who don't want to talk to me or hear about me at all, and that only makes me hate myself even more, because I know they have reasons in doing so, because I'm not a good person :You do absolutely nothing wrong, Jones. I like all your posts on here. They're smart, kind, and honest. I've never felt like you've caused any inconvenience. I enjoy your presence on this forum.![]()
Thanks angel. I can tell you I make people feel bad and uncomfortable, and I can't seem to learn. There are people who hate me, there are people who don't want to talk to me or hear about me at all, and that only makes me hate myself even more, because I know they have reasons in doing so, because I'm not a good person ::
Thanks. You don't, but a lot of people have reasons because they know me better. I don't mean it, but I still do, I don't know how, but I always do everything wrong.Well I don't have a reason to do so my friend, and I can't believe that you're a bad person![]()
Thanks. You don't, but a lot of people have reasons because they know me better. I don't mean it, but I still do, I don't know how, but I always do everything wrong.
Sorry to disagree with you but you're not alone because I'm here.I am feeling like I want to crawl into a hole and die. I hate myself. I hate that I don't have any control over things and how I have nothing going for me. I have no direction, no purpose, no life. No one here cares about me. I have no one. I am so alone.
Well, two nights ago I felt really bad, but after that I have started to feel a little bit better. I was able to laugh and carry on at work this morning, even though the clouds of depression still linger as they always do.
I feel like I'm not good enough a lot of the time so it's a matter of getting past that, if that'll ever happen. I'm also considering a few changes in my life that I should be making, even though I'm scared of change. Things to ponder.
I also need to sleep some more. I am always tired...although I could contribute that to my depression and poor dietary choices, too.
I'm actually sleeping quite well, but it doesn't matter how many hours I get, it's not enough. Waking up at 3:45am doesn't help me out, though. I am guessing you get insomnia?Depression has that double edged sword thing going on with causing you to feel more tired/run down and then also giving you insomnia.
I know what you mean about being scared to make neccessary changes in your life, I am guilty of that too. I try to do that in small steps though. Is there something small you can start off with first? to get the momentum going?
I'm assuming this is about that arrogant guy. Go for a brisk walk and hopefully you'll feel good after that.I am feeling really angry, I think I need to do some exercise to get it out of my system. lol![]()
Thanks angel. I can tell you I make people feel bad and uncomfortable, and I can't seem to learn. There are people who hate me, there are people who don't want to talk to me or hear about me at all, and that only makes me hate myself even more, because I know they have reasons in doing so, because I'm not a good person ::
What's wrong?I'm mad, grrrr .
Sounds like you needed to get some stuff out of your system. I'm sorry you went through all that in the last couple of days but hopefully it's all over now and you can concentrate on getting your album finished.feeling alright after an intense night, I just couldn't get out of my head. I think its all aside and I can continue with my life, and when I say life I mean recording muahahahaha. But I was on the bus today and just couldn't do anything other than watch everyone outside and just smile, I had a warm gooey feeling, like anything was possible. Hopefully I can get that feeling again, it was nice and peaceful
feeling alright after an intense night, I just couldn't get out of my head. I think its all aside and I can continue with my life, and when I say life I mean recording muahahahaha. But I was on the bus today and just couldn't do anything other than watch everyone outside and just smile, I had a warm gooey feeling, like anything was possible. Hopefully I can get that feeling again, it was nice and peaceful
I just went to lunch with my friend and one of his friends (who I know semi-well). We had delicious Thai food. My problem is that I felt really disconnected between the two of them. They were talking quite easily and about stuff I didn't know and I couldn't get in on it. At one point my friend asked what has been going on, and I really had nothing to say. Nothing has been going on. Lots have been happening to them and I just sat there and ate my meal while they chatted. This other guy didn't give me a lot of eye contact, either, which led me to assume he didn't want to talk to me that much. ::