Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
My confidence is at a low right now. :
: And I'm feeling uncomfortable, awkward and insecure about myself.
: And I'm feeling uncomfortable, awkward and insecure about myself.
How are you feeling?
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outsideroftheoutsiders
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I feel like I'm not living life; just passing time.
I'm feeling....meh. Not great, but not bad. I'll take it.
I'm having conflicted feelings. I don't have a job and my parents give me money. They give me spending cash, but I try to hold on to it because I feel guilty for spending it. Anyway, I just donated $10 to a breast cancer charity. In the past, I've tried to donate to at least one charity a year, but I couldn't do that last year and I felt bad. I'll just make sure it comes out of my spending money. My parents can't get too mad, right?
I'm having conflicted feelings. I don't have a job and my parents give me money. They give me spending cash, but I try to hold on to it because I feel guilty for spending it. Anyway, I just donated $10 to a breast cancer charity. In the past, I've tried to donate to at least one charity a year, but I couldn't do that last year and I felt bad. I'll just make sure it comes out of my spending money. My parents can't get too mad, right?
MrJones
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No one wants me in their lives because I'm an awful person. I make good people feel bad, then I am a bad person. It had happened too many times with too many people for it to be a coincidence. A lot of people hate me and I can't blame them. I always screw up, I just don't know how to behave. I honestly think that everything and everyone would be better if I left this world. No one needs me and no one wants me in here. Everyone says I should stay here, that other people will like me. But those people never appear. I have to be alone forever, but I don't want that.
I don't want much in this life. I don't want expensive clothes or a fast car. I don't want an important job or travel a lot. I don't want a lot of friends and party everyday. If I wanted any of that, I could have it. I'm sure I could, but I don't want that.
There is only one thing in this world that I want, one thing with wich I could be truly happy. If I ever find that something I would do ANYTHING to get it and to maintain it. I would go to the end of the world, I would fight any fear I could be and overcome every obstacle in the way.
But that is just a dream that will not come true. I'm not meant to be happy. I wish I could just stop feeling.
I will have to spend the rest of my life just as I've spend the first part of it. Doing nothing, just waiting for a miracle to happen, as no matter how I try there is nothing I can do to be happy. I'll live a lonely and meaningless life, just counting everyday how much time I have left until I can finally leave.
So yeah, I'm feeling awesome.
dottie
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my work is like a snakepit. raging gossip and snide comments about people as soon as someone leaves the room from my supervisor. no, i don't participate. i have to sit in a room of this tension, junior high bull****, and no windows for the next 8.5 hours. thank god it is friday.
doubtmyself
Banned
OK now but I ate Chinese for dinner then went to bed. Woke up about four times dying of thirst!! It was almost a nightmare experience!!
Hi everyone!
I feel better now after taking a few days off work......went to the doctor and got a sick note, just needed a break from the stress and anxiety work was causing me.
Looking at applying for a new job at the moment, soooooo hard!! But for now, I will be back to work on Monday::
I feel better now after taking a few days off work......went to the doctor and got a sick note, just needed a break from the stress and anxiety work was causing me.
Looking at applying for a new job at the moment, soooooo hard!! But for now, I will be back to work on Monday:
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lonely_drummer
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Feeling very cold. My roomates friend didn't close the front door all the way lastnight when he left and it blew open and stayed open all night! A night we got a good amount of snow
this_portrait
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I feel kinda low, for some reason. I keep thinking about particular negative things, which is making me feel sad.
I feel good, just had a high tea with my two favorite co-workers. We also went to starbucks. It was fun!
razzle dazzle rose
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I feel bored. Ha. If I feel bored then I must be a boring person. Yeah, yeah... Trying to think about what I can do to alleviate this boredom. Perhaps going for a short walk will do me good, and maybe I can get some soup at Panera Bread. I am in love with their broccoli cheddar soup ♥
MikeyC
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Why would they get mad? It's a really good thing you're doing!
I hate gossip. You're doing the right thing by not participating. Hopefully work goes nice and fast for you today.
MrJones
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Tonight's being especially lonely... I don't even know why, it's just a stupid feelings and I can't control it.
I admire the people out there who are strong enough to live being alone and even being happy with it... I need people, and I have no one, because no one ever wanted to be around me... I'm repulsive. I'm really tired of trying to prove differently and I always fail and fail again. I'm so tired... I'm doing a lot of things to try to change my life for better and nothing is working in the tiniest bit.. I have no hope left.
I admire the people out there who are strong enough to live being alone and even being happy with it... I need people, and I have no one, because no one ever wanted to be around me... I'm repulsive. I'm really tired of trying to prove differently and I always fail and fail again. I'm so tired... I'm doing a lot of things to try to change my life for better and nothing is working in the tiniest bit.. I have no hope left.
this_portrait
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Sleepy, but unfortunately I can't nap because I have a photo shoot for work in about 1.5 hours. Ugh...
Srijita52
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^Everyone needs people in their life to some extent or atleast I do lol. I know loneliness is the most painful feeling ever, I hope things get better with you MrJones, just don't give up yet and if you ever need me I'm here.
^Yep, you do and all your friends are here for youI'm feeling kinda lonely. I know I have alot of great friends on here, though.
Sorry to hear you're feeling lonely, if you want to talk I'm here. Ugh, it sucks, but I hope you get some rest after the photo shoot and good luck!
Invisibleman
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Well in my english class we're beginning our final project which we will work on throughout the whole year and its worth literally 50% of my mark. Its basically your life story from when you were born right up until the present.
Now im wondering what should I do for it. Should I fib and write of a happy go lucky child growing up in a world full of chocolate and rainbows, or should I tell the truth and write about how most of my memories as a child were of sadness and terribly dark thoughts,the bullying and therapy,Feeling like a freak at even a young age,how SA has plagued me and so on. I hate opening up so I dont even know if I could do it if I wanted to. I dont know
Now im wondering what should I do for it. Should I fib and write of a happy go lucky child growing up in a world full of chocolate and rainbows, or should I tell the truth and write about how most of my memories as a child were of sadness and terribly dark thoughts,the bullying and therapy,Feeling like a freak at even a young age,how SA has plagued me and so on. I hate opening up so I dont even know if I could do it if I wanted to. I dont know
Srijita52
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^Well, it depends on you, if you feel like opening up and sharing then do it. Or maybe you can share some of the experience to the point you feel comfortable. Good luckWell in my english class we're beginning our final project which we will work on throughout the whole year and its worth literally 50% of my mark. Its basically your life story from when you were born right up until the present.
Now im wondering what should I do for it. Should I fib and write of a happy go lucky child growing up in a world full of chocolate and rainbows, or should I tell the truth and write about how most of my memories as a child were of sadness and terribly dark thoughts,the bullying and therapy,Feeling like a freak at even a young age,how SA has plagued me and so on. I hate opening up so I dont even know if I could do it if I wanted to. I dont know