How are you feeling?

[this_portrait]

My brain feels fried from reading all these textbooks for the past few hours.

 

[MsBuzzkillington]

Mmm, Phoenixx, that dove chocolate thing sounds delicious! You can bring some of those to the chocolate party too.

 

[KiaKaha]

Full of smoked salmon

 

[Nicolynn27]

My head feels like it's being squeezed. Sinus problems, but besides that? I'm perfectly at peace with the world in the midst of disaster. My bf, Whitney Houston, but it's ok... in this moment.

 

[jonas89]

Full of smoked salmon

hmmm I love smoked salmon

 

[Phoenixx]

Mmm, Phoenixx, that dove chocolate thing sounds delicious! You can bring some of those to the chocolate party too.

^ They actually weren't even mine. XD My mom bought a bag for my dad because she felt she had to get him something, even though she said, "I hope he doesn't buy me anything." :: So I stole one. I'll probably steal a few more later and stash them. shhh!

Phoenixx I must say wow very strong of you to go to that art class critique! Next class will probably be easier.

^ Thanks. I have doubts though. I think that no matter how well I'll do on future projects, I'll still be just as panicky and nervous during critiques.

 

[MikeyC]

She also continues to tell me that therapy/counselling would just be a waste of time, as I'm probably beyond help.

Jesus....

I survived my first art class critique today too. This was the main thing I was dreading. I couldn't stop shaking all day and even during everyone else's critiques my eyes started to water and thought I was going to burst into tears right there. :: Thank god the lights were off. No one needed to see how red my face was or how watery my eyes were getting. Anyway, I didn't do fantastic, but I guess I didn't do that horrible of a job on my project. I think what bothered me the most with the critique wasn't what everyone else thought of it as it was this kid in the back of the room. He's a very nerdy kid, but not a quiet one. He's very verbal, and LOVES to criticize everyone's work (He was doing so even when we were looking at fantastic pieces during the first week), yet his own work is only subpar. I'm not trying to sound mean here, but I think before you open your mouth and start criticizing everyone, take a look at your own work and talents first and see where YOU can improve rather than focusing on everyone else and making it look like you're the wikipedia of photoshop. /end irritating rant

Is this nerdy kid supposed to be critiquing? If not he should very much keep his mouth shut. I'm glad you survived that but I would dread ever going back if that was me. I'm positive you'll get better at Photoshop by May, too.

 

[Invisibleman]

My ribs hurt so much..from laughing so hard. Today was actually a better day than ive had in a while. Me and my friends had a class together and we shared a jolly good laugh::

 

[lonely_drummer]

^ Great to hear!!!!

 

[Graeme1988]

Jesus....

You need not be too concerned Mikey, I've forgot about it, slightly. I'm used to my mum being inconsiderate, as f#*king annoying as that is. She seems incapable of empathy, and is unlikely to change her ways. And I ain't going to try and convince her to do so. It's seems that argument we had at New Year didn't change things - as I thought it would - since my mum and I are now back to square one.

 

[MikeyC]

My ribs hurt so much..from laughing so hard. Today was actually a better day than ive had in a while. Me and my friends had a class together and we shared a jolly good laugh::

Awesome! I love those kinds of moments.

You need not be too concerned Mikey, I've forgot about it, slightly. I'm used to my mum being inconsiderate, as f#*king annoying as that is. She seems incapable of empathy, and is unlikely to change her ways. And I ain't going to try and convince her to do so. It's seems that argument we had at New Year didn't change things - as I thought it would - since my mum and I are now back to square one.

I think I've said it once before but you can't go to your mother for support, as awful as that is. She's obviously not going to listen or anything so there's got to be someone else. I do recall you saying your sister was very concerned about you so you should talk to her, even if she was annoying you. She'll obviously help you out.

 

[Graeme1988]

I think I've said it once before but you can't go to your mother for support, as awful as that is. She's obviously not going to listen or anything so there's got to be someone else. I do recall you saying your sister was very concerned about you so you should talk to her, even if she was annoying you. She'll obviously help you out.

Yeah, I'm just not sure how my sister will react if I really opening up, and likely breaking down in tears at some point. And I worried because there's alot of stuff that I've not come to terms with, which go back a few years. As well as, telling her (my oldest sister) that I resent the fact that my mum seems to care about her and my other sister, emotionally, than she does me. At least, they can talk about how they're feeling, whereas I get treated like I don't exist.

And if my oldest sister tells my mum, my mum will freakout. Much like she did last time confided in my sister, when I was going a sevre, and dark, depression when I was 16.

