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Apotheosis

Apotheosis

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I think I may be the most positive depressed person alive.

Guys... GUYS! I think... I think might be a paradox.

What does a paradox do, exactly?

Ooh ooh, can I divide by zero? Let's see...

[User has removed himself from the space-time continuum.]
 
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Tykira

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Hello there!

Right now, I'm feeling determined. I'm sick and tired of this crappy job I'm in and I'm sick and tired of falling behind in college. I'm tired of beating myself up over failure after failure and I'm sick and tired of procrastinating over every little thing I do, even on something I genuinely enjoy.

My head was so full of doubt about pushing forward and letting go of the past. I'm 23 and it's my third year in a two year community college. >.> Yeah, embarassing...But I'm taking a stand today because the crappy job I have now, it's NOT going to define my future!! I'm going to do what I should've done three years ago and that's graduate college, get my degree, go to a university and get my career as a graphic artist/designer! I don't want to wipe tables, pick up trash and take orders from rude, obnoxious people anymore xS

I'm also sick and tired of obsessing over an old friend who I had an intense emotional dependency on (Relationship OCD) and trying hard to get over for three years now. We're no longer close anymore, but I still think about my friend all the time and my heart refuses to let go of the deep connection we had. Not to mention the qualities my friend had that I wish I had myself, but can't seem too :-(

No more, NO more JUST NO MORE!!!! No more doubt, no more fear, no more depression and no more obsession over the past!! Oh, and I was feeling extreme hatred towards my father for the pain and bitterness he implanted in my heart since childhood. But I don't feel that right now, But RIGHT NOW I'm more determined to get a new job and gain new skills to better educate myself to pass my classes and graduate college.
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
Beatrice said:
What to write? I'm out of words. It's all been said before. Life truly does suck - you have no say in whether you come into existence or not, and then it's so freaking hard to leave it, for many reasons - pain, fear, blah blah blah. What the hell do you do when you don't want to live but can't really die? I guess this is hell. At least it's not SO bad. Could be worse. And it won't last forever - maybe another 40 or so years. Hopefully nothing scary comes after that
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Please go here for my response ---> Does life "suck" or do we (humans)? (admin deleted it! :mad: but I saved a copy :D)

My basic response was this (with a bit removed & a bit added):
You're still young, there's still many things for you to learn in your life - one such thing is for you to learn how to be happy in spite of your problems. You're not happy, so therefore you haven't yet learnt how to achieve this (or to believe that it is possible - which it certainly is). True hapiness is all in the mind, and is not based on good (or bad) things that "happen" to you; it is a state of being, not a "statement" of events or situations.
 
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Patrick26

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Like ****. I went to the gym and it was PACKED! i hate going when it's packed, whatever i toughed it out but i had a grumpy look on my face. Then i saw this chick tie up her shirt so some skin shows (her stomach) so she could get some attention, then some random guy comes up to her and talks to her for 5 minutes, and his buddy talks after. They ended up going to the back and all you could hear is HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA back there, then they left. Made me feel like **** even more....but she is an attention whore probably. Showing skin so she could get some attention....seriously WTF!
 
Bloir

Bloir

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I feel pity by myself and i am tired, i must work and study, terrible day
all days seem the same I only work and study, i do nothing to change my life
Watching tv in the weekends, eating in free time, dreaming too much...
I must CHANGE, but i always say it, I dont believe in myself
 
ilmatross

ilmatross

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Im lonely

I miss sleeping with another person in a bed; the sex, relationship, ehh..

but having someone to hold as you fall asleep. I miss that the most.
 
dottie

dottie

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loved this job. then they put me on phones. not only the person on the other end of the phone can hear me but also my coworkers. it's like stagefright and i stumble over my words. oh well, it's only a couple more weeks.
 
Tiercel

Tiercel

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hoddesdon said:
^^ Have you been tested for hypothyroidism? That could be the cause of your troubles.
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Not yet. Though I'm feeling better today. I guess it could be due to allergies, but I can't recall feeling drained during previous spring seasons. Maybe it just took 30 years to start wearing me down.

Today I'm feeling determined to get something done. Nothing immediately springs to mind, but at least there's an overtone of motivation to my usual reek.
 
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Rembrandt Broam

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Patrick26 said:
Like ****. I went to the gym and it was PACKED! i hate going when it's packed, whatever i toughed it out but i had a grumpy look on my face. Then i saw this chick tie up her shirt so some skin shows (her stomach) so she could get some attention, then some random guy comes up to her and talks to her for 5 minutes, and his buddy talks after. They ended up going to the back and all you could hear is HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA back there, then they left. Made me feel like **** even more....but she is an attention whore probably. Showing skin so she could get some attention....seriously WTF!
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Sometimes a tied up shirt is just a tied up shirt.
 
Mickery

Mickery

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Even if it wasn't just a tied-up shirt, c'mon man, she wasn't doing anything wrong. Try to catch yourself when your mind starts going overtime in bad places, it's the first step to getting your head straight in so many ways.
 
planemo

planemo

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Put myself out there today as i went shopping. It was horrible at first but i ended up doing ok in the end. That made me feel a bit better. But overall my good work in trying to remain discipline seems to be taking a bit of a knock. I hope i can keep it up, and not fail again.
 
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