How are you feeling?
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Phoenixx
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Really good. A big chapter of my life is officially over. My parents gave me a congratulatory card today. A handwritten note inside saying how proud they are of me and how much I've grown the last few years. You know, the stuff parents are supposed to say to their children often.
I never got that growing up, or not very much of it anyway. No "I love you's" either. A lot of my teen years were shaped with neverending criticism and toxicity from my mom mainly and impacted a lot of who I am today.
So to receive the kind of love I did today from them was such a huge deal for me. I'm getting teary eyed thinking about it again. For so long I didn't think they were capable to even express that they felt that way, but I'm so glad I'm seeing this side of them. Maybe they're getting a change of heart as they get older, but I hope they continue to show it.
I never got that growing up, or not very much of it anyway. No "I love you's" either. A lot of my teen years were shaped with neverending criticism and toxicity from my mom mainly and impacted a lot of who I am today.
So to receive the kind of love I did today from them was such a huge deal for me. I'm getting teary eyed thinking about it again. For so long I didn't think they were capable to even express that they felt that way, but I'm so glad I'm seeing this side of them. Maybe they're getting a change of heart as they get older, but I hope they continue to show it.
PugofCrydee
You want to know how I got these scars?
Kinda... tormented. Like life's on hold.. but I'll keep on keepin on..
PugofCrydee
You want to know how I got these scars?
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Things are looking up suddenly, I'm PENSIVELY optimistic.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
This is’nae happening, ah must be dreaming... Nope ! I’ve made the Top 50 Most Played Metal Tracks of the Week on SoundCloud... YAASS !! 
And here’s the guitar riff that’s causing all the fuss... for anyone gan:
“Mon then, Graeme, let’s here it !” Apologises in advance if sounds generic as fuck for metal riff.
Started it on Monday, honed it by Tuesday, and recorded it then uploaded to my SoundCloud account on Wednesday.
Fuck know when it started trending on there, though.
Must admit, I’m honestly scared $h!tless about adding the drums or bass to go along with that riff.
And here’s the guitar riff that’s causing all the fuss... for anyone gan: “Mon then, Graeme, let’s here it !” Apologises in advance if sounds generic as f
Started it on Monday, honed it by Tuesday, and recorded it then uploaded to my SoundCloud account on Wednesday.
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Must admit, I’m honestly scared $h!tless about adding the drums or bass to go along with that riff.
LoyalXenite
Well-known member
This is’nae happening, ah must be dreaming... Nope ! I’ve made the Top 50 Most Played Metal Tracks of the Week on SoundCloud... YAASS !!
“Mon then, Graeme, let’s here it !” Apologises in advance if sounds generic as fuck for metal riff.
Started it on Monday, honed it by Tuesday, and recorded it then uploaded to my SoundCloud account on Wednesday.
Fuck know when it started trending on there, though.
Must admit, I’m honestly scared $h!tless about adding the drums or bass to go along with that riff.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
PugofCrydee
You want to know how I got these scars?
This is’nae happening, ah must be dreaming... Nope ! I’ve made the Top 50 Most Played Metal Tracks of the Week on SoundCloud... YAASS !!
“Mon then, Graeme, let’s here it !” Apologises in advance if sounds generic as fuck for metal riff.
Started it on Monday, honed it by Tuesday, and recorded it then uploaded to my SoundCloud account on Wednesday.
Fuck know when it started trending on there, though.
Must admit, I’m honestly scared $h!tless about adding the drums or bass to go along with that riff.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Nah, Pug ! Yer way off, man. More like this...
SoScared
Well-known member
I got logged onto a library computer as I normally do and to my total surprise found myself on this site before I had even checked my email account.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Well... it's fuckin' happened again !! Within 24 hours, yet another of my metal riff ideas has made SoundCloud's Hot & New playlist ! A continuation of the first metal riff idea, written within half an hour. At least I think that's how long it took me to write the 2nd riff ? Cuz it was just after I got back from going a run with my oldest sister that I recorded it. Then, my older sister and her kids came upstairs to tell me my oldest niece is a fan of AC/DC. Not that my sister too happy aboot that, like... judging by her tone o' voice.
Ah mean, both are great, dinnae get me wrong. But, am slightly worried that the final song, when I piece it together, is gonnae be shite, maybe? That's probably just me 2nd guessing, maself.
Within 24 hours, yet another of my metal riff ideas has made SoundCloud's Hot & New playlist ! A continuation of the first metal riff idea, written within half an hour. At least I think that's how long it took me to write the 2nd riff ? Cuz it was just after I got back from going a run with my oldest sister that I recorded it. Then, my older sister and her kids came upstairs to tell me my oldest niece is a fan of AC/DC. Not that my sister too happy aboot that, like... judging by her tone o' voice. Ah mean, both are great, dinnae get me wrong. But, am slightly worried that the final song, when I piece it together, is gonnae be s
That's probably just me 2nd guessing, maself.
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Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Desperately trying to distract myself, cuz it’s been a feckin’ mental few days. But, I'm finding it difficult to do that.
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Just keep channeling that frustration into your riffs, Graeme.
By the way, you've got a new follower on soundcloud, and they left a comment on your riff.
PS - it's me.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Just keep channeling that frustration into your riffs, Graeme.
