Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Lazy. Isolated. Unsure. Worried. Ultimately tired of feeling like I'm in some way obligated to make other people happy all the time.
How are you feeling?
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Nanita
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DespairSoul
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Why is love so complicated? I love to much and later i suffer to much...it's as a circle where i whirl and can't go out..like tornado what destroy mine believes and i have to build again and again. I'm sad and i don't know how to stop being sad...
IGotSeoul
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“To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness.”
ohohoho..
coyote
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or simply accept suffering
just as you accept love
two sides of the same coin in your pocket
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Beatrice
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Ugh, I know what you mean. If I'm assertive, suddenly it means I'm a b***h. If I'm not, I'm a pushover. There's no middle ground. That's why you're not supposed to care, but that's impossible with SA.
That's why I feel guilty all the time.
When I try to appear to be more confident and assertive, or like I'm not going to take someone's crap, people tell me to not look so serious, to smile, to stop pouting, etc. But then if I'm overly friendly and "nice", I get taken for a pushover. You can do whatever you want to little Haley, she's too nice to do anything.
Ugh.
Can't win!
Nervous. I've bitten my nails to nubs.
Nervous bout what?
coyote
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Life, the universe, and everything. I'm starting to think that the only emotions I possess are nervous, annoyed, and indifferent.
hoddesdon
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Funny you should say that. My mother told me when I was about 7 or 8 that if one of my fingernails or toenails ever came completely off, then she would amputate the digit in question. Shortly after, the toenail on my right small toe did come completely off. That has happened a couple of times over the last couple of years too. So I started hidling my foot from her. Then she noticed that I was hiding it.
coyote
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FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
I’m very tired. I had a long, hot day out in the sun, and I’m ill-equipped for that sort of thing.
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Beatrice
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Feeling bad about feeling bad. Lots of negative emotions and not many places to put them. Very weary. Just want some peace of mind.
I hate having self-pity, I really do. It's not that I'm feeling sorry for myself though. I just honestly have a lot of pain right now, and when there's no one to talk to about it you start to go crazy! I wanted to call my mom tonight but she was sleeping
So I'm going to bed now with it all on my mind and.... ugh. I feel like it's going to keep me awake. Maybe I should try to do something to relax and get my mind off it, like read or something....
I hate having self-pity, I really do. It's not that I'm feeling sorry for myself though. I just honestly have a lot of pain right now, and when there's no one to talk to about it you start to go crazy! I wanted to call my mom tonight but she was sleeping
So I'm going to bed now with it all on my mind and.... ugh. I feel like it's going to keep me awake. Maybe I should try to do something to relax and get my mind off it, like read or something....
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Tiercel
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I'm sick of either wanting to get healthy or wanting to be as unhealthy as I can be with as little effort as humanly possible. I'd kill for some sort of middle ground between the two; I really hate either feeling one extreme or the other.
Also, I'm fed up with being awake at night and tired during the day. I had no energy all day, until about 9 PM. Now that it's almost 4 AM, I'm going to bed despite feeling more awake than I was while the sun was up.
Ludwig van, carry me to Dreamland.
Also, I'm fed up with being awake at night and tired during the day. I had no energy all day, until about 9 PM. Now that it's almost 4 AM, I'm going to bed despite feeling more awake than I was while the sun was up.
Ludwig van, carry me to Dreamland.
DespairSoul
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I gotSeoul very well said u have a lot of true here. I know this but anyway i don't know what to do with mine feelings is so damn hard...i can't go all the time in same circles coz is like self-destruction for me if i love and later i lose love i feel so bad...so crap and all the time mine head play me film which happiness i have been lost....so only one choice is suffer with out love and don't have any memories which keep me suffering too coz i'm longing for love...or or being in love and have this memories in mine head what keep me suffering too...so what is better?Both isn't much cheerful. I want close mine feelings into the box and throw them away if i could this would be great. Some people don't love so deeply they love but they can fast go over it i know this. No where is the love equal always love some person more in relationship and one less. The one who love more suffer more. The one who is careless more natural go over it well. Everyone feel different, love different...I don't know how to feel well with out love or with losing love. I think i will never find it out:/ and on the end i will be in empty flat alone coz i was to much scared of the same pain!:
: Thank u for your post u said it so well and is all of it true.
DespairSoul
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Feeling bad about feeling bad. Lots of negative emotions and not many places to put them. Very weary. Just want some peace of mind.
I hate having self-pity, I really do. It's not that I'm feeling sorry for myself though. I just honestly have a lot of pain right now, and when there's no one to talk to about it you start to go crazy! I wanted to call my mom tonight but she was sleeping
So I'm going to bed now with it all on my mind and.... ugh. I feel like it's going to keep me awake. Maybe I should try to do something to relax and get my mind off it, like read or something....
Bea,
I'm sorry to hear that u feel that way. I hope it will get soon better though! Reading is great this help you distract your mind and relax more...maybe u can call your mom next time or talk to her..i know it's very hard have no one to talk to or have someone but he/she anyway don't lisen and don't care both sucks honesty:/