How are you feeling?

DeadmanWalking

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Have been feeling down for about a week now and unfortunately it's still like that. Difficulties with sleeping, isolation and zero motivation. This weekend was dire. Also that's why i've been spending so much time here I guess.

Hoping this week becomes better. I'm still a bit sad about the fact that me and one of my oldest friends are not talking anymore.

This week should be better, you just have to make it better. I'm not going to ask you what happened between your friend and you, but, if it's something that cannot be changed, then the only thing I can you is to accept the ending for what it was and move forward or else a darker place awaits you. If you two can reconcile, then try to.

You've got to move forward, even if you don't feel like it, or else your future will be lost. If you ever want a friend or someone to talk to about problems, then my IM or message box is always open:).
 

pop-princess

Well-known member
Thanks for the wise and encouraging words DeadmanWalking. The friendship was not working and even though we have many wonderful memories this was for the best. I still feel like I lost something, an empty feeling.

But yes forward from now on it is.

Oh, thank you I really appreciate it :)
 

TheRadicalAnxiousLefty

Well-known member
Anxious and depressed.

An hour ago, I thought I forgot an appointment. That sparked a racing thought train domino, finally erupting, center-stage, in a cavalcade of melancholic emotion. Feelings of nihilism and emptiness, once-dormant, then exploded vociferously in my mind, like a volatile toxic sludge bomb.

That's all it took; I am still trooping though this murky swamp of misery, desperately grasping for any thought that can set me on a positive chain reaction back to the surface.

I still have not read that email. I still do have not told my family that I have failed university. It's like I don't believe it in some way; my brain is rationally aware of the fact, but refuses to accept the facts.
 
I'm still getting headaches. I'm thinking it's the Ambien. I'm going to try and take half the dosage tomorrow and see what happens. Otherwise, I'm feeling well. I'm broke, but relatively happy.
 

MikeyC

Well-known member
I finally went to the doctor today to get a referral to a psychologist. That was the worst half an hour this year, I reckon. I was terrified. But it's done and the first step to therapy is complete.
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Stomach aches and insomnia kept me awake until 4am. The insomnia's been keeping me up for the third night in a row now.

My family's as dysfuctional as ever. My cousin's ex-husband's threating to kill her. Some dispute over one of them not paying child support or something. So the police are now involved. Another cousin of mine and his girlfriend spend more time and money getting drunk and high on drugs. Neglecting their two kids in the process. Social service have apparently paid them a visit and everything's fine. Are you f***ing kidding me?

And I'm thinking about finally making that doctor's appointment to refer me to counseling/therapy. Though, with my family, maybe I'm not the one who needs really needs counseling.
 

Niteowl

Well-known member
I finally went to the doctor today to get a referral to a psychologist. That was the worst half an hour this year, I reckon. I was terrified. But it's done and the first step to therapy is complete.

Well done MikeyC. :)

I'm ecstatic. I just got a call-back about my volunteering at the cathedral gift shop!
 
I feel alright, i'm just excited since i might move out my parents house today or on another day this week. That depends on the house mates being home to give me the internet code. I won't move out before i have this code, i just need internet, lol. I'm making a list right now for the supermarket since i want to store some food in my new place. Oh, and i'm kinda in the mood to eat sushi today....hmmm....
 
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Nothingness

Active member
Having one of those weird feeling days, I got paid Friday and need to go pay bills, but I think I'm going to hide out. Kinda in the fried chicken mood, but I'm afraid to go out! ::(:
 

MikeyC

Well-known member
That's a big step in the right direction, I know it must of been very difficult but you got through it and should be proud of yourself, Well done.

Well done MikeyC. :)

^ Great job, Mikey! :)
Thank you, everybody. Yeah, it sucked, as the doctor was basically drilling me with questions I want the therapist to ask, but it's over and now it's time to make an appointment.
 

AsTimeBurns

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Don't you just love ignoring facebook for a week or so, then logging in and finding 0 messages or comments or anything, so you just logout again and convince yourself you didn't really want any anyway.
 

Clara001

Active member
I'm done. This was the worst day of my life. I talked with the guy I liked and realized we have NOTHING in common, he's the total opposite of me. I have nothing in common with all of the people at my college, which is a college just for law students and therefore people here are too ambicious, positive, social and happy for me. I'm done with hoping things will get better, because they won't. There's nothing left for me. I'm pissed and disappointed at the same time, I've never felt this way before. I've really given up this time. I just have to wait until all the feelings go away and I reach the state of apathy. I don't want to care about anything and I think I'm getting close to that. I don't want to think, feel, talk, anything. Maybe I should just stop talking. I should stop doing everything until my mother gets so pissed at me she kills herself (yes, that's what she does when I'm not pretending to be okay - she threatens to commit suicide). And then I still won't feel anything because I'll be so f*cked up I won't even notice she's gone. And I'll just stay in my room and do absolutely nothing until I die of dehydration or suicide. Seriously, f*ck everybody and everyone, including me. I'm sick of hoping and waiting for something good to happen. It never will.
 

coyote

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I'm done. This was the worst day of my life. I talked with the guy I liked and realized we have NOTHING in common, he's the total opposite of me. I have nothing in common with all of the people at my college, which is a college just for law students and therefore people here are too ambicious, positive, social and happy for me. I'm done with hoping things will get better, because they won't. There's nothing left for me. I'm pissed and disappointed at the same time, I've never felt this way before. I've really given up this time. I just have to wait until all the feelings go away and I reach the state of apathy. I don't want to care about anything and I think I'm getting close to that. I don't want to think, feel, talk, anything. Maybe I should just stop talking. I should stop doing everything until my mother gets so pissed at me she kills herself (yes, that's what she does when I'm not pretending to be okay - she threatens to commit suicide). And then I still won't feel anything because I'll be so f*cked up I won't even notice she's gone. And I'll just stay in my room and do absolutely nothing until I die of dehydration or suicide. Seriously, f*ck everybody and everyone, including me. I'm sick of hoping and waiting for something good to happen. It never will.

i wish i could tell you that things will get better, but you probably wouldn't believe me - and the truth is, I don't know how things are going to be

but you don't either

there is no way to predict the future - so even though it may look really bad right now doesn't mean it will be

crystal balls are not very reliable

my life has taken many twists and turns that i never expected it to when i was your age - sometimes for the worse, sometimes for the better

i'm just glad now that i didn't give up - because seeing it through to the good parts is always worth it

PM me if you'd like to talk about it more
 

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
I feel alright, i'm just excited since i might move out my parents house today or on another day this week. That depends on the house mates being home to give me the internet code. I won't move out before i have this code, i just need internet, lol. I'm making a list right now for the supermarket since i want to store some food in my new place. Oh, and i'm kinda in the mood to eat sushi today....hmmm....

Hey that's great noodles! Hope you like your new place :)
 
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