I’ll try... I’ve got 2 years of frustration to draw inspiration from, anyway.
2016 - 2018 (those were trying times in muh life, man). Must admit, though, am a wee worried that that 1st idea might negatively impact my metal riff writing overall. Especially as I’m considering making a full album.
And that riff kinda feel like a fluke, if I’m honest about it, Since it started out as an alternate picking / coordination exercise on the 6th string for my right hand. I never actually picked up the electric guitar last week intent on writing a riff. In fact, while I was writing the riff, I thought it sounded a bit too generic? Obviously, I’ve been proven wrong by the fact that riff is still trending at the top spot.
And the 2nd riff idea I wrote yesterday, after going back n’ forth discussing it with my oldest sister, is started trending in the metal playlist on SoundCloud’s Hot & New page.In a way, ah feel I’ve got my own back on the guitar tutor who made me quit for 2 years, due to a my lack of progress. Because he never bother to teach me how to play guitar solos. But he’d constantly tell me how great a rhythm guitarist I was... and compliment my passion for playing the guitar
The b@$%@rd ! And, thinking to that period of ma life, I think he might’ve been intimidated by the fact that, every song I asked him to teach me I could pretty much play by the end of each group lesson. Not that I was some kinda music prodigy at 14, oh quite the opposite. But, his loss at the end of the day, really. I’ve learnt way more just teaching myself than he’d taught me in those 2 years, when I was playing the guitar to the point of obsession. Though I’d still argue that I’m not that great a guitarist, I’ve just got an ear for how things should sound, musically. I’m more if a producer than a musician, really.
By the way, you've got a new follower on soundcloud, and they left a comment on your riff.
PS - it's me.
Seriously ?!
Thanks, man ! That’s much appreciated. What d’ye think of it, if ye don’t mind me asking ?
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
I’ll try... I’ve got 2 years of frustration to draw inspiration from, anyway.
Must admit, though, am a wee worried that that 1st idea might negatively impact my metal riff writing overall. Especially as I’m considering making a full album.
Obviously, I’ve been proven wrong by the fact that riff is still trending at the top spot.
In a way, ah feel I’ve got my own back on the guitar tutor who made me quit for 2 years, due to a my lack of progress. Because he never bother to teach me how to play guitar solos. But he’d constantly tell me how great a rhythm guitarist I was... and compliment my passion for playing the guitar
Though I’d still argue that I’m not that great a guitarist, I’ve just got an ear for how things should sound, musically. I’m more if a producer than a musician, really.
Seriously ?!
I listened to your playlist while I was doing things on the computer. I had my headphones on, so it all really sounded great. I don't know how much weight my musical opinion carries, but it all sounds like a young professional to me. You seem to be steadily progressing, becoming more cohesive, like you're finding your own sound. Each track is good, and it sounds like you move between genres with ease.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Thanks, Fountain.
Glad to know the moving between genres thing has worked out, and that it all sounds professionally. Wasn’t entirely sure at first if that would pan out. Cuz I’m very much winging it, and learning how mix and write the songs as I go. And I don’t listen to music much whilist I’m coming up with ideas, if I do it’s usually not the same genre as the track I’m writing, partly to avoid the temptation to rip-off another song outright.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Sod it ! Ah think I'll completely scrap that metal riff and start over... I have a feeling it'll sound generic as fuck if I continue with it as is. And I don't know how to re-write it make it sound better. Someone commented on it, saying if I slowed it down it would sound Pantera-esque, but I don't really hear it. Unless I tune my guitar down to D standard?
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
My propensity for sleep is beginning to rival my love for eating.
Phoenixx
Well-known member
My emotions have been a rollercoaster this week. Last weekend was a great stepping stone in my life and the rest of this week has left me miserable.
I went back to work full-time and have been exhausted all week. My depression is back full force and I've been coming home angry the last 3 days.
I had a huge argument with my husband last night. I still haven't recovered fully. I feel bad for feeling bad. But a part of me isn't even sorry for being upset or even yelling at him. I know I could have handled things better, but I get so caught up in my anger all the time. It's been an issue for awhile now, like years, and I just don't know how to handle it. I still have issues bottling things up until I explode. I hate it. We don't have marital issues, not really, but there has been a priority issue in the forefront for the last couple years and it just makes me so angry that nothing has changed.
I can't change people, I have to remind myself that. I also need to admit to myself that I can be so good damn controlling when things in my life aren't going how I want....
Honestly maybe I just need to focus on myself for a while. I don't know....
I went back to work full-time and have been exhausted all week. My depression is back full force and I've been coming home angry the last 3 days.
I had a huge argument with my husband last night. I still haven't recovered fully. I feel bad for feeling bad. But a part of me isn't even sorry for being upset or even yelling at him. I know I could have handled things better, but I get so caught up in my anger all the time. It's been an issue for awhile now, like years, and I just don't know how to handle it. I still have issues bottling things up until I explode. I hate it. We don't have marital issues, not really, but there has been a priority issue in the forefront for the last couple years and it just makes me so angry that nothing has changed.
I can't change people, I have to remind myself that. I also need to admit to myself that I can be so good damn controlling when things in my life aren't going how I want....
Honestly maybe I just need to focus on myself for a while. I don't know....