Hey ilmatross!! Sorry to hear you've been feeling bad - if you're trying to go drug-free, troubles are bound to be expected!! You used all those chemicals before to 'cover things up', now you both have the previous stuff to deal with and the withdrawal symptoms - be brave!! Are you trying to go 'cold turkey' or just slowly decreasing amounts? There are guides for withdrawal from certain meds online, not sure if for your painkillers too.. Maybe you can check? (There are some really good guides and info too..) Can you get support in RL or at least on any specific sites or forums?