I find the way you write almost... hypnotic, for want of a better word. Like you are communicating on a different level...
hypnotic, eh. Too bad I can't use that in Socialworld. Make things much, much easier.
Different level, maybe. It is really strange. Blank screen, mind blank. Sneaks inside, control, no control. Motor functions still in my control. Want away. Walk away. Return. Okay. At times it can last longer.
I've even written a half page or more in that state. Save them for now.
Crappy. My sinuses are hurting (mostly a sinus headache) and I can feel drainage in the back of my throat. I'm either coming down with a sinus infection, or it's allergies from the seasons starting to change. I dunno. But I had really bad anxiety about a week ago that caused me to throw up twice in the same day. I haven't vomited in a few years, so it was pretty scary and shocking for me. I still can't get over it. Because I don't feel good from my head hurting and the draining, I'm afraid I'll throw up again. Blah blah, it's a vicious cycle. I'm just babbling and feeling sorry for myself, as usual. :/
I also can't wait for autumn to get here. I get so stupidly excited for Halloween and Christmas, it's ridiculous. Obviously I'm getting excited about Halloween right now and just fall in general. I hate summer with a murderous passion. I can't wait for it to be over! So, needless to say, I'm getting impatient.
I've been up for over 48 hours and am furious. It is simply impossible to sleep with a stuffy & runny nose. Im-****ing-possible. I tried Nyquil. I tried other crap. Nothing works. I'm so sick of being tired, and so tired of being sick. I will take more than the recommended dose of Nyquil tonight.
**** seasons. I wish it was summer all year round.
I've been up for over 48 hours and am furious. It is simply impossible to sleep with a stuffy & runny nose. Im-****ing-possible. I tried Nyquil. I tried other crap. Nothing works. I'm so sick of being tired, and so tired of being sick. I will take more than the recommended dose of Nyquil tonight.
**** seasons. I wish it was summer all year round.
Don't take too much Nyquil, everyone one would miss you.:🙁:
Crappy. My sinuses are hurting (mostly a sinus headache) and I can feel drainage in the back of my throat. I'm either coming down with a sinus infection, or it's allergies from the seasons starting to change. I dunno.
It's ragweed season, my allergies are really bad this time of year too.
Are you speaking metaphorically or are you nocturnal like me? For some reason, my body loves sleeping at night nowadays. It feels a bit like the world is mine when everyone else slumbers.
That time I was being literal. The sun was soon to rise. And I'm like a vampire, always fleeing from the sun.
Sometimes I don't mind. Sometimes I get frustrated by the isolation, though. Especially when I'm trying to be awake more during the day and it just isn't happening. But I did watch a possum toodle around in the yard a little before 5 AM this morning while it was still dark. And I really wish I could at least hear an owl some night while at home. But in 24 years of living here we've never had any owls around. At least that we know of....
I'm going on a weekend camping trip with some friends next weekend and I really don't want to only be awake when they're all asleep. Also, it's a bit difficult to go looking for birds when one can't see....
That time I was being literal. The sun was soon to rise. And I'm like a vampire, always fleeing from the sun.
Sometimes I don't mind. Sometimes I get frustrated by the isolation, though. Especially when I'm trying to be awake more during the day and it just isn't happening. But I did watch a possum toodle around in the yard a little before 5 AM this morning while it was still dark. And I really wish I could at least hear an owl some night while at home. But in 24 years of living here we've never had any owls around. At least that we know of....
I'm going on a weekend camping trip with some friends next weekend and I really don't want to only be awake when they're all asleep. Also, it's a bit difficult to go looking for birds when one can't see....
Stupid vampiric genes! 😠
Ahh I love owls. Never hear them hoot but I see them around here ever so often. They're wingspans are surprisingly wide!
i met a guy. i'm very attracted to him. i'm pretty sure he is attracted to me. trying to get to know him better. he seems like a gentleman. i hope he is everything he seems to be.
i met a guy. i'm very attracted to him. i'm pretty sure he is attracted to me. trying to get to know him better. he seems like a gentleman. i hope he is everything he seems to be.
hot showers are awesome to let all your problems, issues and whatever you might be wary off wash away and start anew with an empty mind (at least for a while).
Uncomfortable. At university. These people cant stand me, I can feel their contempt towards me. I dont know why I come here everyday, Obviously I am not wanted here.
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