How are you feeling?

[Graeme1988]

Like I'm complete and utter failure.

Having a hard time accepting that my mum doesn't care about my problems anymore. :: She says she cares but the way she acts towards me tell me otherwise.

 

[bsebring]

There's something wrong with me. I need to start seeing a therapist.

 

[Piece_By_Piece]

Crying over being so helplessly in love.

*sighs deeply*

 

[MikeyC]

There's something wrong with me. I need to start seeing a therapist.

If you feel like it's time to see a therapist about whatever, and you're not shying away from those thoughts, then it's time. It took me years to even consider it but now I'm going to one and I reckon I should've done it years ago.

Admitting you need a therapist is the best first step. Good luck if you decide to follow through.

Crying over being so helplessly in love.

*sighs deeply*

Being in love is either the greatest or one of the worst feelings ever. Can you tell him about your feelings or is that no good?

 

[this_portrait]

It's way too hot in this apartment. I know it's rather chilly out, but these gas heaters are just too much sometimes. -fans self-

 

[KnuffleBunny]

I'm mad. Really mad. Some people in Mibbit accused me of sh*t and not some much as one f***ing apology.

And if any of them did now I wouldn't care anyway. Thanks.

 

[superfluouslyme]

I have that weird, empty headed feeling again.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

I'm mad. Really mad. Some people in Mibbit accused me of sh*t and not some much as one f***ing apology.

And if any of them did now I wouldn't care anyway. Thanks.

Hey, I'm sorry abot that. Is what they're accusing you of something that will detrimentally affect your life? If not, then try to forget about it. Confront them if it will make you feel better, but don't become consumed by this matter. Tell them to knock it off with the accusing, that you've done absolutely nothing wrong, and that you think that you deserve/you want an apology.

 

[planemo]

I feel ok, just a bit tired.

 

[KiaKaha]

I know this is going to sound kind of stupid... but I have been feeling kind of low since the election here last Saturday... I have been watching the news and reading what people have been feeling and I am quite disillusioned with my country. I feel like leaving. I cant understand how selfish we have become. How profit comes before people now. Where if you are poor...then you deserve to be.

I disagree with that completely... but it would seem that the majority here are in it for themselves. I have been trying to get my point across but instead I have been sworn at, berated and even insulted because of my humble 30 friends on facebook (one woman said that I am loser because of this ... I am a filthy socialist...apparently)
I mean what is WRONG with looking out for other people who dont have it as well off as you do? I dont get it. I think people are afraid....and being selfish and making generalizations is the only way to handle it.

Anyway just venting. I will get over it. I always do.

 

[MikeyC]

I have that weird, empty headed feeling again.

Spaced out? Maybe a nice, stress-free relax session will do the trick.

I have been watching the news and reading what people have been feeling and I am quite disillusioned with my country. I feel like leaving. I cant understand how selfish we have become. How profit comes before people now. Where if you are poor...then you deserve to be.

You should cross the ditch to Australia, because we are a people-based country that looks out for our fellow Aussie.

Oh, wait, no we're not. It's all about the dollars and most people are struggling to survive under crippling electricity and grocery prices. And that's in Australia, which is the second best country in the world to live in (and NZ is number 5).

 

[KiaKaha]

You should cross the ditch to Australia, because we are a people-based country that looks out for our fellow Aussie.

Oh, wait, no we're not. It's all about the dollars and most people are struggling to survive under crippling electricity and grocery prices. And that's in Australia, which is the second best country in the world to live in (and NZ is number 5).

Huh interesting article. Well even so, Australia is a lot better than NZ in my opinion. 100 000 NZ'ers left for Australia in the last three years and a friend of mine left a few months ago. At least there is a liveable wage over there...

Its just that people who struggle (such as myself) dont get given a break, while the guys at the top do. It doesnt make any sense to me. Its not FAIR... there is a major poverty and equality problem here...and its just not the government...its people attitudes that is really bugging me. Everyone deserves a dignified life do they not? Everyone deserves a chance....its not poor choices that lead to poverty...at least not ALL the time like some people say.

I would love to head over there...but I have commitments here...maybe when I am done though. Better weather, better lifestyle...and let us not forget the aussie women...

Anyway. Sorry guys for my ranting.

 

[MikeyC]

I decided to go and do something productive today (thanks Deadman!) with mixed results.

I re-skinned my snare drum finally. The old skin was wearing out big time and it was time for an upgrade, considering we're recording songs on Wednesday. It was nothing huge, but I felt like I was doing something instead of procrastinating like I always do.

Me and a friend then went for a walk on the beach, since it was a nice day. That was good, too, and I enjoyed the walk and looking at cute girls on the beach. The conversation did turn to my issues at one point, which made me a little uncomfortable, though.

