How are you feeling?
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Sinopia
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I'm feeling so unhappy now. I cried the whole night. Right now, I'm still crying. There's some guy that I met on the Internet in 2006. First I thought he was kinda boring, but later I found out that we can talk about almost every subject together. He's the only person in this world who understands me the most and I'm the only person in this world who understands him the most. He does have friends, well let's say acquaintances, but he cannot talk with them like how he talks with me. He lives Slovenia and I live in the Netherlands. He came to the Netherlands in 2009, for vacation. I met him in a city. I was a bit nervous, but it was nice talking with him. A few weeks ago, he suggested to meet up in Munich, but we both realized very fast that this isn't a good idea, cuz he told me that he might love me. I don't love him, but I do like him a lot, cuz he's such a good person. So we decided not to meet each other again, cuz we know that we will miss each other, if we both go back to our country, which means we'll only hurt each other afterwards. He tried to commit suicide several times, in the past. He's unhappy, cuz he cannot find miss Right for years. He told me that he's unloveable and have no charisma. He told me that if he will ever find a girl that he loves in the future... she won't be the same as me. She won't be the one who will understand him that much as I do. Also the same thing for me. If I ever find a guy, he won't be mr. Right. He won't understand my feelings 100%. So we both will never be truly happy. I'm 25 now and I've never had a bf. It really frustrates me. He wanted to have less contact with me. I understand, cuz we cannot keep talking to each other every day anymore. We both think this is better. It's sad, but true.
Today he sent me a youtube video on msn: 'The greatest love of all' by Whitney Houston'. He told me that I should start loving myself. After this, he said goodbye. I cried the whole night, because of this video. It's just too emotional.
What do you all think I should do?
Today he sent me a youtube video on msn: 'The greatest love of all' by Whitney Houston'. He told me that I should start loving myself. After this, he said goodbye. I cried the whole night, because of this video. It's just too emotional.
What do you all think I should do?
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honestly? no. i've been trying to be someone else for so long i've forgotten who i really am anymore. i've completely lost touch with my soul
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Beatrice
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Funny, I met a guy online too. On a depression group on Facebook. We talked a LOT, then we video chatted. Before I knew it, I thought I liked him. Things were pretty emotional for a while, then he ended up being a jerk and hurting my feelings several times. I finally said goodbye to him for good, then after I got over it I realized how stupid the whole thing was. But it was an experience, that's for sure.
I'm sorry to hear that Sinopia..... You should probably just try to move on. I know it's hard, but with each day you'll think of him less and less.
So you both will, have missed each other so much? There is nothing there?
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Beatrice
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Same. Well, except for the trying to be someone else. I just lost touch with myself because of depression. Then I kind of got it together again, only to realize I'm lost in the world. Sounds dramatic, but... it's the truth. Don't know what to do with myself. *sigh*
I had a feeling you felt that way.
Perhaps if you spent some time trying to figure out/remember who you are, you'd drift away from it less when dealing with others. What do you like? What do you want? What are your long term dreams and goals? That sort of thing.
There's also the school of thought that one is defined by their interactions with others, but I don't entirely go for that.
you're a smart girl with alot of potential, i'm sure you will find your way. you just need to rid yourself of the negative influences around you so you can have a chance to do so.
wise advice. thank you.
Lost Girl
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I can relate to this, I felt that way for a long time. My advice is that you try not to dwell on the idea that you don't know who you are, and relax and just be. Slowly start to listen to the internal voice, the real you - your opinions, likes and dislikes, and that voice should get louder. try to be aware of when you're not being true to yourself and stop in that moment. I know I went through the longest time when almost every thought and opinion that popped into my head I had to really stop and think 'wait- is that my thought, or am I just thinking what I think is the right thing to be thinking?' etc and 'do i like this because it fits into the character I want to be, or do I really like it?' weird, and it can get you into a confused muddle but hey. Good luck to you, I hope you can find yourself again.
You crack me up
wow, that's exactly whats been going through my head. i've been struggling trying to decipher whether the way i act and think is my true self, or the person i created from the expectations of others. in a sense, it's as if i don't trust myself anymore. i hope i'm not going crazy
Sinar_Matahari
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Defiant...
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Beatrice
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Hap-hap-HAPPY! Finally figured out why in the world I couldn't access my wireless! It was the wrong password. Duhhhhhhh! I had to use the neighbor's crappy wireless that would cut out CONSTANTLY, and now I'm freeeeeee : D
Really terrible. I feel trapped in this house. But I have nowhere to go, don't feel like doing any of the things I normally do at home, my roommate leaves the kitchen all messy so I don't feel like cooking anything. I can't fall asleep or nap. Roommate turns his shows up really loud and I feel like I'm asking too much when I want some quiet. I want to get out of here but there's nothing to do and nobody to call. This place is a dump beyond hope.