 

[MikeyC]

Yeah, I'm just not sure how my sister will react if I really opening up, and likely breaking down in tears at some point. And I worried because there's alot of stuff that I've not come to terms with, which go back a few years. As well as, telling her (my oldest sister) that I resent the fact that my mum seems to care about her and my other sister, emotionally, than she does me. At least, they can talk about how they're feeling, whereas I get treated like I don't exist.

And if my oldest sister tells my mum, my mum will freakout. Much like she did last time confided in my sister, when I was going a sevre, and dark, depression when I was 16.

You have to try something though because you seem desperate for support from somewhere and your sister is willing to listen, so I would take advantage of that and unleash some feelings on to her. If she does tell your mother and she starts freaking out, well, that's not entirely your concern. You have tried to talk to her in the past and it hasn't worked out at all, so you're trying a new avenue.

Do you really believe your mum is playing favourites? It can happen and I'm really sorry if that's the case.

 

[Graeme1988]

You have to try something though because you seem desperate for support from somewhere and your sister is willing to listen, so I would take advantage of that and unleash some feelings on to her. If she does tell your mother and she starts freaking out, well, that's not entirely your concern. You have tried to talk to her in the past and it hasn't worked out at all, so you're trying a new avenue.

Do you really believe your mum is playing favourites? It can happen and I'm really sorry if that's the case.

Not sure if it's playing favourites, though she very well could be. Because my mum does seem project all her negativity and cynicism about life, as well as her man-hating bulls*#t about relationships, onto me. And does belittle nearly everything I do as a waste of time. Dyers Eve by Metallica comes to mind, and gives an idea as to how I feel.

 

[MikeyC]

Not sure if it's playing favourites, though she very well could be. Because my mum does seem project all her negativity and cynicism about life, as well as her man-hating bulls*#t about relationships, onto me. And does belittle nearly everything I do as a waste of time. Dyers Eve by Metallica comes to mind, and gives an idea as to how I feel.

Nothing like a metal song to convey feelings! But yeah, if she's all negative and man-hating, it does make it harder for you since, well, you're a man.

I wish I could help you out more, mate, but I don't know how. All I can say is go to your sister and see if she's willing to listen.

 

[Phoenixx]

My ribs hurt so much..from laughing so hard. Today was actually a better day than ive had in a while. Me and my friends had a class together and we shared a jolly good laugh::

^ I haven't had a day like that in a very long time. That's awesome!

 

[Phoenixx]

Is this nerdy kid supposed to be critiquing? If not he should very much keep his mouth shut. I'm glad you survived that but I would dread ever going back if that was me. I'm positive you'll get better at Photoshop by May, too.

^ Today he was, it was open class critique, or as my teacher puts it, "Constructive criticism." I think my teacher was getting pretty annoyed with him though, as some of it wasn't constructive at all as it was just him making comments. He didn't mentioned anything to him today, but I'm pretty sure he'll eventually get around to telling him to shut up one of these days. I can't wait for that day to happen, lol.

 

[Graeme1988]

Nothing like a metal song to convey feelings! But yeah, if she's all negative and man-hating, it does make it harder for you since, well, you're a man.

I wish I could help you out more, mate, but I don't know how. All I can say is go to your sister and see if she's willing to listen.

Yes, considerably harder, it's quite demeaning, really. But my mum doesn't seem to see how her negative comments over the years have affect my confidence, since I was in my mid-teens. I will, eventually, talk with my sister, though I'll probably end up rambling, just trying to get everything out. It's not going to be easy for me, quite emotional.

 

[MikeyC]

^ Today he was, it was open class critique, or as my teacher puts it, "Constructive criticism." I think my teacher was getting pretty annoyed with him though, as some of it wasn't constructive at all as it was just him making comments. He didn't mentioned anything to him today, but I'm pretty sure he'll eventually get around to telling him to shut up one of these days. I can't wait for that day to happen, lol.

I still think "constructive criticism" doesn't truly exist, but at least your teacher noticed he was being a pain. Let's hope your teacher does say something!

 

[MikeyC]

Yes, considerably harder, it's quite demeaning, really. But my mum doesn't seem to see how her negative comments over the years have affect my confidence, since I was in my mid-teens. I will, eventually, talk with my sister, though I'll probably end up rambling, just trying to get everything out. It's not going to be easy for me, quite emotional.

My mum is quite negative, too, but I think yours is more so. It will be emotional, but you have to let it all out, rambling or not.