Then he and I met up with his brother and a friend of his and we all had some Thai food. There's a place near my friend's house that does really nice Thai food. Probably not as authentic as it could be, but their curries and satay are great to eat. However, the conversation between the three of them turned to exercise and how ripped they want to get. And there I am sitting there, having put on a few kilos, and I basically kept silent the whole time. It ruined my lunch experience, and once I was done I left (had to for work, but it was a good excuse to get out of there as fast as possible).

 

[MikeyC]

Huh interesting article. Well even so, Australia is a lot better than NZ in my opinion. 100 000 NZ'ers left for Australia in the last three years and a friend of mine left a few months ago. At least there is a liveable wage over there...

Yeah, wages are good here, but we need them to buy our overprices goods and services. That's just how it is. I've never been to New Zealand but I'd certainly like to visit one day.

Its just that people who struggle (such as myself) dont get given a break, while the guys at the top do. It doesnt make any sense to me. Its not FAIR... there is a major poverty and equality problem here

I think you've just described what the Occupy movement is all about. But it's the same here (equality problems). It's evident in every country, so moving here won't make them go away. People are given every incentive to live properly (Centrelink benefits, study fees can be reduced, and Medicare [seriously the best thing this country has]), but some waste it on drugs, just like everywhere else.

I'm not too sure of the severity of the equality problem in New Zealand, but it can't be too much worse than Australia (the two countries are very similar).

I know a girl who lives in or near Rotorua and she has said in the past that she loves New Zealand and will never leave. Then all of a sudden she was considering moving to Melbourne. I'm not sure if that's the case anymore, but that shocked me, considering how much she liked her country and thought Australia was inferior.

and let us not forget the aussie women...

Yeah, we do have that. Maybe that's why we're number 2. Damn those mega-hot Norwegian ladies.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

I decided to go and do something productive today (thanks Deadman!) with mixed results.

I re-skinned my snare drum finally. The old skin was wearing out big time and it was time for an upgrade, considering we're recording songs on Wednesday. It was nothing huge, but I felt like I was doing something instead of procrastinating like I always do.

Me and a friend then went for a walk on the beach, since it was a nice day. That was good, too, and I enjoyed the walk and looking at cute girls on the beach. The conversation did turn to my issues at one point, which made me a little uncomfortable, though.

Then he and I met up with his brother and a friend of his and we all had some Thai food. There's a place near my friend's house that does really nice Thai food. Probably not as authentic as it could be, but their curries and satay are great to eat. However, the conversation between the three of them turned to exercise and how ripped they want to get. And there I am sitting there, having put on a few kilos, and I basically kept silent the whole time. It ruined my lunch experience, and once I was done I left (had to for work, but it was a good excuse to get out of there as fast as possible).

Ummmm, do you mean the sarcastic thanks or the genuine thanks?

Well, you did something today! That's an achievement!

Well, when someone talks about your "issues", why don't you ask if you can please change the subject? Tell them that talking about it makes you feel uncomfortable; they should understand.

Don't worry about how much weight you have gained or lost. Just enjoy your food and eat what you like! If your weight is bothering you, then you can start exercising and working off that weight.

 

[MikeyC]

Ummmm, do you mean the sarcastic thanks or the genuine thanks?

Genuine! I decided to take your suggestions and get the hell out of the house. While it didn't make me beam with happiness, I feel like I actually achieved something today.

Well, when someone talks about your "issues", why don't you ask if you can please change the subject? Tell them that talking about it makes you feel uncomfortable; they should understand.

He kind of understands but kind of doesn't at the same time. I was hoping he would be supportive, but instead the conversation went a little like this:

Him: Why don't you start an eating plan today? No more bad food starting now.
Me: I wouldn't stick to it. I know what I'm like.
Him: You won't with that attitude! That's so defeatist.

He's right, it is defeatist, but I know what I'm like and I won't stick to it. His way of helping is, "just do something else," but that's not helpful in any way. It just makes me think he doesn't get it at all.

However, you are right. I will work up the courage next time to tell him that it's uncomfortable for me and hopefully he'll understand that.

Don't worry about how much weight you have gained or lost. Just enjoy your food and eat what you like! If your weight is bothering you, then you can start exercising and working off that weight.

I'm at the point where I should be worried (to clarify, I'm not obese or anything, but my eating needs to change before it gets to that), but my apathy is so strong and my depression so inborn it's hard to break that vicious cycle.

 

[dottie]

sunday night pre-work anxiety

 

[MikeyC]

sunday night pre-work anxiety

I reckon 95% of people in the world get that!

 

[MikeyC]

unmotivated. frustrated. unlikeable.

...

I like you.

 

[MikeyC]

:] thanks, I think the feelings are coming more from offlineworld, its easier to be someone else online than it is to change how to come across to people in real life /:

I know what you mean. Anonymity can do wonders for some people.

Hope those feelings abate soon. I know what they're all like and it's horrible. ::

EDIT: Wait, there's an OFFLINE world? I might have to look into that....